I'm female, born over 40 years ago in Africa to a large family of catholics. Went to secondary school in the UK as a boarder.. hated it. Left school, travelled.. noticed I already could drink more than others.. got myself trained and a job.. drank more, but didnt think it was a problem - it was too easy to hide. Moved to Australia, and met and married my soul mate and have 2 kids. I know I can still function, do the good things in the town etc, but drink alone at home and cant remember in the morning what happened last night. I can go tee total for a while, but as soon as I get that first drink, that is me and I go back to a bottle of wine a night... so I'm thinking I will have to just stop altogether. I ordered my campral but they dont seem to be shipping it and I'm using this as a delay so I dont have to start as yet. Its almost as if I need a kick up the butt to get me going.. I"m doing the whole thing in secret and still hiding awfully. I'm very tired of it all.
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