day 12

"There is no such thing as "best" in the world of individuals"


"We live in a society driven by the concept of competition. The message is that we must be or must have something "better than" if we have any sense of pride at all. Failure is not an option.
But human behavior can't be judged according to this kind of rating system. How could we ever determine who is the best listener, the most insightful or compassionate? At any given moment, the best for us may not be the best for someone else. If it goes right to the heart, a simple word spoken...is the best. The extended hand, the brief word of encouragement....for us , it's the BEST...

Well Darlins, I did come back from my weekend and I didn't do well.......................well that all depends actually, I did drink, had 2 drinks of wine (small) first night, second night 3 drinks (I know creepy up!) and then spent the 3rd day with the female partner of friends, they own a caravan park northfron us , so I was som happy to spend so much time with her.

But things have changed 0] And I have had a stressful weekend and probaly what I didn't need!

Basically whatb happened is that (my friend 0] ) said to me the boys are busy, so why don't why we go down to the club why they are busy............makes sense until I realised how much money she was poring into the money machines..............scary but not only that!!!!!!!!!!! (don't tell me I am stupid I HAVE WORKED THAT OUT!) We ended up the club again!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I spent $50 while she spent thousands$$$$$$$$$$ and when she had lost all her money I put $5 in a machine and won $800, I was so excited because I had money on stuff I needed. She asked if she could borrow some money to cover for her losses!!! And stupid me I agreed!!! I BUT BE THE DUMBIST BITCH ALIVE!!!! but I did needless today I am $300 short and from what her husband said on the night she has even more lies about me so he thinks I am mean too.
On the most important note of the whole point of this rely..............
There must be something wrong with me BIGTIME because I always end up with a problem....
I am so stressed, I am not clever or smart just like all the people we see on this site.
I AM SHARYN
I AM SHAS
and SOMETIMES SHASSY but sometimes I don't think I am heard.
PS I always pick losres as friends so tell me what i do what do i need to change I am asking all the people i have dealt with to give me feedback coz I NEED HELP

Hey Shas,

You know you are welcome here or on abs too. You had a lousy weekend and made a mistake. I sure can't tell you how to fix everything (I wish I could!! I'm still trying to figure out what to do with me!:( ).

I'm sorry your friend treated you badly and you lost that money. Maybe everyone can help you to figure out howcome you don't pick better friends for yourself. Most of us have probably made a few mistakes in that department. I sure know that I have.

Hang in there Shas!

As for me, well, it's Monday. ..... It's raining.....Blah! I'll post more later, but gotta get ready for work.

Kathy

Hi Shas, Double ouch!!I am soo sorry this happened! Lord knows I've made made my share of poor choices(and chances are...there's plenty more, waiting to be made...:rolleyes ). Probably doesn't help the way you feel right now, but, at least you didn't get arrested or end up in an accident...:eek :( "This too shall pass"....and hopefully real quick!! Hang in there ...We still love ya... Hugs, Judie

Hi all on day 12!

Judie, thanks so much for all the quotes and reflections . . . they are inspiring. I know how you feel about being the "old timer" working circles around the younger ones! Very funny of the silverware - you do make lemonade outta of lemons everytime you come across them. I would be laughing and not caring when my sliverware got there!

Shas, I am sorry to hear that happened. I have chosen a some loser friends in my life and decided along the way - I was really trying to figure out and work on past relationships in my life. When the little red flags go off though after this weekend's learning experience you may be more likely to put your foot down. Acceptance from a loser "friend" is not really what you need in your life. Hope your week looks up from here!

Kathy, you sound so much better this week. sounds like a nice "balanced" day yesterday. It is tough to have those without planning for them sometimes huh?! glad your office is bringing you so much joy!

Becca, How did you do?

Saturday, worked, went and saw my friend in the physical therapy rehab center - very depressing. Came home, made dinner and poured myself rum and cokes in succession. Judie, no water in between either. (Damn) By the end of third one - they were strong! I was feeling quite out of it. sunday morning, hung over slightly and upset that I just let loose like that :o

I listened to the tapes yesterday for the first time. I LOVE THEM!! Here I was figuring they were going to really be horrible and not very helpful. after reading posts here though, I felt I needed to give them a chance. I have not felt that relaxed in ages . . years? He took me so much deeper than the hypnotherapist for smoking last fall. I of course, love the sound of the ocean went to sleep with it for years. I visualized myself in my "retirement" house, kitchen was gorgeous and there were fresh vegetables on the counter. I had a glass of wine on the counter. I also had on shorts and no brace on my leg. I was walking just fine without it. With the sleep CD, I was actually swimming in the ocean.

I simply never had the urge yesterday to have a drink. Just as wonderful is visualizing total health in my leg. Dancing again, swimming again living life without a care about tearing my leg up! WAHOO! ol

Have a great day ladies.

Hugs,
Mary

Hi, folks and best to everyone. Sorry so long out of touch. I was sick last week with earaches and sinus so that kept me on abs. Let's see, we're on day 12. I've gone1-2-3-4 no booze, had physical and allergies shots on 5 - blew it. 6 - earaches started - blew it. 7-8 no booze. 9 - earaches and more rain - jeez will it every end? Been raining a week here - brings me down - physically and mentally then I fall off. 9 - blew it but had fun at least >D 10-11, no booze. So I guess 8 out of 12 is not bad, but it's not good, either.

Judy, love today's quotes. I need to backpedal to catch the rest since my last post. Also hope you are feeling better.

Sharyn, Shas, Shassy, what your friend did to you was horrible. Please try to stay away from her. Such as her is not a friend. I had to separate myself from all negative thinkers. That included a large, very large, group. But it also became apparent who were real friends and who were not. Here, although we are strangers, we can be your friends, at least long distance, while you re-establish your links with other family and friends who are close. That said, please do not despair. There is always hope.

Hi, Kath - have missed talking to you, hope to catch up soon. Now that it has finally stopped raining I hope to turn my energies to all the outdoor chores that need to be done.

Hi, Mary - I don't believe we've met, yet. Welcome and glad to hear you are doing so well.

Shas:( I'm so sorry you're bummin:( . That friend owes you big time... or maybe she just needs to give you some space so you don't give her a big ole black eye! Man, that stinks. Make that pot roast recipe I sent you, and you and hubby have a nice cozy evening in. Hope you two are doing well, at least... don't know if I missed anything on that front.
Lois, your backpacking adventure sounded wonderful! I'm not much for camping anymore (got sort of spoiled for ammenities or something!!) , but used to do a bit of rock climbing in college. Good stuff.

Sorry I've been a bit absentee the last couple days. With mom here, then hubby returning, I've been busy for a change! Kinda nice. All is going well!
I RAN 6.5 MILES YESTERDAY!!!! WHOO HOO! We went to a metropark (12 of us with my Team in Training- leukemia lymphoma society fundraiser --you guys all know I'm totally hitting you up for money soon, right???ol ol ----ANYHOW, we mapped out these trails through the park.. I did some hills, saw 2 deer, tons of squirrels!, kept up with the front of the pack for about 4 miles, but then slacked off for the last couple, but I DID NOT WALK. Little sore today:eek , but it's the good kind!
BTW, I am NOT a hard body! Still have baby flab (yeah, my youngest is almost 5!!!). I asked hubby last night in the NEW HOT TUB (whoo hoo again!!) "when is this (grabbing fat rolls around waist) gonna go away??" His response: "Bec, not to be mean, but you've spent the last 8 years abusing your body. It's gonna take longer than 4 months to get it just right.....
But you're doing AWESOME....."
Sooooooooooo......back at it!
For anyone new checking in, I am not a runner! I used to die trying to get to 1 mile on the treadmill. Totally doing this half marathon in the fall in conjunction with the MWO to change my LIFE! Gives me goals that I must stick with.
So next long run is going to be like 7 or 8 miles. Crazy!!! I just can't believe I didn't stop and walk. I thought about you guys several times. Thank you all for the support. I need it.:D
Where the hell is that heart emoticon????
Love,
Becca
OH!!!Good lord almost forgot: DRINKING!! UM.. Sat: 3 very slowly spaced over a very long boating evening (I'm really proud of myself with this one, more story later) , Sunday after my run, some wine in the afternoon with hubby, a couple wine coolers, MY LEGS HURT! c'mon, gimme a break! hee hee! I was drinking lots of water... spaced out well... no probs. Drank slow, nothing over my drink per hour quota for yesterday. Actually even slower than that and stopped at the end of the night cuz we stayed up kinda late in the new love machine I mean hot tubat

Hi All,

Hey all,

I must admit, I'm having a hard time getting back to my mods plan of being alcohol free when alone. I caved today and bought 2 minis. I'm on my 2nd now. I guess things could be worse, but I am feeling a bit discouraged.

I did up my topa to 250 mg today, so I hope that this will help.

I didn't realize until later yesterday afternoon that yesterday would have been my 23rd wedding anniversary, and it was also the 13th anniversary of the day that we buried my Dad. Charming coincidence. Of course, when we did bury my father, I was still under the illusion that my marriage was on solid ground.....coming back into bloom from a hard period.
Makes me feel sad.

Once nice thing, I am really enjoying just being in my new office. Feels really good. Comfortable, serene, good vibes.

Nite all!
Hugs,
Kathy

Hi all,

Hey I have no idea where to post so I may take a break from posting for awhile! I may start posting in abs...who knows.

Day 10 abs for me! I am going to stick with abs for awhile because I am quitting smoking and staying away from drinking for awhile will help alot with the quit of smoking! And I am sure I could really use a break and a refresher on Abs anyway! At 39 I figured it is time to grow up and get healthy!


Take Care all,
~Tammie

Well guys, I'll try not to fall asleep while I post this... just got home from work a while ago. Picked up an extra shift this week, so feeling it now... But hey! I've got the next 2 days OFF!....If I don't answer the phone:rolleyes ol ...

Just enjoying my first glass of wine for the day...think a pillow will follow shortly after...

Sweet dreams,...Judie

:rollin :rollin :rollin might have to go roll on into the other room... there might be a Naked man in there!:rollin :rollin :rollin


there'd better be!!:b