Day 6

Hey guys! Hope everyone is doing well with the June ABS - better than me, at least. I haven't done as well as I would like. I WANT TO but some of the triggers are SO STRONG. HELLLLLPPPP!!!!!!
I do feel better over all and am moving in the right direction - just wish I was better as abstaining for longer periods of time. I have a family wedding at the end of July and my goal is to have a month of ABS under my belt so that I can attend what would normally turn into a huge drinking event for my family into a non drinking event for me - maybe having enough time with the MYO program to have only one celebratory glass of champagne with my sister (the bride). I know, I know, this brings to mind that Sandra Bullock movie where she messed up her sister's wedding. I have never done anything that crazy, but still want to have it under control. It is usually my Dad who gets crazy at these events and I think he has his drinking more under control than in the past.He has done some pretty crazy things at family events - mostly funny stuff - but crazy non the less. On one occasion he got physical with his wife and I - that was BAD. He felt so terrible the next day - crying and apologizing. Thank God that only happened once.
Blessings to you all and thanks for all the strength and support you offer just be being here!
wellseasoned
OOPS!! This is DAY 5. Sorry

Hi Wellseasoned! That wedding scene from 28 days is pretty funny & sad all @ the same time! Kinda "painfully" close sometimes! I'm sure my sister can relate to that movie in a lot of ways...unfortunately...:rolleyes |I
Good luck with your upcoming wedding ! ... Hugs, Judie


Day 5

Thanks, Judie!
Blessings and hugs back at ya!
wellseasoned

Here I am ... better late than never, I guess. Had some 'puter probs and lots of other things happening. I haven't actually worked out a plan as such so I will just do that after reading all the posts. Just that I have proven to myself over the past week or so that I can abstain for days at a time, I can abstain until evening time, I can not open every single bottle of alcohol that exists in the place, I can walk past the wine section of the supermarket and not buy anything, I can throw away half-drunk glasses of wine etc. I am feeling stronger and stronger and less panicky every day.

So now I feel I have gotten to the point where I can actually make a plan ... I will get back to you people later in my day. I am off to the gym now, first day of that. Scary!

Man somehow I just lost my post....now I have to remember what I wrote.

I just read WWs moderation plan and it's very thoughtful. I'm going to take part of it to heart and tell you that I did a lot of things right yesterday -- eating, exercising. Only thing that wasn't as planned was finishing the open bottle of zinfindel left over from my birthday dinner. We now don't have a drop of alcohol in the house. Yesterday was a long day, after 8-hrs work, I had a 3-hr volunteer meeting, and then 1-hr grocery shopping. Hubby did wait for me to go walk so at least I still walked. Wished I poured the bottle of zin down the drain, but oh well. It's gone now!

Today I'll continue doing what I did right yesterday AND be AF.

Becca, I tallied my drink count from last week and it was 20, compared to my stellar weeks in May of 5-8 drinks/week, last week is too high and too much like the habits I'm trying to erase. What was it about last week? Must have been the cross over from May to June. Stay on track! I'm already at 8 drinks for this week so I have the brakes on now!

Hope, I realized that due to having visiting coworkers from other offices this week I won't be able to follow the detox diet perfectly. We have some "team lunches" scheduled (boring). I'll eat the best I can and am incorporating as many aspects as possible. Later this month, I'll have a a less busy 11 days and can more easily work the full program. I can't believe you were on crutches with a 6-week old baby! That's amazing….

Kathy, sounds like June is going well! Yeah! I'm glad for you.

Judie --when are you going kayaking?

Everyone, have a good Tuesday and be happy.

Lois

Hi All!

thought I'd get a bright, early start after almost not posting at all yesterday!! I have a long day today, but fortunately, a good break right in the middle, just right for listening to the hypno cd's and getting a nutritious bite to eat!

I've know been hinting around that I've been getting a little sloppy in my thinking and behavior lately, so I am going to be stricter with myself for a while. I'm not going completely abs, but I'm going to do the no drinking unless I'm out socially thing, at least for a month or two. I want to get back to feeling the way I was when I was doing abstinence and keeping my commitment to the program a lot more front and center in my mind than it's been. Now that I'm not so consumned with getting the offices set up, I figure it is time to get going with this again!

What do you all think? I know it makes me feel better to put it out there!

Love and Hugs!

Kathy

This is a very strange start to day 6....!! 4 posts under what was actually day 5 of maybe an abs threadol . Hey, we're flexible here!!

Wombat, you sound excellent. I love your posted moderation plan. Your daily thoughts, the positive reinforcement you give yourself sounds like it will help so much. I especially like the part where you think about the alcohol you did not drink the day before and how good that was for you. Kind of in line with the drink diary we have been talking about.

Hope, I REALLY hope you start feeling better. Thought we might get over this funk about at the same time! I'm pulling for you. Please, please, get well soon, and if it doesn't resolve, you might have to break down and see that doc:x I know. I still have not heard back, but things have started clearing up on their own with the herbal business I was doing.

Jude, hope no one wants any warm pie today!! Or a fork for that matter! I told you about the topa and my monthly... hang in there, but get it checked out if it continues to be as bad as that was... good advice Mary.

Kathy, your office sounds very chic! Now get your program together, lady! Hey, just friendly advice from the moron who LOST IT last wk.

Speaking of which...interesting observation for the moderators: I was off the supps for I think about 10 days. Now, whether it was my crappy attitude because I was so dang frustrated with being ill, the "cravings" because the supps had worn off instantly, or a combo, my attitude just sucked last wk. I was still taking the topa, but was able to drink way too much on it at 100-125mg. Started supps back up Sun night. 3 drinks over 7 hrs Sun. 2 glasses of wine over 4 hrs yesterday. Better! Felt like when I first started! Like that taste in my mouth where I just did not want to drink it nearly as much, as fast, etc. Did not get the effect either. Kudzu, LGlut, and Gaba I added back in. And about 1/2 of an allone dose yesterday AM. 125mg topa.
Would have even (maybe?) abstained altogether...sunday friend brought me over wine and last night hubby made awesome "date night" food (crab cakes, tomato, cucumber and avacado gazpacho...) cuz he's going out of town for the rest of the week and he wanted to share a bottle of wine. Kicker: he opened a 2nd bottle and I did not have a sip of it.
Felt good. Like how I was doing before!

SOOOOOO: he's going out of town tues thru Fri and I need my AF days per plan. 2-3 of them per wk. Tonight will be one, no problem, I can just tell (those kids better behave...ol jokin). Now to just make this a routine again and remember what happens when those old feelings sneak in ("oh screw it, I'm just gonna drink"... those feelings, ya know?)
THANK GOODNESS for the drinkin diary, or I'm afraid it could have gone on for longer than a week.
Think I may post about it on the gen. discussion board. Really good tool. What do you guys think?

Love,
Becca

HA!
Kathy, Lois, and I were all posting together, and asking what each other thought of things:D
Lois, I don't know what it was about last wk. Honestly, the thought did cross my mind about "it's not June YET". See? crappy !! nice excuse:evil . I'm over it, anyhow.
Kathy, if you think that you want to do that type of near abs, YOU GO, GIRL. Hey, if you feel you are close to a sloppy slip or don't like the way things are headed, grab it by the horns NOW. We keep saying to learn from our mistakes and be smarter next time. How smart would it be to see it coming but keep heading in that direction??? I'm logging your wisdom in my mind right now, too, so HOPEFULLY next time I feel close to that, I will do something else other than hover around like I did. Glad I pulled out of it, but still....:rolleyes
Very cool, Kathy! Smart.
Becca

OK .. thanks for that +ve feedback from you people. Here is a thought. How's about we start each thread with something positive about ourselves and what we did the day before?

I mean ... here we all are, bursting with intelligence, beauty, activity and absolutely extra-ordinary coping ability. I am totally sure that we will not be telling one word of a lie if we start each post with a little "boast" of something good we did the day before. Even minor. We are all suffering from a bit of a lowering of self-esteem, no? I reckon we can pat ourselves on the back here without anyone thinking it is a bad thing. Hell, we aren't anyone's mother's-in-laws, are we? (that is a joke just in case it doesn't translate across cultures ....).

Sooooo what do you think?

I will start it off ... my pelvic floor muscles got a really good working out today.

Oh Yeah Lois? How'd you work them out?:evil ol