Day 12

Hi Surfers!

Day 12 is here! In 2 days it will be 2 weeks!
Isn't that unbelievable?!! I think it's stupendous myself!

Well I didn't get my massage, or work out as much as I wanted to, or clean the house & do the laundry. I didn't even manage to get a pedicure. Now the weekend is over, and I don't know where it went! I did get some things done, but I guess I was assuming I would have a lot more spare time now that I'm not drinking. I do have more time now, but I fill it up fast - no problem there, I just need more. If I ever find out who that guy was that invented the 40 hour work week, I swear, you better hold me back! ol

I really have to figure out how to get more time for my music, because now that I'm clear, I see just how necessary it is for my happiness and survival. I can't live a meaningless life for too much longer... unfulfilling work and daily chores just ain't gonna cut it! There's no escaping yourself when you leave the bottle behind I guess. A good thing too!

Ah well, then again, I have a whole lot to be thankful for.

I hope you're doing something you love today...
have a great day all.

Deirdre
(Going to bed on time tonight...for a change...|I ...)

P.S. Don't forget to send out some prayers for Donna!

Donna, you are so wonderful and in my thoughts and prayers. You have given so much to all of us. I am grateful for your giving and support. I hope this note finds you well.
God Bless,
MissLayla
XOXO

Hi all:

Checking in after a frenetic weekend. Didn't make it. Oddly, I made it through two parties Saturday night that were absolutely awash in booze; it was a very quiet Sunday evening that I couldn't avoid thinking about stressors and couldn't resist — er — 3 martinis. *tucks tail between legs, takes deep breath, dives back into the program*

On the other hand, I think the supplements had some effect; it was relatively easy to rein myself in after those 3. A few weeks ago the number would have been much higher.

Congrats to all the rest of you; hope you're all well.

Donna, I'm very sorry for you. Take care.

Andrew

Andrew,

...and congrats to you too. Stopping after the 3 is pretty impressive. I think you're doing really well.

May you continue to enjoy the journey.

Tawny

Good Morning All,

My clearing cd is getting quite the work out lately. Thank you for your prayers yesterday and and this morning! I truly do appreciate them! I have quite a busy day, and will take those prayers with me!!!

Have a good day all!!

Donna

Well Darlins, I did come back from my weekend and I didn't do well.......................well that all depends actually, I did drink, had 2 drinks of wine (small) first night, second night 3 drinks (I know creepy up!) and then spent the 3rd day with the female partner of friends, they own a caravan park northfron us , so I was som happy to spend so much time with her.

But things have changed 0] And I have had a stressful weekend and probaly what I didn't need!

Basically whatb happened is that (my friend 0] ) said to me the boys are busy, so why don't why we go down to the club why they are busy............makes sense until I realised how much money she was poring into the money machines..............scary but not only that!!!!!!!!!!! (don't tell me I am stupid I HAVE WORKED THAT OUT!) We ended up the club again!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I spent $50 while she spent thousands$$$$$$$$$$ and when she had lost all her money I put $5 in a machine and won $800, I was so excited because I had money on stuff I needed. She asked if she could borrow some money to cover for her losses!!! And stupid me I agreed!!! I BUT BE THE DUMBIST BITCH ALIVE!!!! but I did needless today I am $300 short and from what her husband said on the night she has even more lies about me so he thinks I am mean too.
On the most important note of the whole point of this rely..............
There must be something wrong with me BIGTIME because I always end up with a problem....
I am so stressed, I am not clever or smart just like all the people we see on this site.
I AM SHARYN
I AM SHAS
and SOMETIMES SHASSY but sometimes I don't think I am heard.
PS I always pick losres as friends so tell me what i do what do i need to change I am asking all the people i have dealt with to give me feedback coz I NEED HELP

Sorry I just wrote that last one totally stressed but on a learning curve it's this................ all your actions are accountable so I am $ 300 short am not happy ( I could really use that money) but I will survive. The biggest thing was the betrayl and the fact her husband has made a judgement on her LIES. But @#%$ happens and as my husband says........... "it was a cheap lesson" well I don't about that coz I could get EVERYTHING waxed and a whole more well
Love Shas
PS Kathy I Love you............. I haven't met you.............. don't even where you live, but please don't leave.................your loving sweetness is why I am here because there is always someone who has just caring to give and will not judge me NO MATTER HOW BAD I HAVE BEEN!
Love you Shas
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Well to celebrate my 7 AFD's, I decided to buy a six pack of Bud last night. I started after 630pm and watched the NBA game. Around 930pm I opened the last beer, took one drink and then poured it out.
So, yeah I drank 5 beers and feel sluggish this morning. However, I am starting back today determined to achieve another AFD.
Hope y'all have a great Monday.
Love and Peace,
Phil

Hey All!
First of all, this sounds as if it was a tough weekend for many of us...it looked like a huge full moon out there when, so maybe that had something to do with it! And for everyone who feels as though they "messed up"--don't beat yourselves up about it...Not only is it a waste of time and energy, but you just don't deserve it! From what I've been reading here we're all good people trying to do better, and often that takes three steps forward and one (or even two!) back. It KNOW that's a cliche, but it's true nevertheless! Three martinis or five beers does not a failure make--that's why even AA/NA calls it a "slip"! We all slip and fall--what we don't want to hear is "I've fallen and I can't get up!!" (remember that pathetic TV commercial a few years ago?!)

Shas--you are so NOT a "bad" person!! It's a complete shame (on her) that she took advantage of your good nature and your generosity--but she's the "bad" one! Unfortunately, you're out of money because you trusted her--but trust is a good quality and because she abused it doesn't make it any less of a good quality! It's just that we need to be more, shall we say, discriminating (in the good sense of the word) about WHO we trust.... I recently trusted a neighbor with over $600 dollars and the next thing I knew he had moved out and left with my money and that of a lot of other people...it was a sad lesson, but my thinking is a LOT clearer now...

Donna, stil thinking of you and, also your friend and her kids...I was speaking to a woman on Saturday who's son is a junkie and because of your post I was able to be more empathetic about her problem--and also to applaud her that she had finally kicked him out and refused to let him back into her home....sadly, he's in jail now...but at least she can now focus on the rest of her family as well as get her own life back on track. Hopefully, that's what your friend will be able to do....

Hey Layla--how ya doing? And, Deirdre, you're so right that without the alcohol we can't escape from our real selves--and it IS a good thing....how sad it is that so many people only wake up to what they really wanted out of life when it is too late!! I have so many friends who are trying to figure out how to both "follow their bliss" and also make a living...but you are creative and now you are so much more able to find a way to fulfill your need for a meaningful life--hell, you've started already right here with us!! And a BIG HUG for all your help and support!!

I actually had a wonderful weekend--the caterpillars in Vermont were still ghastly and our beautiful maples and oaks are completely defoliated; the mountains have huge swaths of bare trees...it's soooo sad. On the other hand, I planted lots of plants (almost 60!)--annual flowers to give the place some color! I also brought a couple of window boxes and pots of flowers back her to the NYC apartment...lovely!

The birthday party I attended on Saturday had some wine and beer, but it just wasn't a problem and I had a wonderful time and met some great people. How great to be able to remember not only the people I met but what we talked about as well!

Okay, sorry to go on so, but I wanted to catch up after not being able to post all weekend... It's a busy day, PLUS the World Cup is on right now--soccer, love it! My grandfather played for Crystal Palace, the English team, in the 1920's and 30's...

Have a good, "level" day today everyone and be gentle with yourselves!
hugs all, susan

'Morning ya'll

Day 7. 6 down! OK, I've been doing the nutrition portion for a week now... Have been reading the book the last couple of days... and now it's time to add... SHRIEK! Excersize. I HATE EXCERSIZE! sighhhh. But I did come up with a plan that's both excersize AND fun. The kids and I have decided to go swimming and have a picnic 3 times/wk. Now here's one of the benefits of not drinking. I can make plans!!! We were going to start today, but it's thunderstorming... Oh well, like the song says, "If ya wanna hear God laugh, tell him your plans." So plan B is maybe a pulatees (sp?) tape... BLEACH! and board games with the kiddos. Maybe I'll spread a blanket in the family room and we'll have our picnic indoors...

Deirdre, 9 weeks is good to say. This is your baby, baby! WAY TO GO!

Andrew, you stopped at only 3? WOW! I couldn't do that... Congrats on that progress and for getting right back on your plan man.

Layla, I dunno if ya can put L-glut in your shake... I don't see why not but maybe someone here knows better...

Prayers for you, Donna. What a struggle... Chin up. You're prolly stronger than you know at this point...

Sharyn, Oh boy can I relate to your story... Just a few months ago I decided not to hang out with another couple that H & I are friends with... Same kinda senario... They have tons of $$. We went to all kinds of exciting places and ports of call with them. But I just found there was ALWAYS some sort of drama involved. The dramas seemed to spill over onto hubbie and I we'd end up in a tiff. I decided the price was too high for me... for us... and put a lid on the whole thing. We still see them occasionally but only IF it's close enough to home that when the drama starts (Notice I didnt say IF, I said WHEN), We can simply go home! And one side note about picking friends... Remember, it's not about weather or not they like you, it's about weather or not you like THEM!!!

cpn, 7 days! WELL DONE! How did it feel to NOT want that last beer? Hat's off to ya... I couldn't have passed it up.

Susan, good to read ya again! Is "level" our new word? I like it! Although I must admit feeling a bit on edge both last night and this morning. Not over the top bitchy, just an edge. Now here's something interesting that happend as a result... I found myself being brutally honest to my hubbie about a certain topic... something I THOUGHT was only provided to me under the covering of a decent beer buz. Guess I've had some nads all along... tee hee... ROARRRR