I became a Christian last month and felt so good that day I just "knew" I would never get drunk again, I was so positive and felt I had someone looking after and protecting me.
Well this weekend I got totally drunk, to the point where much of the night is a total blur.
I felt so disappointed and let down by God, but I also felt so much guilt for letting him down.
But, another day and the hangover fog has cleared and I now know two things:
1) Yes, God is there to help me but I also have to help myself. I know that alcohol makes me into an evil person who hurts the ones I love. I know I need to be strong. God is a big help, but I need to help myself also.
2) God forgives, I am on a learning curve, I have asked for forgiveness and committed to working hard every day to become a better Christian and to never get drunk again.
I love all the posts on here. I really believe that having a higher being (even if you dont call it God) is so helpful in these hard times that we go through.
Guilt is such a negative emotion, forgive yourself first and know that God will forgive you also. Keep working on it every day, and dont give up.
Love to you all
xx
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