The following phenomenon has happened to me in the past. I can't figure it out, but here goes...
This morning after I was on MWO, I got hit w/an urge. I was in 30 day abs which I stick close to, since I cannot read about mod. Mod isn't for me & reading about people successfully modding would lead me into a binge. After exiting from the computer, I got hit w/a big craving. I even started planning in my head how I would go about drinking.
I used my tools:
-procrastinated opening a bottle of wine.
-said affirmations - "I am a non-drinker." "I do not drink."
-walked the dog.
-had the number of my AF days prominently displayed on the counter top.
-imagined the physical & pyschic misery that goes w/drinking.
The craving left me, but I can't figure out why MWO would throw me into a craving when an actual upset or crisis does not.
Anyhow, I'm just so glad I didn't give in. MWO is such an integral part of my recovery that there's no way I can stay away. I just thought I'd share that experience.
Have a wonderful AF/mod weekend everyone.
Mary
This morning after I was on MWO, I got hit w/an urge. I was in 30 day abs which I stick close to, since I cannot read about mod. Mod isn't for me & reading about people successfully modding would lead me into a binge. After exiting from the computer, I got hit w/a big craving. I even started planning in my head how I would go about drinking.
I used my tools:
-procrastinated opening a bottle of wine.
-said affirmations - "I am a non-drinker." "I do not drink."
-walked the dog.
-had the number of my AF days prominently displayed on the counter top.
-imagined the physical & pyschic misery that goes w/drinking.
The craving left me, but I can't figure out why MWO would throw me into a craving when an actual upset or crisis does not.
Anyhow, I'm just so glad I didn't give in. MWO is such an integral part of my recovery that there's no way I can stay away. I just thought I'd share that experience.
Have a wonderful AF/mod weekend everyone.
Mary