Please help me

[nowandzen11]

I am so disgusted with myself. I was doing great (again) , eating right, taking my supps etc and yesterday was day 4. I screwed up again. I drank more than I have been drinking.

I am not an everyday drinker but I slip up usually on day 4. I am trying not to think about it. My face is red and bumpy which never happened before. This has just been in the past 6 months or so. My eyes are puffy. I got a lot of rest, have drank close to a gallon of water and ate some nutritious food. But it's not enough.

What's funny is when I was drinking my first beer, it didn't taste good and it took me a long time to finish. I even thought about stopping b/c it was not enjoyable. I think it was the supps that maybe made it less enjoyable but I fought the feeling and kept going.

I look terrible. This is not me. I am scared. I want my life to be normal all of the time and not feel bad for a few days after every damned week. I will never live to my full potential unless I completely stop. I am worried that I will hurt my liver. I think I am already hurting it. I want to be healthy all of the time. What do I do?

I've tried downloading the book but it doesn't work and I don't know why. I bought L-glut a few days ago (the powder) but never opened it.

I'm sick, disgusted, sad and scared. I hate myself. Help me.

[time2change]

I know that you are feeling badly right now, but you have not given up and that is the important thing. You made it to day 4 and every day that you do not drink is a good day. You need not beat yourself up because you know what you need to do and you seem determined to continue on until you meet your goal.

Stay close by so we can support you. Open the L-Glu. There are many here who may not have been successful on the first, second or hundreth try but the important thing is to not give up until you are successful.

[toughintexas]

Now, ok, listen, we've all been there.....you did 4 dys., and you can do it again, that's awesome! The L-glut is great, open it, and take it, next time, wash it down with that beer, you will stop, it'll taste yuckier...lol...We do all have to stop this MADNESS, and I'm a health nut, eat organic, exercise, and then go blow it, and am in a ball rocking back and forth feeling horrible physically and mentally and emotionally....You know to feel that bad, we are poisioning ourselves, I'm in the medical field too, so I should really know better...this is an addiction, and it is not an easy road to recovery, but we can do it! Just think how much better you feel when you don't do it, and stop midstream of the drink, and leave the house, do anything but sit there and drink anymore, take the supps, go exercise, talk and talk to yourself. I'm going to Lenair in Sept., and if I pull another "drunk", I'm going on anabuse, I can't feel this bad ever again, I broke out and looked awful last time too...we are hurting ourselves, and gotta quit it! You can't hate yourself, you are not alone, you laid an egg, examine it, and learn from it, and get up and go again, you are never a failure until you quit trying! We love you, you love yourself ok!!!

[brittzak]

Oh how many times I have felt exactly how you feel.....we all have! Get on here next time, let us support you through the rough spot.

[nowandzen11]

I am willing to do anything. I don't want to get on a drug for it but if I continue and the drug will help me, I will do it eventually.

I will come here as much as possible. I am ordering the book from amazon.

Will my skin clear up? My eyes are glassy. I look like shit.

Your posts made me cry. You are so sweet and I feel so much better being here.

I am just pissed b/c I have been thru so much in my life and a lot of my life, past and present has been a struggle but I continue to fight. Why do I have to have this addiction on top of it all? Is this a test? Sometimes it seems like too much.

I'm sorry. I am just so upset.

[brittzak]

The drugs arent nearly as bad as drinking yourself to death...I KNOW....I have been exactly where you are at right now. I dont know why any of us have to deal with this addiction, but we do. Get pissed and start fighting!

[caysea]

Hi Now
sorry to read about were you are right now.Many slips have been part of my trying to win this fight .I have found that each time I slipped I found out something about myself .You can't get down on yourself just learn from your slips and put in a plan to deal with that trigger in the future.I found the cravings the worst the first 5 days and then it started changing.
Stay Healthy and keep fighting

[MyChoice]

Sooo agree with TIT! Strong words! We all been there, that is why we are here - consiquences of our decisions. Think how good you felt for those 4 days - you can do it again. In your post I recognize the pain; mental, emotional, physical. I know how much it hurts. Trust me, I know. But this is not the end. Get up. You did it before and you can do it agian.

Sending suporting toughts your way.
Love.
MyChoice

[time2change]

I know you are upset and tired of the struggle. I know there are times you feel that the srruggle is too much. I know that you read about others success and you think I will never be able to say that. But from someone who has been where you are I can honestly say you can do this. At the beginning of this year i could not go more that 4 days either. I could not imagine going a week and now Ii can say that I am on day 43 (I think). I'm not going to lie and say that it is easy, but it can be done. If I can do this so can you. Please hang in there. We will support you anyway we can. PM me, go into chat and "talk", read, post, and do whatever you need to to get and stay sober.

[Evie.Lou]

As soon as you get a few days without AL you will see that everything about you will start to get better.You will think clearer,your eyes will be brite again,you skin will start to improve...You name it and it starts to get better as soon as you stop poisoning yourself.The body is an amazing self healing machine.Replenish the vitaimins & minerals that AL robed you of and watch yourself regain your health.There is sooo much help on this site.You do not have to do this alone...We will help...Evie