Finally, My Story

[greenhouse1]

I have been posting here for awhile and have been reading alot. In March I had alot of AF days and I'm happy for that. So far this month, no AF days and I'm NOT happy about that.
I'm in my mid 50's with two grown children that do not live nearby. I am living with my significant other who has 2 beers a week. Four years ago I sold my home and moved in with him. It was great at first. I don't really know what happened but I started drinking alot about 3 years ago. I hardly ever drank before that . Maybe a couple of times a month, that's it. I was raised in a dysfunctional alcoholic family(my mother died of cirrosis) and was determined that my children would have a better life than I did. They did and are both very successful. I was divorced when I was 33 years old. Ex drank excessively and never helped out with the children.
I think my drinking is really starting to bother my significant other because from time to time he makes cutting remarks that are hurtful to me. I know I drink too much (about 1 bottle of wine a night). I really need support, not alot of judging from him. That's why I came here. I want to abstain and I know I must. MWO is a wonderful caring place to come to.
I retired from my job last year. I am active in my small community and have a greenhouse (of course!!)that I thouroughly enjoy. I go to the gym 4 to 5 days a week and I love to cook and travel. I also love the wine too much. I am so scared that I will never be able to have a glass of wine again. I'm here for help.
Thank you all.....

[livingfree]

greenhouse - Thank you for sharing your story. It takes courage to put into print the reasons you are here on this site. I know you will find the AF days again. Just keep coming here, reading and posting your feelings and thoughts. If you can do it one day - you can do it for another "one" day. I wouldn't think about forever yet. To soon. Just take it slow .... Baby steps hon.

Much love and luck to you
Liv

[Phoenix74]

greenhouse1
I was going to say lots, until I read your line about being afraid you can never have another glass of wine...
This road isn't easy. Sometimes you've got Moderation down to a fine art; other times it seems like it's a distant memory. Moderation is for the few. UNFORTUNATELY.
Get ready for a bumpy ride,
but at least know this
along the way -
you are not,
and will never be,
alone, upon it.

[gemmy1]

Greenhouse, your story is pretty close to mine , kids are in another state, but I have a lot more to add which I just don't know if it would help to get it out once again for me because it is so long and I just haven't accepted what the end results could be, not about me but my youngest son. It's been hell for years cuz I couldn't get him mental health help and he always ends up in jail on his way to another prison. I have spent everything penny we have on trying to get help and I am not giving up on getting him help but its so hard. For now I find that monthly mods is the way I can go for now. I am not going to quit drinking right now just trying to have a plan for the near future. Good Luck in your journey. God Bless

[greenhouse1]

Thank you Living,Phoenix and Gemmy. Today is Day 1 again for me. Coming here to this site really helps me stay focused and everyone is so supportive. I know that it's going to be a long difficult struggle but I'm going to go for it.

[tlrgs]

thankx for sharing

[FloridaBoy]

Originally Posted by greenhouse1

Thank you Living,Phoenix and Gemmy. Today is Day 1 again for me. Coming here to this site really helps me stay focused and everyone is so supportive. I know that it's going to be a long difficult struggle but I'm going to go for it.

Order the Kudzu from this site. The L-glute too but you may get it for less elsewhere. The Kudzu helped me and many others a lot.

[jinja]

Hey Greenhouse - yesterday was AF day 1 "again" for me too!!

Shall we go to the end of April together?!?!

It is tough. Now Spring is coming for you (we are just going into winter) you have some lovely long evenings to pootle in your greenhouse. I adore sweetpeas, but can't grow them here. Busy, busy, busy!!!! You can do this!!!! Everytime you think anything AL related, switch your thoughts - the more I think, the tenser I get.

Hold strong, sweetie.

Take care
xxx

[greenhouse1]

Thank you, all. Jinja...tomorrow is day 3 for me. Let's go for it!
Yes, the days here are getting longer and warmer finally. I am enjoying puttering around in the greenhouse growing lots of veggies and flowers.
You hang in there hon.