Day 15

Wow the middle of June already!

This one seems like a good one for today...

"Birds don't chirp because they want to please their listeners. They chirp because they're birds, and they do it whether anyone is listening or not. Like them, we are what we are- many of our best qualities are results of our individual natures, and the influence of other people has little to do with it.
We have little power to change anyone's nature - even our own. It is a delusion to imagine that if others love us they would change or would do things the way we want them to. No one can manipulate a lion to chirp like a bird.
As I grow in self-acceptance, I am learning to accept other people as they are."


If only I could keep these little quotations right at the top of my brain when it gets insanely busy @ work!!ol Maybe with a little more practice....:rolleyes

Another terrific quote, Judie!! Keep 'em coming, girlfriend!

I'm already feeling overwhelmed today, but it's in a good way!! I've got a lot of cleaning to do (bleech!) and then a few clients to see, then off to PA to pick up Mom. I'll stay overnight up there and then drive back with her tomorrow morning. It will be good to see my aunt again too.

I have been drinking, though. That's the bad news. The good news is that I haven't fallen "back down the mountain". I'm keeping it at 2/wine a day and trying to get my act back together here. Have actually had a bottle in the house and kept to 2/day, which I haven't been able to do since forever.... I'm trying not to be harsh with myself about the drinking. I do know I don't want to drink on a daily basis, but I'm just in a holding pattern here for the moment while I regroup. Just hanging in.

At any rate, I'm gonna cut this out now, check out the boards and then just go clean this darn house!!

Have a good day all !

Hugs,
Kathy

Morning!
ANOTHER quick check in! I'm feeling a bit badly about not being able to really address everyone personally lately, but for the first time in a few months, I'm BUSY!!! Kids off school, swimming, baseball, garage sale, home renovations, taking care of hubbyol . Actually feels good to have a full schedule, though.
Kathy, you are doing fine with the 2 glasses. Hey, the "stop" button is working! Awesome! Safe travels and have fun with your mom.
Jude, I really like that quote, too. I spend a lot of time trying to make other people happy. I'm one of those gotta please everyone people. Don't know what that's all about... Did realize that the change with my drinking had to come from ME though. Not any threats or desire from anyone else for me to change did the trick.
Mary, thanks for the continued encouragement! I was AF on tues, 3 glasses wine last night that made me very tired! Glad to see the rest of it in the bottle this morning!
HOPE, my boys are 7 and 4... those teenage years sound challenging to say the least. You sound like you are handling the situation well now. I'm so glad there are people here who have been through similar situations to help you out and lend advice. I think it was a good call to get her father involved, and you know ahead of time to be telling yourself that this is in her best interest, and this is not between you and him. Sounds strong to me! Hang in there.

OK, gotta go. These guys are taking sledgehammers to my patio! (on purpose)
Becca

Kathy, it sounds to me like you're moderating. That's how I do it.... But, that's good to keep a close check on yourself too. I'm probably more lenient w/me than I should be, comparitively speaking...:rolleyes I'm still a "Saint"....:b
Enjoy your time with your Moma & Aunt!

Rebecca, how're the legs holding up? Hurry & get those guys off of the patio,.... I want to come check out the new TUB!!ol CANNONBALL!:rollin
Good day Everybody, Hugs, Judie

PS, Of course its been raining for the past 2 days(my days off) back to work tonight....Sun is shining bright!! I don't go in till 5:00, tho, so I can still get out there for a while!:b

Hi all,

Kathy - I applaud you - I think you are truly doing quite well. Have you noticed how aware of your drinking you have become? I think that is a huge part of keeping it under control!!

Judie, Where are you getting these quotes as they are really thought provoking. Thank you! By the way - one drink only - you are really in control now!! tough if everywhere you look people know you and have some expectation or another that isn't really you anymore.

Becca, glad to know the wine was still there this morning. You are doing great. It is rather amazing to see an unfinished glass of whatever there in the morning and it wasn't even that overboard night. I am loving that about the program.

Hope, I am glad you had that talk with your daughter. No, I wouldn't put up with anyone abusing my children! Good for you bringing in the big guns - yeah - you just have to make sure he understands it is for the children - not for you. Sounds like you are doing that. Are you feeling any better today?

Well 12 faxed pages of text changes later and 8 pages of and excel programs projects current - completed and upcoming, have changed >: - I am finding I will have to redraw some maps and redo some layouts on the brochures. I am frustrated! My part time designer came in today and really helped make a dent in the other projects so I could focus on this one.

Had a meeting tonight but since I got home after 10 last night, never had a time to do the tapes so think I will bow out of tonight's meeting. Have a networking, early evening tomorrow and a 50th B'day party later in the evening. won't drink tonight and think I need to listen to the CDs as they calm me some from the deadlines and nonsense in this biz. Plus I need my head together for tomorrow evening.

Had a glass of wine with dinner last night. It was fine. didn't need anymore. Desert was fresh fruit and Hagendaaz - mango sherbert. (I can't eat ice cream as I am lactose intolerant - but that sherbert was to die for!!) Should put that under recipes - plain old great tasting stuff from the store!

Hugs to all of you - I am so very proud of the efforts this group has made. We have done an excellent job of testing the bounderies and holding our own!
Mary