Hi folks, I just posted my very first post in Long Term Absteners... and realized as I was finishing that I should be starting out over here. Gee, I wish I was more computer savy and knew how to transfer that post.. but I don't. So, for further details, you can read how I introduced myself there. I've been a longtime lurker and finally plucked up the courage today to introduce myself and find a place in Absville.
It's funny, I've been reading your posts for so long that you are all somewhat of a celebrity to me. I appreciate the wealth of wisdom, care and concern that is shared here on these boards. I've been making progress in the last year of dealing with the drinking demon. However, until this evening, this has all been very much a private and secret battle. Not that my husband, my mother-in-law, all of my friends and everyone else that knows me doesn't think I might have a problem... they've all seen me trashed. However, I don't think anyone knows just how many times I've binged. My husband travels alot. I'm fairly isolated. Let's just say, I've gone on a few "runners" (meaning several days of drinking) I've had two ugly withdrawal sessions (lasting 3 days when I felt I was dying of the flu), I asked my doc the last time for something to help me through it (which was a confession of sorts... he was great) Anyway, I can go weeks without drinking and feel fabulous. I've even gone out several times and had one or two glasses of good wine with dinner and stopped. But, I had such an epiphany this afternoon when I said to myself " I have drank for so much of my life, and many times too much, that I don't want to drink anymore." which led right on to those so familiar voices telling me that there's so much "better" in me just waiting for me to stop drinking and falling back on that self-destruction to come out, rise to the surface, be allowed to shine. So, that was the catalyst that made me sit down, sign in and introduce myself. I'd like to be a neighbor here and join the effort to live a life without the guaranteed hurt of alcohol.
Thanks, Olly
It's funny, I've been reading your posts for so long that you are all somewhat of a celebrity to me. I appreciate the wealth of wisdom, care and concern that is shared here on these boards. I've been making progress in the last year of dealing with the drinking demon. However, until this evening, this has all been very much a private and secret battle. Not that my husband, my mother-in-law, all of my friends and everyone else that knows me doesn't think I might have a problem... they've all seen me trashed. However, I don't think anyone knows just how many times I've binged. My husband travels alot. I'm fairly isolated. Let's just say, I've gone on a few "runners" (meaning several days of drinking) I've had two ugly withdrawal sessions (lasting 3 days when I felt I was dying of the flu), I asked my doc the last time for something to help me through it (which was a confession of sorts... he was great) Anyway, I can go weeks without drinking and feel fabulous. I've even gone out several times and had one or two glasses of good wine with dinner and stopped. But, I had such an epiphany this afternoon when I said to myself " I have drank for so much of my life, and many times too much, that I don't want to drink anymore." which led right on to those so familiar voices telling me that there's so much "better" in me just waiting for me to stop drinking and falling back on that self-destruction to come out, rise to the surface, be allowed to shine. So, that was the catalyst that made me sit down, sign in and introduce myself. I'd like to be a neighbor here and join the effort to live a life without the guaranteed hurt of alcohol.
Thanks, Olly
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