I am just a basket case

[CS04]

Beth, thanks for helping me to not pick up the AL today. Finances are in the sitter and I don't want to think about it. I'm pretty upset. But I am goin to TRY to get thru this evening. Making dinner, which I am about to go do, is a big trigger for me.

[Lucy Van Pelt]

I hope you made it thru the night CS04...I am on to day 4..thank God!!

[livingfree]

Hi Beth ... I totally understand. I was exactly where you are ... for to many years to count. I would be so firm in my decision in the morning - but by 4 o'clock I would be giddy and planning my evening of "relaxing". It is crazy ... these brains of ours.

The early days of not drinking just have to be fully consumed with NOT drinking. It's like you have to pour the same energy into NOT drinking that you did drinking. I'm sorry to say I had to pour this kind of energy into being AF for months. But just ending my 7th month - It honestly is so much easier. But I stay diligent to being free. I don't know at what point I won't have to stay committed ... I'll just BE. That is the goal.

Antabuse - or whatever it takes. Just get some time under you - and know that you can not, will not and choose not to drink alcohol

Just a suggestion - when that time of day rolls around - make yourself a good tasting cho. protein shake. It really helped me to cut the craving. Don't know why. Here is the recipe I use:

In a blender mix:

Raspberry club soda (diet variety)
1 scoop of chocolate whey protein powder (I like American Whey from Amazon)
1 packet of raspberry crystal light
handfull of ice
handful of fresh raspberries

Tastes great - only 110 calories and helps chase away the "I feel cheated" feeling of the early evening.

Best to you sweets

[Accountable for Me]

to you Beth. You are doing great! Keep on going!

[southernbelle47]

Beth
This is hard isn't it?
I went to bed last night with hubby who had several and had offered to go get me some while sitting outside.
I said no but faught it.....

I'm just so tired of feeling weak and let down when I give in...

There is nothing stronger than beer (his drink of choice) in our house.
It is better that way as I am not tempted as it takes too many to get numb.

There is so much pain in life and we who feel it have to look for other ways to calm that.

Keep searching...it's within each of all of us to be free.
Love
Nancy

[KateH1]

Beth,
So happy that you are getting back on track! Alcohol addiction (perhaps all addiction) is the craziest thing. We hate it, but we are convinced that we cannot do without it. Even though the experience always ends the same way, feeling bad, at times feeling physicly ill, we always believe that the "next time" it will be different. I wonder if medical science will ever come up with answers as to how, who, why and when this addiction happens?

Until, then, we have to use whatever works for us. Antibuse may not be a long term solution, Beth. But what is a long term solution? It would seem that the answer to that question will always remain the same, Today I Will Not Drink.

Much Love,
Kate

[KatieSmiles]

Stay on track Beth!

Love you!
K

[Lucy Van Pelt]

Thanks again guys...

On day 4, and took my antabuse first thing this morning, while still feeling strong. I may kick myself later, but I now know I will not drink tonight, or tomorrow.

You all have such wise words. Until science can figure out a sure cure for this thing, we have to do what ever it takes to keep on not drinking. I am trying to just get some time under my belt. The witching hour is hard, but by bedtime I am ok, if not before that. If that is as bad as it gets, on day 3, well I can live with that.

Feeling stronger...a heck of alot better than the other night.

Living, that recipe sounds amazing...I am going to try it for sure!! Thanks!

Love you all so much!!

Beth

[more2life]

Woo Hoo Beth, We are on to day 4.

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[Hundi]

Beth

You are such an assett. I hate to think of you disliking yourself. You make my day day on a regular basis 6;30am and I cannot sleep because you are more important. Indulge me and be well honey, I am home alone today should you need me.

Hundi xxx