I feel so empty sad and lost WHY?

[AMELIA]

Sweetpea,
I am sorry to read that you are feeling so low. I do think others find our drinking problems very difficult to understand (because they don't have the problem themselves). Your hubby is probably very scared of what may happen to you during a slip, or that you may never stop once you start. His threats to leave are probably a mixture of tough love and fear for your relationship and for your health.

Don't isolate yourself from him and the family. You need as much support as you can get. Perhaps moderation just isn't for you honey. Maybe you need to abstain totally again?
Counselling? Antabuse?
I can empathise wholeheartedly with how you are feeling. My partner has said if he ever finds another hidden bottle he will leave me....and I believe him (or at least don't want to find out either way).
Keep close to the boards. Thinking of you.
xx

[vera-b]

Hi Sweetpea,

Just wanted you to know there's another voice out there in your corner. Nothing makes us feel more worthless than the people who are supposed to love us (and they do) speak to us in such harsh ways (the truth really does hurt). Usually they are telling us something we already know deep in our hearts, and I think that's where some of the pain is. While on the surface we're proud of our accomplishment, we know deep down we haven't conquered the beast and we're being called on it. I think that's why so many of us - including RJ - "hide" so much of our drinking. We're hiding from ourselves as well as the ones we love.

Sounds like you've got a lot of thinking to do. Maybe a long walk to let out some painful emotions and help sort out your choices is in order. Be kind to yourself. Know that we're all rooting for you.

V.

[cuckoosnest83]

Dear Sweetpea,

I am so sorry you are hurting right now and I wish I had some wise words to console you but I don't. Sometimes I think it is best just to go with the sadness for a while but don't get lost in it. Sweetpea, all I can say is that there are a lot of people on this site who care about you and love you and are here for you whenever you are feeling lost and lonely. I hope things work out for you and you will be in my thoughts as you go through this sad time.

Cucks

[57Shelby]

Sweetpea, I cannot add any better advice than you have already gotten here. I just want you to know that I am here for you. You are strong and you will get through this. Shelby

[sweetpea]

Just to say love you all loads and thanks for the support. I feel completely and utterly emotionally drained will post a again later and reply to the pms thanks love sweetpeaxxxxxxxx

[Captnjack]

Dear sweet pea take care of yourself for now regain strength . Sending you big hugs
LOve Cap

[jessie]

Hi Sweetpea,
Here is a hug from me as well.
X Jessie

[Gyco]

hi pea,again wow,congrats on what you hav accomplished,its called recognising you have the problem, tht my dear is why,we or i come to here, or as athelete says AA,this is my problem,the rooms are part of the solution,my opinion,your family will never understand,45 years old my life crashed and i mean crashed,panic attacks,out of the blue,at the worse level,13 symtons,off of work for 6 months,stress of job,family,wife naggin,possibe loss of job,wife lost job,all have a factor,so then off and on i drank,most of the time sociable,but always the instant flop,i was in a hospital in march o8,30 days,thats when i lerned the truth,im 55 now,live day by day,but only one at a time,its not the AA way,its not my way outs way,its my way, and rt now its with out booze gyco

[Gyco]

hi pea again, rearch is my answer, look up what u want to no on the computor usually there s an answer acceptance gyco

[Eastender]

Hi Sweetpea,
You know I am always there if you need meAs someone has said earlier it is not as easy as our love one's think to just "take action" it takes a process that you and I have discussed some months back. We will get there together.
Take care

Eastx