This is it, my husband is going to leave me

[LauraAnn]

I don't even know what to type, I can't stop. I love my husband dearly but I CANNOT STOP.

I am talking to my physician next Thursday about antabuse. I don't trust myself.

I have a two and a four year old, my husband is understandably livid, doesn't feel anything for me anymore.

I have broken his trust again and again. I don't blame him.

Please anyone help me.

[LauraAnn]

Also, I did five weeks inpatient and four months outpatient in 2006. So nothing, I MEAN NOTHING is working.

[Cinders]

Laura Ann,

One of the counselors at my rehab (where I have since relapsed and started again, stopped again) had been in and out of rehab 18 times. He is now 10 years sober.

This is not easy.

I am sorry your husband is fed up. How can we blame our loved ones?

However, you know the truth. You cannot stop for him or even your baby. You MUST stop for you.

Antabuse works great. I am living proof. I am one of the most relcalcitrant stoppers I know. However, you MUST take it every day. Period.

If you want to try it, you might make your husband part of the procedure. You take your Antabuse in front of him.

This is a hard path, though. No doubt. You must come to grips with wanting a drink and simply not being able to have one.

It works for me, though.

Best wishes and much strength to you.

Love,
Cindi

[louise]

It sounds like you have a good plan in talking to your dr. about antabuse. I know there are other people on here like Cindi who can support you in that. I hope your husband will reconsider, but even if he does not keep trying. Sending courage.

[Midwestern Lady]

Please try Antabuse - it really worked for me. My family was ready to commit me - and I knew I had to do something. I willingly, happily took my first pill. It's on the kitchen counter and I take it every morning with my vitamins. After a month, I tried a glass of wine (had read you should do this so you know how it affects you). I was really sick - yea! It puts you off wanting to drink, let me tell you! Can you imagine looking a a bottle and knowing you CAN'T take a drink? DO IT, please! Good luck to you.

[gelgit]

Dear LauraAnn, I'll chime in here for antabuse. I've been goofing around here for 2 months already, stopping and starting. Today, I finally decided to "get real" and took the antabuse. Some people have said they take 2 a day and can still drink Al. I don't believe it! Dosage can vary, but even the smallest amount will keep you away from drinking. As long as you take it, you are free from the urges because you just can't! I made a pact to report on taking my antabuse every other day here at MWO.
Vitamins, minerals, plenty of rest, water and prayer: many, many people are sending you their strength and courage. Don't loose hope! g.

[hippie37]

Hi Laura

Like Cindi NOTHING worked for me other than taking Antabuse. I'd messed about trying to cut back and control my drinking for a good 2 years before I took the road with Antabuse. I literally had no willpower and probably no real desire to stop drinking before I took it. I needed to have the choice to drink completely taken out of my hands before I could get my head in perspective of my drinking through gaining some months of sobriety and attending counseling sessions once a week.

If you include your husband in this i.e he has all the facts on Antabuse and is aware himself of what this drug is about, I'm sure he will see how committed you really are to getting sober this time. I also think like Cindi if you make sure he sees you taking them every day it will start to give him some peace of mind I think.

Something I would also like to say which you may not want to hear is that if he does decide to leave that should still be no excuse for you not to get sober. Prove to him just how much you want to do this for YOURSELF and who knows what may happen in the future.

My love and happiness go out to you
Hippie
xx

[jessie]

Hi LauraAnn,
There is nothing that I can add to the other comments, just that I feel deeply for you and there are millions of people enjoying life without alcohol.
Don't give up.
Love
Jessie

[brittzak]

LAURA, we all have our breaking point. Maybe this is yours. Instead of being sad, embrace it....get sober, change! You can do it. Want it more than you want to drink.

[bestlifeldms]

LauraAnn,

I was right where you are. I finally knew my husband was SERIOUS! He had supported me and loved me through everything, but had had enough. When I looked at what I had to loose and compared it to where I was headed, it scared me enough to set me on the path to sobriety. Plus, I was a nasty drunk. I said very hurtful things when drinking, which damaged my personal relationships even more. They are healing now, thank God!

Someone posted a statistic here about a week ago that 40% of alcoholics die from alcohol! Stagering! It seems that I thought those things only happened to other people. DUI's, lost jobs, ruined marriages and relationships with kids, friends and loved ones, health problems and death. I think that when we realize, it happens to us, too - that is when we get serious!

Hugs and support, Best