Day 23

Happy Day 23 Surfers!
We are now entering the home stretch for real! One week left til 30 dayz!!!

Hey, there's a new kid on the block, everyone say Hello to Positively Radiant!

I hope you are all doing well through the ups and downs, or should I say the swells and hollows of these waves we're surfing. Actually there's a lot of good metaphor material for our journey on the sea. Storms, calms, undertows, even keels, getting beached (stuck?), it's all part of the trip! Hey at least we're not stranded on a deserted island, cuz we have each other! But notice how gorgeous the view is when you're not too busy trying to balance on your board, and watch out for pirates trying to steal your booty (no not your butt, your determination!) ol

And now for my sermon...organ please... ol ...

One of the side effects of not drinking seems to be a building self esteem. Sometimes I can objectively look at myself and I see my life as a gift. Then I think well, then who am I to downplay, suppress or conceal this gift that has been given to me? Who am I to hate it!? I should honor it right? But it's easy for me to look at myself & think of all that is wrong, all that I don't like. I look in the mirror sometimes only to find fault. Imagine being given a gift from someone, and telling them everything you don't like about it!

Maybe the shame that I lived with for so many years drinking is lifting and I can finally see that just because it's ME, doesn't mean I have to dislike it. I am a creature of God, (and I don't mean God in a religious way, but i don't know how to explain my nebulous idea of ... it... nor do I know another word to use...maybe universe...) just like all the other creatures on Earth, some of whom I love very much. So why not love myself? What right do I have not to? I have turned my back on myself in ignorance of the fact that I myself was approved by God to be put here in the first place. And all I can do is look at myself in scorn? That's retarded.

Hope you all have a great day...Keep on Surfin' !

Deirdre

Abundance is not something we acquire. It is something we tune into.
-Wayne Dyer

Hi All,

Wonderful "sermon" Deirdre! Keep em coming!

I think love of self is right up right up there with forgiveness of self and I believe that the two are tied very closely together. Both are very hard lessons to learn. However, if you can forgive yourself for the faults or wrongdoings that you perceive in yourself, I think excepting yourself for who you are and then loving yourself is just around the corner!

Welcome to are new member Positively Radiant!

Dug, thanks for stopping by! Congrats on 73 days!! I must say I agree with Deirdre, I didn't know that NA beer was on the Fat Flush diet either. You aren't actually condoning all those carbs, and sugar too,
are you? :rollin

Have a great Friday all!

Donna

Hi all,
Uuhhggg.....OK, hard day ahead of me. Big story short, oldest teenager had a run-in with the law at 2:00am. Spent night in jail. (this is a first for our family). Court today.....stress today......stress now.....I feel so scared of the parenting teens thing. Wonder how anyone gets through it. I know ya do wheather ya want to or not. Gonna stay strong. Sober equals strong Mom.
Under the influence equals mush mom. I pick strong! Gabby

'Morning ya'll,

Day 18. 17 down.

Gabby, Maaaaaaan. TEENS! They'll screw up your plans for a nice peaceful life every time... Shrug... But you're right... Sober mom = strong mom! Proud of you, girl... Keep your resolve and some extra L-glut handy, k? Rooting for ya.

Off to swim... Will check on ya'll after...

HAPPY NOT HUNGOVER FRIDAY YA'LL!

Morning all,

Welcome P.Radiant! Read your story this morning and so happy you've come here!:d

Oh Gabby!!
I think jail may be just the thing some teens need to understand that there are rules in this old world and things go much better if we obey them!! My nephew, now in his senior year of collage, spent one night there and had to do some community service to work it off. He's in great shape now and going into dental school next year! On scholarships! appy It was tough for awhile but he had to see the light himself.

Deirdre...loved the quote. I like to read his books.
So many people think of God as religious but he's not. He is Spiritual. He is Spirit and we are Spirit having a human experience. We have a body, mind and a spirit. We are only as healthy as we keep these three parts of ourselves.
I love you, girl...Keep up the good work!

It feels great to be sober!
Had a great couple of days with grandchildren. Swimming, shooting arrows and playing soccer and horseback riding. We cooked out and I got my hug and kiss account filled to overflowing!appy

"My cup runneth over"
Have a good weekend everyone.:d
Nancy

yes, have to say tis good to be sober. yesterday i was late taking my afternoon supps and i was thinking how good a glass of wine would taste and i just walked right through that with a hike with doggies and all those supps kicked in with the lglut and all. so happy tea time instead. phew. each day offers a new challange. and each day i've managed to say no. some days i honestly don't know how i've actually done that. so happy to not have that hang over. welcome radiant. and hang in there gabby. you've been quite a contribution on this site to many. so just know that comes back to you today big time in being strong. have a nice swim and a nice summer day. and i'm off to work and then hopefully gym. since i have a spa membership. i think i shall spa it with nice book. hubby is going to dinner and drinks with clients. i've declined. :0 think i'm busy tonight with a book. happy friday and thanks dug for checking in 73 days had me seriously not having that wine yesterday. i mean really hold out k. hold out.

uhhggg..........still dont know anything and just dieing. OMG....havent taken any supps or topa....gonna now...near panic. I am so glad I can come here and post cuz its not like I wanna call any of my friends right now. Thanks for the words of support Kim and Nancy. Hard for me to admit but.......i do need it right now. gab

Thanks for your welcomes! Hold on, Gabby! I love your sober mom = strong mom - that is so what i need to learn. I have teens, too and yesterday the middlest one drove me around the bend...did not have a good night...must see if i can find l-glut somewhere here in Canada. Also missed my supps last night at dinner...is it really that delicate a balance? I find I just about fly after my breakfast shake with the AllOne...hardest time for me is making supper as I always had a glass of wine...guess my body is waiting for it...today i had pomegranate/blueberry juice instead...also may have to rethink waiting for hubby to get home from work to eat...I substituted wine for food in the past so i wouldn't be so cranky by the time he got home...i really need self-esteem help, too and my middlest one complains about her lack of self...sigh...soo much to work on...hope i make it through the night...don't know why it's harder now...glad you're all here

PositivelyRadiant, Can I call you PR? WELCOME! Pom/blueberry juice? Sounds yuuuuuum and a good choice! I think it was my second or third day of abs that I had a close call with wine. I put applejuice in what used to be my wine hiding coffee cup and got past it too. LOL... Good for you on the fast thinking! I think it was Deirdre who warned me to watch out for low blood sugar... It makes ya crave alchohol when it's too low from hunger. Glad you joined us PR! Post away and have a blast here at the zoo...

Well...We all got through the day. Son is ok. Real shook up. Knows he screwed up. Knows what he has to do to dig himself out. So we'll see. Me......well in spite of the stress...I've made it through day 17. I feel tired, emotional, think I look like gshit....but tomorrow is anther new day. One that I can feel happy about not having exceeded my newly set boundaries for myself the day before. gabby