Good morning, Affies,
Well ? on April fools I feel like a right fool myself.
Yesterday after work and errands I went to my girlfriend?s birthday party ? I got presented with a glass of white to raise in her honor ? and instead of raising it then leaving it there (or any other avoidance tactics) I actually sniffed and sipped. Just like that.
No excuses, no mitigating circumstances, it has to be clear to myself that it was ME who made that poor decision to have the first sip. I am so mad I could kick myself. The rest as they say is history ? the chain of bad decisions ensued ? few glasses later ? I drove home ? I parked and forgot my lights on during the night and now my battery is dead. I feel like a prize idiot for going back to dark ages. I am also thanking the heavens that nothing bad happened during the short but ill advised drive.
This is the first time I came face to face with my archenemy - New Zealand Sauvignon blanc since last July. And I lost big time. Sure, I drank since then, but never this particular wine, I have always avoided it. I was in such a good place yesterday before foolishly thinking that I am better than this. Last year I did manage several times at various birthdays to clink, have one sip and leave the rest there. Not yesterday, not with my poison of choice.
So, tail between my legs ? I made you all coffee and I am having a large mug myself with a big slice of humble pie.
I feel terrible for disappointing myself and you too.
Well ? on April fools I feel like a right fool myself.
Yesterday after work and errands I went to my girlfriend?s birthday party ? I got presented with a glass of white to raise in her honor ? and instead of raising it then leaving it there (or any other avoidance tactics) I actually sniffed and sipped. Just like that.
No excuses, no mitigating circumstances, it has to be clear to myself that it was ME who made that poor decision to have the first sip. I am so mad I could kick myself. The rest as they say is history ? the chain of bad decisions ensued ? few glasses later ? I drove home ? I parked and forgot my lights on during the night and now my battery is dead. I feel like a prize idiot for going back to dark ages. I am also thanking the heavens that nothing bad happened during the short but ill advised drive.
This is the first time I came face to face with my archenemy - New Zealand Sauvignon blanc since last July. And I lost big time. Sure, I drank since then, but never this particular wine, I have always avoided it. I was in such a good place yesterday before foolishly thinking that I am better than this. Last year I did manage several times at various birthdays to clink, have one sip and leave the rest there. Not yesterday, not with my poison of choice.
So, tail between my legs ? I made you all coffee and I am having a large mug myself with a big slice of humble pie.
I feel terrible for disappointing myself and you too.
TDN
. So, that is my success story folks...I managed to switch the old thinking to the new and get through the evening without AL. I feel stronger today because of it. Like a passed test. Yeah, it was a challenge when that moment of "should I" passed through my brain but having the right tools to switch that to new thinking made all the difference! Sorry for the long story but just wanted to share the good news. My next big challenge will be Easter Sunday when we are going to have dinner with my heavy drinking family. It will be me and my teenage nephew as the only non-drinkers in the crowd. 
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