Everyone: Many thanks for the lively discussion of last week. Many thoughts going around in my head.
Hitting bottom: I didn't hit the bottom some people do, i.e. homelessness, jail, losses, etc. But, it was my bottom. I was miserable, guilt-ridden, alone, & scared. I knew I had to change. When I had a drunken experience that sent me to the ER, I knew that I would only get worse.
Admitting powerlessness: This is something I have to do frequently. I can get into the mindset of: "maybe I can have just one now" or "maybe I'm not so bad after all." I've heard too many stories of relapse that start out w/just those thoughts. In most of those stories, people go right back to high levels of drinking within a very short time. I won't go back there, so I admit I'm powerless.
HP: I try not to overthink the whole God/HP thing. I spoke to a guy last night who shared his skepticism w/his sponsor. The sponsor told him to keep a log of all the coincidences that come up in his life. Then he said: "Those aren't coincidences...that's God intervening in your life."
That's just a little of what I've been thinking. Thank you all for a lot of food for thought.
Mary
Hitting bottom: I didn't hit the bottom some people do, i.e. homelessness, jail, losses, etc. But, it was my bottom. I was miserable, guilt-ridden, alone, & scared. I knew I had to change. When I had a drunken experience that sent me to the ER, I knew that I would only get worse.
Admitting powerlessness: This is something I have to do frequently. I can get into the mindset of: "maybe I can have just one now" or "maybe I'm not so bad after all." I've heard too many stories of relapse that start out w/just those thoughts. In most of those stories, people go right back to high levels of drinking within a very short time. I won't go back there, so I admit I'm powerless.
HP: I try not to overthink the whole God/HP thing. I spoke to a guy last night who shared his skepticism w/his sponsor. The sponsor told him to keep a log of all the coincidences that come up in his life. Then he said: "Those aren't coincidences...that's God intervening in your life."
That's just a little of what I've been thinking. Thank you all for a lot of food for thought.
Mary
But i do wish the person that takes it over will grow in confidences like i have...its made me believe in myself and given me courage and confidence so much. I have put myself forward to do GSR looking forward to it. It all helps in my recovery.
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