day 27

"Have patience with all things, but first of all with yourself."
F de Sales

Today, I am peaceful in the knowledge that faster isn't better- better is better.:P

Good morning all!

Nothing much to report at this point! Just that I'm up and making my coffee, now that they're saying that coffee once again is GOOD for you:rollin . I have been so tired lately--last night I fell asleep in front of the TV at 9:00 pm!! That is so NOT me (even just watching TV)

I'm just getting back into my routine with my mother gone now. I'm a person who really enjoys having another adult in the house. It doesn't have to be a lover/husband per se (maybe even better because not as much opportunity for conflict!). I was actually very productive and easily drank less with my mom here, even though I was also taking care of her (doing more cooking and cleaning than normal, etc.) It's interesting. I think I've been living a lone for too long!

I've also been a little bit down because my practice is slow due to summer. I've been thinking of doing like Judie and maybe getting a part time job waiting tables so I don't have to worry about $$ and to have some fun this summer. I just want to increase my income a bit for a while--people usually start therapy in the fall--like the rest of us, they want to play in the summer sun!!

Anyway, coffee's done!!! Off to start my day. I've got to finish up a few practice flags and get a shower before I'm off to work!

Have a good day all! How are you Hope and Marcie? I haven't seen you for a day or so???

Hugs:d
Kathy

Good morning everyone!
Kathy, when I'm around my mom, I do better with the drinking too. Maybe cuz "she KNOWS"! Being alone can certainly have it's dangerous moments, but you have been doing great! I have always wanted to take up a little job at a boutique sort of place or something, if I wanted to fill up time and make a little extra cash. Could not go back to waiting tables (sorry Jude, it's too stressful!). Suppose the $$ wouldn't be near as good, though!
Mary Anne, it's great having you here, I must say again. This site, even after 5 months, is still a constant source of enlightenment, support, and accountability for me. You will do great if you stay close. Great you say you have lots of time to keep reading and posting! It helps.

Well, here's my count so far (2 days into it...whoop dee doo!!ol )
4 drinks, 7 miles. YAY! Yesterday was alcohol free. Got my 7 miles in on the treadmill, and didn't want to wreck it! Plus hubby was out of town and I have been making a point to not drink when he is gone.
So far, so good. Don't know if my "more miles than drinks" plan will play out on this first week I'm going for it. Either my lets are gonna be really sore, or I'm gonna be really thirstyappy :rollin . It's a really good goal, anyhow.

Off to swim practice!
Take care, everyone.
Becca

Well done, Becca!!!appy

Great job Becca! I'm here Kathy, just stopped home from work for some lunch! I didn't drink yesterday, tonight I'm sure I will. Tomorrow is my appt with the Gastro doc to find out about tx. I'm kind of excited to get this underway and get rid of the damn virus! Not sure when I will start, I guess I'll find out more info tomorrow.

Have a great day everyone!

Marcie

Hey there everyone, don't know what happened to my computer, but when I went home and went to post, none of my postings were there!? Then, after writing a few "I AM SO MAD" comments, I think I realized I din't go to all the pages (feel silly!) guess I am still a little new to this!! I am starting day 2 also, and have NO intention to drink today anyway!! Worked out yesterday and plan to tonight.........just got the book last night to, so sat and read 1/2 of before turning in.....good stuff!

Mary Anne:D

ARRGGGG!!!!! I just spent about 1/2 an hour typing a responce to everyone here... got a phone call from someone wanting me to work for them ... in an hour... (its a 20 min drive fom our house) and I'm not even showered... I worked a 9 hour shift for the same person yesterday.... so I guess ... NO!! Kinda late, to ask, to get a shift covered. I'm such a sucker! I almost did it!! Oh well! Not my day to save the world! My day for me!!appy Gonna post this now & hope it doesnt dissapear!! Just a bit frustrated right now!!:P :p

Hi All,

Judie, Mary Ann - the computer stuff is suppose to only go awry when Mercury is in retrograde! I spent a couple hours this afternoon getting my Qwest DSL line installed with all computers, printers, browsers, fax line, ftp programs working. Everything, I mean my office was torn apart with wires gong all over until I got it worked out. Guess what - my mail won't go out now - qwest guys tells me that is not in my business, plus program. I will call my local server tomorrow to see what preferences can be changed to make this work! Paint me frustrated red!! Service - GEEZ!>:

I am glad you didn't go tonight Judie. You need a rest!

Kathy, my mom has no idea of my drinking. It is well hidden but I have a tendency to not need to drink around my parents. How weird is that?:eek I am glad you had a great time with her.

Becca, you are so wonderfully honest and I applaud you for seeing that even when you trip - you don't fall quite so low - I think this is a process. appy Good for you!

Marcie, dear, I sure hope you are feeling well these days. Good luck tomorrow.

My mom did OK yesterday, results will be in on Thursday. I sure hope they don't have to go back in as the tumors are so close to her heart and lungs that they had to do the full cut her open thing so needle biopsies would not puncture her lung or heart. she is sooooo frail. Truth is watching the two of them yesterday so is my dad. :c

Well, kid has his mri tomorrow morning coming to our side of the city while I am scheduled for my mammogram same time on the other side of the city since they have to do a bone density scan this time only place with that machine. Hubby has done a nice job filling in as taxi driver for some of this. My son is totally determined to go to Europe. They even have tickets for World Cup in Germany and he says I am not missing that. You know he tore his knee up playing soccer.

I felt worn to a frazzle last night and I felt my own mortality. I had a couple drinks but just didnt' have it in me to get drunk. I really feel I am reving myself up for one as I guess I just need to remember how much better it feels not to be hungover. I am not handling all the crisis super well. Made a bunch of dishes on Sunday, for my son, my parents, and my wheelchair bound girlfriend. While visiting her, I felt lucky I was in OK health and oh so sad for her. I cried on my home from there.

I think I need to go to Europe!! or at least somewhere fun with no phones calling in disasters and deadlines!!:smokin

Well, hope you are all doing well, resting up and enjoying life!

:d to all of you,
Mary

Hi All Again!

Hey Judie! I'm glad you took care of yourself today!! Did you then lose your post into cyberspace too??? I'd be pissed!!!

I actually did better with my mom around cause she was a source of comfort and on my own "turf"! I don't do as well when I'm visiting her, because then I'm a bit at loose ends and more bored!:rolleyes I guess I just like having company when I'm in my regular routine.

Becca, you are sure doing great so far with your new plan! Keep up the good work!!:rollin

Marcie, I think you are doing great, and I hope you will keep us posted about everything that goes on. I can understand that you just want to get this going and get on with it!!! We'll all be by your side in spirit--I hope you know that!:d

Way to go, Mary Anne! We don't know each other well, yet, but I'm sure we will get to know each other as time goes by! Sounds like you are doing great, so far.

Well, Mary, you've sure got your hands full--so I will say a little prayer that your son is okay and that your Mom is okay, and that you have the strength to cope with it all, as well as your own mammogram and all else!! My goodness, today sounded so chaotic for you!! A big hug for you!:d I'll go to Europe with you!!!

Actually big hugs for all!!! :d :d :d Hugs don't cost a thing!

Love to all!
Kathy