It's amazing how much life changes when you are first sober. The first 30 days, 90 days, 120 days - after that you stop counting days - then it is months, etc. At the very first, it is struggle - great struggle and confusion. Then it is a feeling of cleanliness followed by peace, almost euphoria. That is in the first few months. And that sense of well being continues month after month into years upon years. That is really what we want to achieve. A lifetime of sobriety.
But along the way, changes do occur. Rapid ones at first, and then more subtle, slower ones later on the journey.
I don't have exact dates, but I know this is April so I know I am three years now sober. I am feeling the changes from the sober life from the drunken life so much more this year. Not bad changes at all. Just very noticable ones.
Like many other alcoholics, I suffer from some psychological disorders, in my case, depression and anxiety. That is one of the reasons I drank and I know that. But when I stopped drinking they did not go away. But I could not just booze them into la la land anymore like I used to. So, I have been working with my shrink to learn to deal with then in other ways,but let's face it, they don't always do it like a bottle. So I have had to learn to live with a lot of pain that I didn't expect to have to feel after going sober. I thought life would be a bed of roses.
I guess that all I am learning now is what the rest of the world - the sober world - has had to learn all along. That is how to deal with issues that are difficult without climbing into that bottle. But you know, it can be done. They do it. Most people do it. Now I am learning I can do it also.
I am still learning how to. It is new to me after so very many years of giving my problems over to the cloud of alcohol. But I can do it.
This is not over, but I have done it and will do it.
My best wishes to all,
Mags
But along the way, changes do occur. Rapid ones at first, and then more subtle, slower ones later on the journey.
I don't have exact dates, but I know this is April so I know I am three years now sober. I am feeling the changes from the sober life from the drunken life so much more this year. Not bad changes at all. Just very noticable ones.
Like many other alcoholics, I suffer from some psychological disorders, in my case, depression and anxiety. That is one of the reasons I drank and I know that. But when I stopped drinking they did not go away. But I could not just booze them into la la land anymore like I used to. So, I have been working with my shrink to learn to deal with then in other ways,but let's face it, they don't always do it like a bottle. So I have had to learn to live with a lot of pain that I didn't expect to have to feel after going sober. I thought life would be a bed of roses.
I guess that all I am learning now is what the rest of the world - the sober world - has had to learn all along. That is how to deal with issues that are difficult without climbing into that bottle. But you know, it can be done. They do it. Most people do it. Now I am learning I can do it also.
I am still learning how to. It is new to me after so very many years of giving my problems over to the cloud of alcohol. But I can do it.
This is not over, but I have done it and will do it.
My best wishes to all,
Mags
ull My happy hour now is waking up clear minded early not going out dizzy late and waking the next day at noon..Clean works for me! :dancin: Life is good!
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