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[jay42]

my mother in hospital with cancer. so called friends never get back to me .. tho im still at the gym etc i was 10 days a/f free but today i fell off the wagon., now i feel guilty and as every alocholic knows guilt leads to to more drinking etc so i want to nip this eposidoe in the bud im on 40 mg of valium everyday . becasuse i cantdeal with the stress and my brother saying im self obessed haha let him deal with this .
look ive tried and im trying i gave up smoking for 5 months now im doing a pack of 20 .
oh well tommrow is another day....
but now im drunk . and i dont give a fuk .//
but tommrow i will
love all
jay

[betty boop]

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Oh Jay my love, so so sorry about your mum!!!!!!

Take a deep breath, you can do this again. This probably won't help but I remember you six months ago, and you are far better now than you were then. You are a 'works in progress'

Big love & Hugs for you, BB xx

[Guest]

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jay,
Am so very sorry your mum has been admitted to hospital.

Am afraid it`s a sad fact of human nature, that there will always be people who let us down...........can only say that "we will never let you down".

Don`t allow yourself to get disheartened..........you`ve had 10 AF days.........a huge achievement, especially when things are so difficult for you just now.

You`re anything but "self-obsessed, jay..........you`re a "giver"..........now, give yourself some T.L.C., jay by doing as you say, and getting back on track tomorrow.

Praying for you and your mum.

Much love,

Starlight Impress x

[hart]

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((((Jay))))

Selfish? Not the Jay I know, I don't believe it! I'm so sorry about your mother, I had to deal with it all by myself too., and in some respects I think it's easier, you don't have some "Well meaning" people questioning your every move. You know you want the best for your mother, to hell w/him.

I'm only on day 1 AF Jay, after a long string of drinking days, and I didn't have nearly as stressful a reason to slip. Come join me tommorow.:l

[slightlysuze]

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I'm really new here, Jay....but 10 days AF sounds like a real achievement to me....well done.....pick yourself up tomorrow and find your shine! xxx

[Popeye]

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Hi Jay,
You know how I feel.
I give a f**k bro...

[beatle]

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sounds like you are having a hard time and under the circumstances doing what you have to do. Don't whip yourself about it. We all care. So just take care of yourself right now. ok?

[Kitty]

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Jay,

As you said "tomorrow is another day" and I hope that tomorrow is kinder too you. Take care, and look after yourself well tomorrow.

Very sorry to hear of your troubles, prayers to your mum.

Kitty

[jay42]

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hi all and thanks once again for all the love and supoort . trying to go easy just limiting myself ot a few drinks for the next few days .. as dont wanto fall into cycles etc. but also eating well and doing exs etc . thats aslli can do at precent really . and getmyself through to the other side of wayward sobriety again
my best
jay

[Guest]

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Glad to hear you`re feeling a little better, jay.
Be kind to yourself.

Much love,

Starlight Impress x

[Guest]

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Jay, I know you can do this as disciplined at the gym and with your eating habits as you are, you can apply those same principals to drinking. I know I used to be the same would watch everything I eat and work out (still do) but would let drinking slide. Now I apply the same effort to staying sober. I am proud of you and your A/F days. I know your stress is tremendous, but please stay strong! I belive in you. You always have a special place in my heart dear Jay
Hugs
Mar

[Mags]

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I'll start with what simeybear said - dear Jay

I know things have been very tough for you lately. You are such a good and honest guy. Please try to hold on to the best of yourself. I think that many of us who have known you for a while see so much goodness in you - maybe it is hard for you to see that now. We know you, we love you and we care for you. Stay sober as much as you can - that is always when you are at your best for you and for your mom.

Please keep in touch. My strongest prayers go out for you and your mom.

[slightlysuze]

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Hope your mum is doing ok....and you too. It's so hard to watch people you love being ill.

[jay42]

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shes stil in hosp . tc been going everyday.... i have my drinking days then non drinking days .. then i always get sick of drinking all together ... thsats just my pattern
i cant see any change at the mo. tho .
i want to do everything at once ie gym drink etc. just my inverted thinking etc
my brother stays here for a fe days with is young son i bought some prescents etc . tho i dont feel like im on uncle mode but ill just be me i guess . more hosp tommrow . like john lennon once siad "life happens when your making plans"
. oh hart want to see my bodybuilding postion . lol
love all

[betty boop]

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Hi Jay, nice to see you checking in love.

Can I see your bodybuilding position too please??

BB xx