day 4

"We need our friends. Not just for good times but for basic health. In isolation, everything becomes magnified.... Without others to help us form our bounderies & perceptions, whatever we can imagine becomes monstrous & whatever becomes monstrous becomes reality."
"BY connecting with friends, we're able to see that our monsters are only about knee-high, that most of our fears are made of smoke, and that no grey day can hold out against the sunshine of commom sense".....:rollin ..And good ol fashioned spontaneous(sp?) humor!!"

Yoohoo Tammie, Rebecca ,Oshadog,&Tawny... did you guys run away together?... Oh I get it ... hide & seek... :rollin

Morning, Judie. Hope all is well with you and you are feeling better. I made it through the family BD party at my boyfriend's house yesterday without a drink in my hand but lots of water ... yeehah. And them heavy drinkers. So I am feeling well this AM and BF and I are on a new track. He's getting closer to getting with the program.

Hope everyone else is doing well today and have a great and sparkling one.
Cathy

Good morning all! Love the thought for the day Judie, how true!!! Friends are essential for our health. Well done, Cathy! That was a real accomplishment to make it through the party! I hope you are feeling good about yourself! I'm glad things seem to be going the right way with bf.

I'm just headed for another regular day here. It's lovely out, so maybe I'll get outside for a bit--to relax, not work!ol

Hugs to all!
Kathy

St Jude, I'm back! and Today is My Birthday Day! 41 and fun!

I went over my ideal goal of 3 drinks/night on both Fri & Sat. Went to the bike shop after eating dinner and drinking 2-3 glass of wine. Think I had 3 beers at the shop. I was very 'unmindful' about my drink count so eventhough it's not real high, I could have done a lot better

Yesterday, went hiking with hubby and 2 great friends in Western NC to a place with a 360-degree view. Awesome! Had a post-hike beer and then 2 sparkling meeds at dinner -- great Sushi restaurant, then found there was an outdoor blues fest and walked around there. Had a glass of wine there...friends bought it for me. Meed is higher alcohol content than wine but the glass looked like the same volume. >D

So 5-6/night instead of 3 is over the ideal but not a bad count. We had lots of fun and it was all good times with good friends -- appropriate for today's quote! I would still like to moderate a little more in social situations since I start my mornings off sluggish.

NOW. It is time to get some Alcohol Free days in since I only had one last week. Although we have an open bottle of wine and will be eating at the inlaws tonight so I guess tonight will be 1-2 glasses with the meal. That's okay, it's my birthday!

I thought a lot about one of Judie's quotes a couple days ago, about having all the know-how about changing habits but not implementing. It's time to implement some change. I'm slackin' on some things like supps and AF days.

We have sunshine again today and I will get out and soak it up. I'm looking forward to the 1st full week in June being consistent and content.

Lois

Good morning! Great thought Judie! Awesome to start the day!!

Yesterday was great! I didn't lose any of my kids for starters!ol I can laugh about it now I guess!:rolleyes anyway.

We just did around the house stuff and went to Lowes, bought some flowers and seeds. Had some company over for dinner and stuck to my plan of 2 glasses of wine. :D weirdly it didn't taste good and I really wasn't happy after I drank it. Go figure.:\

I decided to plant this year. I haven't done that since b4 my life went haywire a few years back. Feels like it's time. Feels good. That's the great thing about Texas...you can start your garden any time of year!

So this is what today will be about. After church, planting the garden, (small square foot garden) then planting myself on a floatie in the middle of my pool for the afternoon with a giant sparkling water. 8) Used to be endless parade of beer. This is an AF day for me. I'm looking forward to it.

Oh...I ran out of Kudzu this morning. I've ordered some but it didn't arrive yet. I'm freaked a little, but not in full panic yet. Just gonna up the L-glut. Any thoughts on that?

Happy Sunday to All
Lots and Lots of Hugs!!
Hope8)

Happy Birthday Lois! Hope you have a great day!

As for me, sorry I didn't check in yesterday. Spent the day with my kids and getting all my supps lined up for the week. I did start taking them all again yesterday as well as the Wellburtian and topa. So yesterday was an AF day for me and I do plan on staying that way for awhile....

Sunny and pretty day here! Have to run into town, my son needs new shorts then I think I will sprend some time in my flower gardens...

Have a great day All!

~Tammie

ps: Rock, great job at the Family get together! Those times can be really stressful.

Hope,

You can take 3000mg a day of the l-glut. Up it to that amount and try not to worry....if we worry that is when we stress and the unwanted happens:rolleyes ! You'll be fine!!!

Take care,
~Tammie

Hey everybody, Well yes I am re-posting a bit late...:rolleyes Been all the phone with a good friend in a bit of crisis... trying to get her to come here...

Hey! Happy Birthday Lois! YOU SWEET YOUNG THANG! I'll still "card ya"! And you know, I think sometimes just being aware of our habits can be a good tool in helping to change... it's not like it happens overnight!ol

Cathy, Congrats on getting thru the B-day party with just water. Hope you at least had some fun!! Did you tell any jokes? Or better yet... got any new ones for us?

Kathy, enjoy your beautiful weather there... I'll be thinking of you, while I sit here watching it POURING down RAIN AGAIN...:(

Hope Congrats on keeping your tribe together! maybe you could get them all one of those little "chips" put in their ear... like they do @ the vet! Have fun playing in the dirt!

Tammie, sounds like fun playing in the flowers, still raining here! Maybe by tomorro it'll clear up! It'd better... I finally get a few days off! Yeah!


And speaking of work.... yesterday I was looking @ the back of my ticket book where I always write down the list of availabe desserts that we have.... I kinda have my own "short hand" because I'm the only one who usually sees it...

We always have anywhere from 10 to 15 diff, fresh, home-made types of pies... Blackberry, Blueberry, Strawberry/Rhuebarb, Custard, Cherry, Apple, French Apple, Chocolate , Chocolate Peanut Butter, Pecan,Butterscotch cream... you get the picture...

So, the back of my ticket book (that if you're a curious customer) would read...

Blk
Blue
Strw/Rhu
Appl/Fr App
Choc/PB Choc
Pec
Butt Cream :rollin

I was looking at it & showed one of the other waitresses, & told her I sure hope one of my customers doesnt think that's my shopping list on the back of my ticket book! Maybe I should see how many people are paying attn ... and add K-Y Jelly, Baby Oil, etc, Sex wax...:rollin We could start a new waitress trend!


And of course the other girl I showed it to is as nutty as I am!! She just went off! ol
We also sell fresh Crab, so she walks around the room saying very loudly, "I have crabs!" Guess you'd have to be there! she's a nut!

A couple of years ago, there was an unrully customer in the restaurant & the owner asked her to call the cops, she was standing by at the phone, and yelled out, (in a room full of people) , "What's the number for 911?" ..... She wasn't kidding, and she's not blonde! Just a real nut! Geniune!! Never a dull moment!


Last week one of the other girls kept complaining to the manager, all night about having a headache...
Later towards the end of the shift she went up & was talking to her again & mentioned that she hoped it wasn't her appendix! Donna(the Manager), just looked at her and said, "Kris your appendix aren't in your HEAD!"ol

Ya,:rolleyes go ahead & ask , do I feel like the resident genius? ol

Hello....
Happy Birthday, Lois!

So I've upped my topa but didn't take my afternoon dose yesterday cuz we were at a wedding...drank really slowly at first. Had only had 3 drinks and it was 8pm. Then we all started having a really fun time, dancing, etc. Hubby's work people are a riot!! I drank a bunch of plastic cups of cheap chardonnay, then hubby said it was time to go home, but I don't remember the ride home or getting to our hotel room or anything. First episode like that. And that was my ultimate goal of this program. To avoid black out, and all that sh*t.
SOOOOO, I had already said that last wk was my worst week of drinking since I started since I had to go off the supps because of my tummy. I'm finished the parasite cleanse. Haven't heard back from the lab yet. Did not do ANY AF days last wk.
Hubby is not even angry. He knows about the stomach issues and that I've had to readjust everything so I've gotten irritated and very sloppy. Been saying it's time to smarten up for several days now, but since I was so-called "mindfully" drinking (I think upping the topa kept me from going to the dark side) I was still just having fun and kind of sliding into my old ways. M-I-L had the kids for the weekend, by the way.
sigh
since I did not take the afternoon topa, I don't have a headache, so that's a plus, if there's an up side to having a hole in your memory.
No drinking for me today. Pulling out the diary. Going to up the topa to 150 today.
I have to make this work. Was doing so well for so long! Maybe I should try adding the supps back in one by one?? I don't know if they were causing my upset stomach, but it is resolving. Was it a mind game that the supplements were really controlling my drinking so well for those months? Frustrating that apparently *I* can't do it my own damn self.

I'm feeling quite loser-ish today, despite hubby's affirmation that it wasn't a big deal. I need to look at the month of june and be proud of it... NOT see what I'm looking at these last several days. ugh. gross.

bec

Judie,

That is just too funny!!!! Okay had my laugh now off to town for clothes for Eric...

Becca, try adding the supps in slowly if you want....one or two at a time! Start with the important ones like the l-glut or Kudzu.... I some times wonder if it isn't all a mind game we play on ourselves also but hey what ever works! I did add all the supps back in yesterday. All but the "All one" that is, will wait a few day to see how my tummy is reacting... Glad you had a good time! We all derserve nights out with our hubby's now and then!

Have a great day all!
~Tammie