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04-07-2008, 11:10 PM
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Fed Up!!!
 Wow! To wake up this morning not hungover is wonderful!!! My second day AF. I found this site yesterday through desperation. I have had it! I am sooooooo over this disease.I read alot of your stories yesterday and i related to everyone of them in some way. I hope to god that everyone can help me stay sober and I can help in the same way. I feel that I have to share a little of my story...I am a very private person so AA is out! Nobody would have a clue what I suffer not even my boyfriend he knows I drink to much though. My father maybe a little but not to the full extent because I lie about it when he does ask me about the booze. He has been sober over 30 years now he was a very sick man when he did drink but he has won the battle. I thought I had one as well...not so. I had my first drink in my teens, started goning to AA at age 19 stopped drinking for 8 YEARS!!! Picked up again at 29 and have not stopped for 15 years. Well, I did stop for 11 months, next time 3 months, next time, 3 weeks and so. on I think everyone can relate. I now wake up 5 out of 7 mornings feeling like a bus has run over me!! My calf muscles ache, my head feels like its going to blow up I feel sick, no energy and the GUILT!! I cannot even remember most nights after 7 oclock. It's not that I fall down or cannot speak I just cannot remember. I wake up and think (what the hell did I watch on TV, did I have a fight with my boyfriend?) and so on it is horrible. I pick up the tv progamme at times the next morning just to see if I can remember anything. Sometimes I watch the clock the next day till it reaches 12 then I have a drink just to make me feel better.Wine is my drug of choice. I cannot even drive the next day my head is to fuzzy and i'm to jumpy.I miss work...lucky I only work partime. I still function, I dont look like a have a problem, I'm healthy, fit and have a job in the health industry (what a joke) I have my own home and beautiful garden. I'm so scared of what I am doing to my liver, kidneys and my nervous system. I want my life back and to smell the fresh air in the mornings..I use to love the mornings! I use to jump out of bed put my runners on and... go I want that back I WILL have that back!! My father always asks (how is the booze going?..just watch it, it has claws and it can grab you without you even being aware) Well i am aware those claws have grabbed me. But not yesterday or today.. maybe not tomorrow. Lets just be hopeful. Thanks for listening.  
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04-08-2008, 12:17 AM
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Good for you Mia, Keep upi the good work. You will find alot of great support here. I'm new and still reading alot of posts myself but finding it all very helpful.
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If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at begin to change.
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04-08-2008, 10:37 AM
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Mia thank you for sharing your story. So honest and your story sounds so familiar to me. Especially the part where you don't remember what show you watched on TV the night before....Boy! I can really relate to that! That has been a part of my nightly life for too long. I'm back to day 1 again and am determined to get sober.
I love the mornings too (or used to). That time of day is the most beautiful to me. Sun coming up, birds singing and everything coming alive. Ahhh........ Wonderful... We can do this! Good for you for your AF days. Stay around and keep posting and reading. Love and Peace
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04-08-2008, 09:15 PM
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04-08-2008, 09:23 PM
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Mia, Welcome!
Are you taking any of the supps? Just keep trying. Never, ever give up! Love, Me 
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Alcohol is simply the device between success and failure.
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04-08-2008, 09:37 PM
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