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Sunbeam
June 1st, 2010, 09:13 PM
The hard thing about starting a monthly thread is finding a catchy title, so here's my best shot! Welcome to all who choose to keep alcohol in the picture, drinking moderately.

Eve11
June 1st, 2010, 11:48 PM
Sunbeam,
Like the title!! Thanks for starting the monthly thread and wanted to let Canadiangirl know that there's no ownership here on the mod squad. The first person up and ready to post is welcome to start the monthly thread.

Here's to a month of occasional drinking!!
:l
Eve11

canadiangirl
June 2nd, 2010, 01:25 PM
Yes, my problem was coming up with a title. Everything I thought of had "June bugs" in it. {{{{{shudder}}}}}

Eve11
June 5th, 2010, 12:44 PM
canadiangirl;875025 wrote: Yes, my problem was coming up with a title. Everything I thought of had "June bugs" in it. {{{{{shudder}}}}}
That's cute CG although catchy titles aren't necessary. More times than not we just post
Mod Squad Feb thread or Mod Squad March thread etc. Catchy is cute...like MAY we moderate well or MARCH to success, etc. but once again, not necessary. Just important to get a monthly started.

:l
Eve11

bear73
June 6th, 2010, 07:51 AM
hey all - well drinking this week I've had 7 drinks 3 in one night and 4 in another(my max was three) - that's my maximum alcohol units per week there - not reached that for a long time.

I had also resumed smoking again (lots) as of tomorrow that's stopping.
I have been more active tho - swimming, cycling twice to work last week, eating fruit and salad so feeling over all quite good.

I've been reading about mindfulness and depression online and may buy a book on it - just ordered Georgia Foster 'weight less mind' and 'stress less mind' - hypno books and CDs - she does 'the drinkless mind' too.

The hypno tracks work with your inner critic,pleaser and confident part - interesting.
anyway goals for this week.

no alcohol in week
no smoking
max of 3 drinks per night Friday and Saturday
staying in the moment

Have a good week all - lazy Sunday here before skate practice - I am off for a face mask,leg shave,foot file and long bath in a bit!

clare
June 6th, 2010, 08:26 AM
hi all i am a long term moderator as well,sometimes i dont drink anything at all for a week or two,and then i just have 1 or 2 beers, i dont miss it at all,hope to come here more often,wishing you the best

letgolaughing
June 6th, 2010, 09:12 AM
well folks, i'm back from my vacation. drank everyday.
not as much as previous vacations but still...
good news, i never even had a hangover. so, i didn't over do it, but i still drank 2 drinks at lunch or in the mid afternoon(along with everyone else) and 3 drinks in the evening. i didn't really count. i think one night i had only 2 drinks in the evening and one night i had maybe 4. i am feeling a tad guilty about it although i was one of the lighter drinkers on the trip.

now, here is the hard part for me. i'm scared of the ocd fear again. those of you who know about my ocd fear of alcohol withdrawal will understand. so, i am now thinking that i have to taper down again before i can have an AF day.
ugh. i actually am looking forward to an AF day. LOL
so, yesterday i had no drinks at lunch, cause we were driving back home. and i won't have any drinks at lunch again. that is strictly for vacation only.
last night i had 3 drinks.
how much should i taper? or again, do i even need to taper.
i'm going to fill in my drink tracker so you can see the numbers.

hope everyone is having a more successful start to June than I am.
i knew this would be a hurdle

Sunbeam
June 6th, 2010, 08:44 PM
Hi Clare,
Welcome! Another member of the occasional drinking thinking. Great to have you here. Don't be a stranger.

LetGo, ya gotta do what ya gotta do. We all wish you didn't have to deal with the OCD, but we play the cards we are dealt. Vent away! You know you don't have any risk of alcohol withdrawal, but I also understand your brain isn't being rational about this. Congrats on a successful vacation , I believe drinking way less than in the past.

Bear, congrats on staying at your 7 drink limit. Sounds like you are figuring out how to make your own path to moderate drinking. It is definitely a learning experience.

I had a great AF afternoon today. Got a lot of painting (priming) done in the new bathroom. At least on one wall I am ready to put up the final coat - I'm eager to see that. Also got some after-rain weeding and mulching done.

Take care, all.

JACQRABBIT
June 6th, 2010, 10:04 PM
Hello June Jumpers,

I think I may be ready to join you in June.

I did 8 weeks AF and Believe I am ready to mod.

The last 2 Friday nites I have had dinner out with My Husband and chosen to have a single glass of 'great Red' with my meal.
I cannot believe how empowering that felt,
I knew I could easily have none but to stop at one was just amazing,
This week I actually demanded the keys from my husband (who just smiled and handed them over) and drove us home.

I have not had any other alcohol nor any strong cravings.

Here's hoping.

Oh..I do know that I cannot relax and turn my back completely or I will be pulled under.

Sunbeam
June 7th, 2010, 04:00 PM
Hi Jacqrabbit,
Welcome to the group! Do you wish to state your goal? It isn't clear to me whether you plan to stick with occasional drinking, or try a higher frequency. You are welcome to post her in any case, with or without goals.

Eve11
June 7th, 2010, 10:06 PM
Sunbeam;879417 wrote:

LetGo, ya gotta do what ya gotta do. We all wish you didn't have to deal with the OCD, but we play the cards we are dealt. Vent away! You know you don't have any risk of alcohol withdrawal, but I also understand your brain isn't being rational about this.

Well said and good advice to our sweet Letgo. Wish she didn't have to worry about that as well and your advice to just remember it isn't rational thinking is well spoken.

Hi to our new members!

Really hot here and really craved a beer last night. Was nice to just have one and be done. Hate it when I have that craving feeling for more and it still happens from time to time when I really do want more than 2 on Fri. or Sat. when I really give myself permission to drink. So, I have to keep working the program like so many others.

The true occasional would be a nice accomplishment. Still working toward that one.

:l
Eve11

letgolaughing
June 8th, 2010, 07:27 AM
sun and eve, yep, i gotta do what i gotta do and it sucks :)

anyway, i had 3 drinks sunday and 2 and a half monday. tonight i have to go to an event which will likely last until 930p and so i am going to have to be AF. i'm scared about it. but it seems silly to come home and have a glass of wine after. i would love to be AF but what if i have withdrawals? i won't have a seizure, right? last time i was af was the Friday before my vacay so that was 10 days ago.

canadiangirl
June 8th, 2010, 09:49 AM
Oh, honey! You won't have a seizure! But I know, with all my heart and soul, how so-called "irrational" fears feel to an irrational mind. It's not trivial, and for me at least, the fear actually hurts. For me (only), the fear could literally be as painful and distressing as the actual withdrawals. Maybe you could tell yourself that *if* you feel shaky, you can have a sip or two or wine and that will - certainly - stave off any withdrawals...? I find (again, just for me, not advice to anyone else) that if my mind is going to play tricks on me, I have to play tricks on it back again. :h

Good luck!

letgolaughing
June 8th, 2010, 10:24 AM
CG - you hit the nail on the head. it's nice to know that you know how i feel.
i decided that if i feel too scared to be AF that I will allow myself one beer or glass of wine when we get home. on the other hand, i'd love to proof to myself that going AF tonight won't cause seizures...so we'll have to see how strong i'm feeling later.

i got to get back on track. either way, i'm tapering and will get back to my AF days within a couple of weeks.

sounds like you have been doing great!! there seems to be much success on the boards this month so far.

XO

letgolaughing
June 8th, 2010, 10:39 PM
dang. the event i went to actually HAD alcohol which surprised me.
i ended up having 2 beers. :( i feel like i'm starting over. which actually doesn't surprise me because i pretty much knew my vacation would blow it for me.
so. here i go again. taper and worry. this sux. i actually don't drink as much as most people i know, but i worry about it 100 x more than they do.
ocd + alcohol = ridiculous.

so. i'm back on my taper down then getting some af days under my belt.
by next week, at least 1 AF day, hopefully 2.
geez.

JACQRABBIT
June 8th, 2010, 10:46 PM
Sunbeam;880365 wrote: Hi Jacqrabbit,
Welcome to the group! Do you wish to state your goal? It isn't clear to me whether you plan to stick with occasional drinking, or try a higher frequency. You are welcome to post her in any case, with or without goals.
Hello Sunbeam,

I haven't really thought about a specific goal as such.

I really enjoy a wine (singular, 2 at the most) with a good meal but not every meal and definitely not during the work week.
I am going to Cairn's with my husband and young teenage children next month and I expect that I will drink more while there but not to excess.

So if that constitutes a goal there it is.

I am probably clearer on what I don't want.
I know I never want to 'skoll' a bottle of wine and hide the evidence again.
I always want to remember what I had for dinner, what I said, and to whom I said it.

And I never want to speak crap to the people I love most and wonder the next day why they cannot look me in the eye.

And I would love to post here and consider myself a 'moderator'

Sunbeam
June 9th, 2010, 06:11 AM
OK Jacqrabbit, I do declare you are on the occasional drinking path and we are glad to have your company. I find it a big relief to not even consider having a drink during the week. I guess to "skoll" a bottle of wine would be to drink it all? We are also happy to have representation from your part of the world. There are many cultural lessons we can find here.

canadiangirl
June 9th, 2010, 07:49 AM
Welcome, JACQRABBIT and Clare. I nearly forgot my manners.

@ Sunbeam (other thread) - my very best biking story comes from Jasper Nat'l Park last summer. We were mountain biking some distance from the townsite around dusk and somehow came between a bull elk and his harem. He was calling them in for the night and did not appreciate our presence. He put his antlers down and charged us! Talk about going like the wind! :H:H:H

letgolaughing
June 9th, 2010, 12:02 PM
ok. i can't wait til i can come here and talk about something other than drinking like the rest of you do, ie. sun and CG talk about biking, etc.

i have been racking my brain to try and figure out if i should taper again or if i should have an af day despite my fear of withdrawals. the 5 drinks a day on vacation keep making me think that i am worse off then i was 6 months ago. when in reality, it's not like i've had 5 drinks a day for a month.

anyway, i digress.

i think what is really bothering me is that if i decide to "taper" then it will be next week before i get an AF day in and that will mean i will have had a drink everyday for over 18 days in a row. i think that bothers me more.
in the past few months i've never drank more than 6 days in a row and i feel like i'm screwing that up.

so don't you think that between the lesser of the 2 evils i should choose not to prolong it?

i need to be AF tonight. that means only 10 days in a row. if i wait til tomorrow, it's 11, next day, it's 12...before i know it, it'll be 30 and i'll be just as scared.

so, i need the encouragement for tonight. i have a headache today and it's telling me that i should have a beer tonight because it is a sign of withdrawals...and things to come tonight if i don't drink.

what do you think?

af tonight or taper?

Sunbeam
June 9th, 2010, 12:46 PM
LetGo,
I definitely would like to help you through as many AF days as you can muster. The withdrawal fear prompted by your OCD is nonsense, but very real to that part of your brain. Your brain also wants more alcohol (people here sometimes refer to it as THE BEAST) so you are fighting two opponents, not just the Beast. But you can do this with our help: Go for tonight AF! I believe you are ready to challenge your opponents!

canadiangirl
June 9th, 2010, 05:52 PM
AF tonight, for sure.

I was drinking about the same as you have been the last week or two , perhaps more, when I went AF at first, one or two days a week. It was nothing. The withdrawal issue is for people who drink far more than that. If you really don't feel you can do it, can you phone an alcohol treatment facility tomorrow and get a professional's opinion on it?

letgolaughing
June 9th, 2010, 09:45 PM
hi y'all
well, i'm just having the most wonderful evening. :)
i decided to go AF cause as sun said it's nonsense. my brain is tricking me. i know it, but then again, i doubt it. anyway... AF.

i decided that if i prolong it by tapering then the days of drinking in a row would add up and i worry more about that. so... AF tonight.

i had a moment when i was going to cave and let myself have 1 drink tonight because my child is sleeping over at a friends unexpectedly and so it was date night for me and my hubby. but instead, i asked my hubby to be AF with me and of course he said he would(he is AF alot of nights).
so back to my evening. i went to zumba(exercise)from 5 to 6p. then dropped my child at his friends and chatted with the mom for an hour. she had a beer and offered me one but i declined :) yay me. then i came home and hubby and i went out to eat a bite and didn't drink. that was odd. but it was nice. i picked up some fav magazines on our way home. took a hot bath. talked to my cousin on facebook. had a pellegrino and am now goofing off online piled up in my bed. getting ready to read my mags.
not bad. not bad at all.

hope i don't have a seizure. ;)
xoxo y'all

Sunbeam
June 10th, 2010, 06:46 AM
LetGo,
Yay you! You can fight those demons!

canadiangirl
June 10th, 2010, 08:24 AM
Don't you love it when you have a battle of wits with your brain and you end up winning? Way to go! :yougo:

letgolaughing
June 12th, 2010, 05:46 PM
so glad i was successful that night and also glad i enjoyed myself.

very happy to report i did NOT have a seizure either. ;)

JACQRABBIT
June 15th, 2010, 09:36 PM
Hello Junies,

Good for you let go,
I'm guessing that's gotta be a 'HUGE' win for you.

Geez,
I didn't expect modding to be harder to manage than being totally AF.

I had had success modding the previous 2 Friday nights,
choosing to have a single glass of red wine..very good..very happy.

This weekend I tried to apply it to white wine,
my true 'Achilles' and not so successful.
I opened a bottle of white Saturday evening and had a 1/2 the bottle (not to upset with that)
had the other 1/2 Sunday afternoon and opened a second bottle drinking another 2 glasses, woke up thru the night furious with myself, knowing that was definitely a failed attempt.
Monday, I almost justified it as not being an AF day (in Australia was a public holiday)
thank goodness the sensible part of my brain said' NO, it is an AF day' and I tipped that 1/2 bottle down the kitchen sink 1st thing in the morning, looking back I know that if it was in the fridge in the evening I would have drank it.

White Wine is my weakness and it doesn't help that we have a wonderful cellar full of my favorites.
My real concern is that when I'm on holiday next month it will be all too easy to drink daily.

In answer to the 'what is my goal' question that was posed to me recently by Sunbeam,
I want to drink because I 'choose' to and not because I 'need' to.
But never on a work night.

frances
June 25th, 2010, 11:51 PM
slipping and need to get back on track

I was doing great for awhile. But - Summer is here and the temptation is overwhelming, and I worry that the 'occasions' will get the best of me. I had a great evening tonight but am drinking my 4th drink as I write. no reason to go over my stated goal of 3 - just got that familiar feeling and wanted to keep on going, and did. I have had this happen more than once this week. The other times were only a couple of drinks but since I've been pretty good with moderating, it doesn't take much to get a strong buzz going and I hadn't eaten much. Anyway, other times this week were no 'special occasion' I just had a bottle of wine in the house and couldn't resist the temptation. I need to get back on track. At least I'm coming back here to keep reading and remember why I wanted to cut down in the first place. I've done this before and summer was where it all slipped back into the routine - I'm worried that will happen again. I know - I need a plan! I will work on that. Thanks to all who are here and succeeding and keep coming back to encourage others and thanks also to those who are still trying - we all need each other and that's what makes this a great place!

Frances

Sunbeam
June 26th, 2010, 07:53 AM
Hi Frances,
I'm glad to see your post, it has been pretty quiet here. Summer wine on the patio is definitely a battle zone, but I am winning the battle. Most motivating for me is all the things I enjoy doing, and that I do more and better without wine. Frequently thinking about this and making specific plans works better than having a plan to drink ___ then stop.

That said, I am going above my usual drinking frequency limit this weekend. I am celebrating the first days of the next chapter in my life. A 3 week full time training program for my new job begins this upcoming week, and after that I will be working just three days per week. I had two glasses with a good friend Friday eve, one glass with dinner yesterday, and I will have 2-3 glasses with another friend today. Then I'm done until at least next weekend.

Take care, all. I gotta go on my morning bike ride.

frances
June 28th, 2010, 09:07 AM
Thanks Sunbeam - you are a model to me! Drinking always makes me pretty lazy so I know what you mean. I like your idea of making plans ahead of time for things you want to do and so you won't be drinking (to me, that sounds better than making plans to not drink - those plans are not as fun!). I'll give that a try!

By the way - congratulations on your new job and new chapter - sounds exciting!

I continued my negative trend through the weekend. Did what I haven't done since I came back here which is I had a whole bottle of wine on Saturday night. Then 3 more drinks Sunday. I'll be AL free this week but I'm going on vacation and I know there will be drinking. I'm going to try to stick with no more than 3 a day while on vacation. I know I can do this!

letgolaughing
June 29th, 2010, 08:56 PM
hi all
don't feel much like posting lately but have been lurking.
summer is tough. too many reasons to have a drink or two.
haven't had an af day in about 2 weeks.
but, all in all haven't been drinking as much as last summer.
so, just gonna try to get back on track with some af days next week and go from there. we'll see.