I've touched on some details in past posts. My story starts young. My parents divorced when I was young. My mom remarried and I was sexually, physically and emotionally abused by my alcoholic step father until I left home at age 18. By then, I was drinking and doing drugs to escape the reality of my life. Luckily, I survived into my 20's. I married at 23. This was about the same time my real father reappeared in my life. I did not even know he was alive. My step father had adopted me.
My husband was abusive but I didn't see it until it was too late. We struggled along for 21 years and three kids. Did pretty well under the circumstances. We ended up divorced. Another long story.
My real father is an alcoholic - highly functioning - very successful - sadly unable to beat the bottle. He is in denial.
I have been a social drinker all my life - never drank when I was pregnant - always thought I had it under control as an adult. Never would drink and drive. I was proud of how I handled myself as a wife and mother with my abusive history. Sadly, my early experience taught me to turn to alcohol (and hurt myself) when I was stressed and as my life got crazy late in my marriage and divorce I turned to alcohol big time. Wine and beer, mostly, but every night and until I passed out. My marriage was ending, many friends and family members had passed away tragically and suddenly, I had been a caregiver to my husband through a long illness, I had been ill myself after the birth of my third child, we had moved every two years for my husband's job...................I could go on and on, but I did title this "short" overview.....
Somewhere in my heart I knew I was heading down the wrong road, but I kept right on going until I was in so deep I could not get out on my own.
MYO has been a great help to me and really my only hope so far. It is wonderful to have a place to heal and find help and support anonymously.
So many stories and touching posts here - all are humbling and remind me of how very fortunate I am - even with all my "history" I have my health, my children and grandchildren and my wonderful husband.
Thanks for being there, every one of you!!!
My husband was abusive but I didn't see it until it was too late. We struggled along for 21 years and three kids. Did pretty well under the circumstances. We ended up divorced. Another long story.
My real father is an alcoholic - highly functioning - very successful - sadly unable to beat the bottle. He is in denial.
I have been a social drinker all my life - never drank when I was pregnant - always thought I had it under control as an adult. Never would drink and drive. I was proud of how I handled myself as a wife and mother with my abusive history. Sadly, my early experience taught me to turn to alcohol (and hurt myself) when I was stressed and as my life got crazy late in my marriage and divorce I turned to alcohol big time. Wine and beer, mostly, but every night and until I passed out. My marriage was ending, many friends and family members had passed away tragically and suddenly, I had been a caregiver to my husband through a long illness, I had been ill myself after the birth of my third child, we had moved every two years for my husband's job...................I could go on and on, but I did title this "short" overview.....
Somewhere in my heart I knew I was heading down the wrong road, but I kept right on going until I was in so deep I could not get out on my own.
MYO has been a great help to me and really my only hope so far. It is wonderful to have a place to heal and find help and support anonymously.
So many stories and touching posts here - all are humbling and remind me of how very fortunate I am - even with all my "history" I have my health, my children and grandchildren and my wonderful husband.
Thanks for being there, every one of you!!!
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