I have had a destructive pattern since I was a young person--early teens in fact--I'm now in my mid-30's and am ready to quit hurting myself and my husband. I do not drink everyday (went through a period, though, where I did...in quantities that were very unsafe). But now, I seem to binge every month or so. I get very anxious and then end up accepting an offer from a friend/co-worker to go have a cocktail, which turns into several...and my poor husband is left at home wondering where I am.
Alcohol has caused nothing but problems for me, my entire life. I have (finally) come to the realization that I am no good at it. I mean, if I had an allergy to some food that could possible kill me, would I continue to eat that food? NO! Well, I consider that i have an alcohol "allergy"...combined with an occasional craving. It's time to stop. I have come to the realization that I will need to give it up altogether...I just do not think that I can have one or two every now and then. Once I start, I don't stop until it's too late.
I ordered my topa (hopefully it will arrive soon), I have purchased my supplements (all except Kudzu...will get some this week). I currently do not have enough money to order Roberta's book; hopefully next month, but I'm tapped out this month.
I'm really excited (and equally scared) by the prospect of this change. I'm looking forward to a better life, for myself and my family, and being more successful.
Thanks for being here, by the way, all of you. I was at a loss a couple of days ago and then found MWO, so YEA! and I appreciate you all. Although difficult to read and digest (some anyway), your stories are inspiring and I congratulate each and every one of you, for taking off the blinders (if just for a moment) and taking this important step.
Best wishes! :new:
Alcohol has caused nothing but problems for me, my entire life. I have (finally) come to the realization that I am no good at it. I mean, if I had an allergy to some food that could possible kill me, would I continue to eat that food? NO! Well, I consider that i have an alcohol "allergy"...combined with an occasional craving. It's time to stop. I have come to the realization that I will need to give it up altogether...I just do not think that I can have one or two every now and then. Once I start, I don't stop until it's too late.
I ordered my topa (hopefully it will arrive soon), I have purchased my supplements (all except Kudzu...will get some this week). I currently do not have enough money to order Roberta's book; hopefully next month, but I'm tapped out this month.
I'm really excited (and equally scared) by the prospect of this change. I'm looking forward to a better life, for myself and my family, and being more successful.
Thanks for being here, by the way, all of you. I was at a loss a couple of days ago and then found MWO, so YEA! and I appreciate you all. Although difficult to read and digest (some anyway), your stories are inspiring and I congratulate each and every one of you, for taking off the blinders (if just for a moment) and taking this important step.
Best wishes! :new:
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