may need a little help

[shirazgirl]

okay, cheerio everyone,
my problem, tonight, if I have not mentioned it, I am a prominent attorney in the community I live in....whoop to do.... do means to an end to me..

one of the shining moments in my life is that I was an accomplished bowler, yes, believe it or not, with a law degree,, a bowler.... I have averaged over 200 for over the past 3 years...... regretfully as a drinker.?

Tonight.... sober and sober, I fellt more drunk then I ever have with game that involved hand eye skilled..... I sucked.... I felt the Topa totally screwed with my abilty to perform. I was actually proud of my performance at this game. I weigh 120 and throw a 16lb ball. Now, I know, for some of you, you might say, what's the big deal. Well, actually, I was good, a peak performer at this game,, alcohol actually peaked my performace. Topa makes me not drink but make me feel like a retard (sorry if that offends anyone but this is suppose to be honest)... and I was angry. I used to be happy. I will probably be happy tomorrow when I am not hungover or guilty but right now I am angry. I don't like being angry. My name is Jodi... I am by nature happy... topa keeps me sober but not likeable...doctoors appointment on Monday......any feedback appreciated....thank you

[Wally22]

Hi Jodi
I don't think the effect will be permanent. I believe the topa symptoms are supposed to be temporary until your body gets used to it.
Sorry about your bowling tonight though. I really can't relate, I am a horrible bowler!
How about a nice soak in the tub with a lovely cup of tea?

[flyinhigh]

welcome jodi,
sorry, i don't have any advice since i have never used topa, but how many days af are you??
i think over time, these side effects will decrease and you will be able to get your game back. i suggest taking yourself out to the alley and just throw some balls for you, not in a game situation.. maybe through some good music and personal reflection you will rediscover your groove!
good luck and stick around,
flyin/

[shirazgirl]

Okay, at least I didn't wake up angy...the dawn brings a new day. I'm hoping today I won't be so irritable. I am actually looking forward to my Doctor's appointment on Monday. Thanks for listening. I'm starting to get why I've never been able to be in support groups for anything. It's because I feel like I am "bothering" people. Funny, that's all I do all day long is solve other peoples problems but I am afraid to share. I'm trying. I reread my post from last night. I am usually a very happy person. I yelled at my husband because he asked me a few questions about this sight (I always think I'm being interrogated). I'm to defensive.

[tlrgs]

you can do anything you put your mind to do.. that means be happy or sad or what ever you want ..
al just hides the real you and the more time you have af on your belt you will get better and better as time goes on .. start enjoying the real you and play the game you love the most af..

[A Work in Progress]

hey Jodi, it is very likely that you will experience increased irritability when you first stop the alcohol... I doubt the topa will cause you any ongoing problems... you will probably look back at your Bad Bowling Night and laugh about it.

Good that you are doing this... the legal profession is FULL of unhappy alcoholics (I know, I was one, before I changed professions.... )

best wishes,

wip

[1967]

i was thinking the same wip= no AL in the system = increased irritability.
how long have you been laying off the bottle shiraz?
for me the irritability settled down after about 10 days.

[startingover]

I wasn't irritable just very anxious and that seems to be settling a bit now. Thankfully.
Good luck
SO

[Theme2be]

Cheerio<~~like that

Oh , it could be so many factors, Starting Over~
Our minds, bodies and beings are regrouping. I personally had to discontinue TOPA much to my distress , because the side effects, most esp. the TOPA DOPA was off the charts. I was disoriented at work, and in communications. I experience this as well as these other wise souls have expressed when the adjustment to being without the poison is making its way.

Besides the TOPA are you supplying your being with all the recommended vitals? They do wonders, everyone is different in that respect. I am swearing by the AMINOS and the GABA along with the other. The exchange between the physical garble is less intense, for the most part.

I have "strike outs" a plenty being a successful, romantic, eloquent presence in alcoholisms meager existance.
Keep that arm "extended" and reach for the balls it takes (lol)
Sorry, love to bowl, miss those social days doing little shots with friends, evening ending with a little mischief and gathering til' the stars go to rest.

Better days tomorrow as we keep our chin up~

[mumof1]

Hi,

I'm a happy devoted fiance and mother of a beautiful 14 month old son. I've always enjoyed couple of glasses of red wine each night with dinner but we've since moved abroad and i now drink a bottle of red wine each night!!! I don't be drunk just relaxed. I go to bed at 10.30pm as i'm drinking away the small hours. I really need some of your advice. AM I DRINKING TOO MUCH? DO I HAVE A PROBLEM?