Hey everyone, I'm back at MWO but I'm only going to post in a few places from now on (avoiding general discussion!!!). I'm feeling a lot better than I was.
Hubby and I took a long weekend in the mountains and had a serious talk about our drinking. We haven chosen October 18 (tomorrow) as our final drinking day ... it is our 10th wedding anniversary. From what I have read about shedding addictions, most sources seem to say its best to choose a date rather than quit cold turkey. So, I guess I'm here to state my intention.
Meanwhile I have been taking the Topa and am up to 75 mg a day and I believe it is beginning to work as I don't feel like drinking much ... I mean I do psychologically but it doesn't taste good or feel good when I do so I haven't been drinking much.
I feel like I am SO done and actually I'm looking forward to Sunday. I've been "done" for a while, but now I'm REALLY done ... does this make sense? Its been a slow process and I expect it will continue to be so but I'm drawing a line in the sand. Hopefully I am finally strong enough.
As for hubby, I'm worried that he won't last a week, but we'll see. He's still in denial about his own drinking, partially because he still goes to work/functions every day ... but I'm noticing his drinking increasing lately so that worries me too. His Dad was an alcoholic and his parents divorced over the fact, though he was the youngest so I'm not sure he was aware of the damage done. I get the feeling that by the time he was old enough to sense what was going on, his father had sort of "checked out" of family life and just sat around after work drinking his beer and listening to his music in the garage. He was Finnish and therefore not given to much talking or displays of emotion. So, all this makes me worried -- but as we all know, everyone needs to find their own way out. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my husband and will support him all the way, I'm just saying I'm prepared for the fact that he's not at the same stage of commitment as I am.
So for our anniversary we have a reservation at our favorite restaurant, but being the last night of drinking I won't be using it as an excuse for a blowout ... hopefully. Frankly I'm more excited about eating yummy food!
I'll be around on the monthly abs forum. This is what I aspire to.
Cheers!
Lisa
Hubby and I took a long weekend in the mountains and had a serious talk about our drinking. We haven chosen October 18 (tomorrow) as our final drinking day ... it is our 10th wedding anniversary. From what I have read about shedding addictions, most sources seem to say its best to choose a date rather than quit cold turkey. So, I guess I'm here to state my intention.
Meanwhile I have been taking the Topa and am up to 75 mg a day and I believe it is beginning to work as I don't feel like drinking much ... I mean I do psychologically but it doesn't taste good or feel good when I do so I haven't been drinking much.
I feel like I am SO done and actually I'm looking forward to Sunday. I've been "done" for a while, but now I'm REALLY done ... does this make sense? Its been a slow process and I expect it will continue to be so but I'm drawing a line in the sand. Hopefully I am finally strong enough.
As for hubby, I'm worried that he won't last a week, but we'll see. He's still in denial about his own drinking, partially because he still goes to work/functions every day ... but I'm noticing his drinking increasing lately so that worries me too. His Dad was an alcoholic and his parents divorced over the fact, though he was the youngest so I'm not sure he was aware of the damage done. I get the feeling that by the time he was old enough to sense what was going on, his father had sort of "checked out" of family life and just sat around after work drinking his beer and listening to his music in the garage. He was Finnish and therefore not given to much talking or displays of emotion. So, all this makes me worried -- but as we all know, everyone needs to find their own way out. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my husband and will support him all the way, I'm just saying I'm prepared for the fact that he's not at the same stage of commitment as I am.
So for our anniversary we have a reservation at our favorite restaurant, but being the last night of drinking I won't be using it as an excuse for a blowout ... hopefully. Frankly I'm more excited about eating yummy food!
I'll be around on the monthly abs forum. This is what I aspire to.
Cheers!
Lisa
Comment