September 21st, 2007, 01:12 AM
First and formost I want to thank all of you for your love, prayers and real concern for myself and my family. I get to stay at home one more night so I can write to you all.

Flip was right I cannot put myself down and think Iam a looser. This is part of the addiction. It only prevents you from healing and sends you back to hell. Today I feel that I am a good person who has done horrible and very bad things to myself and family. If you notice I changed my mood to Hopeful.

OK first full day in IOP. Where do I start? You know the last week but how did I get here? At five years of age I started drinking wine. At 10 I was a blackout drunk. Meth was the next biggy man I sure loved that stuff. Have not used in over a decade very bad stuff. First wife left me i.e. kicked me out. Same house too go figure? Never went to rehab quit meth cold turkey. Never learned how to live AF. What happens is you take all your bad habits with you to the next relationship. If I only knew.

I will be in IOP for the next 14 monthes. 3 times per week plus 3 AA meetings per week. Then 1 time per week pluse 3 AA. Plus anger manegament classes Plus child development classes I think. Sounds like a long year but really It will go very fast.

I talked to my wife tonight. It is sooooo nice to here her voice. I wish you could hear her it is so beutifull. I could her my little girl in the background. I sure wish I could talk to her. I call her Boo Boo. You have to say it fast. It is late so much to say. Keep praying for my family I think It is working. ECHOME.

September 21st, 2007, 01:15 AM

September 21st, 2007, 01:19 AM
Echome, thanks for checking in. It's going to be a long, hard road but one that must be travelled. I wish you everything you wish for yourself.

Sleep well, my friend. Catch you tomorrow.

September 21st, 2007, 01:38 AM
Good stuff Echo, Just think how you would treat one of us and then treat yourself with the same respect. It's about self love, and sometimes we have to "fake it til we make it". EAch tiny win you have will help you feel better about yourself and eventually, it becomes a reality.

You are SOOOO right about being a good person who has done bad/stupid things. Those things don't make YOU a bad person.

September 21st, 2007, 02:28 AM
Echome I wish you and your family strength.

You have a lot of work in front of you but it is really wonderful that you are on the right path.


September 21st, 2007, 02:38 AM
Echome I wish you love and strength.

Finding My Self
September 21st, 2007, 04:03 AM
Echome - you're being so courageous and I wish you all the very best as ever. Thanks for the update.

Love and hugs
FMF xx

September 21st, 2007, 04:39 AM
I wish more strength to you every second, every minute, every hour of every day...

September 21st, 2007, 06:11 AM
keep it up Echome! You are headed in the right direction.

September 21st, 2007, 06:11 AM
Echome, I wish you the very best on this journey. It will be a hard one but one that is so worth it!

September 21st, 2007, 07:49 AM

Wow, you have a lot of work ahead of you and it sounds like it is good work. :)

Always remember, you are a good person, addiction makes good people do bad things.

As long as you continue to fight for addiction free and learn how to cope with your anger, your goodness will shine through.

God Bless and get well my friend,

betty boop
September 21st, 2007, 07:58 AM
Ditto everyone else ......

You are a truly amazing person Echome .....

September 21st, 2007, 08:02 AM
Dear Echome,

I was sober in AA for 14 years so I know you can do it. Although I relapsed, it did not erase the 14 years I was sober. I now have about 4 1/2 months back and I was sober one year since my relapse after 14 years. so I am a testament it can be done!

Let me know how you're doing. We can't do this alone. XX

September 21st, 2007, 08:25 AM

I am so glad that already things are looking so much brighter for you.

Please do not be hard on yourself, you became addicted to this stuff when you were just a little child- you never stood a chance.

Will continue to pray for you and your family.

Accountable for Me
September 21st, 2007, 09:21 AM
Congrats on the next chapter in your life Echome. Just think, you will be so busy learning about yourself, relationships, parenting, substance abuse, etc... etc... you won't have time to think about anything self destructive.

Live, learn and love!

September 21st, 2007, 11:08 AM
wow great work congratulations:goodjob:

September 21st, 2007, 02:28 PM
Well done Echome your a winner now :l Most of what you say is what i have said recently to my ex-partner if only he had the same strength and posive energy as you xx

September 21st, 2007, 05:36 PM
Sounds good! Keep your nose to the grindstone ; )

February 18th, 2012, 05:01 AM

February 18th, 2012, 06:42 AM
Spam. I reported it.

mama bear
February 19th, 2012, 08:43 AM
what is spam??? sounded real to me....dang!!

February 19th, 2012, 08:54 AM
Keep going! Stay Strong

:goodjob::proud::your especial:

Wishing you hope and strength and I hope all your dreams come true. :goodjob:;)

February 19th, 2012, 12:51 PM
Hi mama, this thread and posts are real. The spam was reported and removed so now you cant see it.

mama bear
February 19th, 2012, 01:04 PM
thanks Red!!

February 19th, 2012, 09:37 PM
But why bother.... it's a 31/2 year old thread that petered out in 2007. Irt only got resurrected because of the spam that linked onto it.

February 19th, 2012, 11:32 PM
Yeah, I don't get it.

February 20th, 2012, 08:26 AM
Wonder how he's doing?
EC you out there???

mama bear
February 20th, 2012, 09:12 AM
you are right Rags
very good sleuthing