Just wanted to say that moderation IS possible. I am here one year today!
THANKS RJ!!!!!!
I have never even posted my story, I think I was too raw last spring . . .so here goes. I had an accident that crushed my hand in a pressure laminating machine, 11 years ago. Alcohol was not even really on my radar before that. I was an occasional drinker. I did not do well on the different pain meds they gave me, either allergic to or made me sick to my stomach. By two months into it, I was up to 24-30 -200 mg, tablets of Ibuprofen daily (anti inflammatory medication.) that stuff just eats your stomach but I continued it, just take the edge off the pain. Had a couple years of ganglion (sp?) nerve block shots in my neck along with physical therapy to help build mobility and strength back in my hand. To look at me now, I compensate pretty well with it, though that thumb is a pretty lame excuse for a thumb! Anyone unaware of the story can not see what damage was done though. At the PT, she said I have almost 2 lbs of pressure from off that thumb but overcompensating up to 25 lbs off the other thumb!
Along the way, I discovered hard liquor gave me a nice buzz, and while there was still the pain, I just didn't care when I was loaded. Hence my home remedy that grew from one drink in an evening to 3 (doubles) in a night. If I really didn't want to feel anything, 4 doubles to pass out.
I cut back for a couple years as I started to realize I was waking up hung over every morning. June 2005, I stepped on the dogs tail in the middle of the night, came crashing into the brick floors and tore my PCL. Gone, done, torn no real fixing it. Back to Ibuprofen, physical therapy and the liquor store on my way home from PT. March 27, 2006, woke up with a horrible, hangover, looked at my eyes in the mirror and the skin around my eyes had a yellow cast to it. Scared the sh** out of me. I came to work and googled alcoholism. Joined that day. Went cold turkey, bought the supps and started them about a week later. Was doing OK moderating and then I ordered the book and CD's about 7 weeks into it. I know half A** backward!
The CD's were the biggie for me. I just had that switch click for me about 2 weeks into them.
Wanting sobriety helped. Looking at MODS as though I am really in ABS with the occasional evening of a drink or two is a good attitude for me.
Getting into an exercise routine at my bewitching hour helped change my habit.
Not having my favorite alcohol around the house really helps keep the demons at bay.
With this program in place I was able to stop smoking January 1st of this year! Other than these boards I have now thrown all addictions away!!
Getting up and feeling great, seeing the whites of my eyes so white and clear along with my skin being super healthy now - that helps too!
THE NUMBER ONE keep me on track item is this board. Coming here, hearing stories, receiving the constant love and support from you wonderful members, offering support, and being accountable on the drink tracker probably plays the biggest role in my success.
In the past couple months, my husband has started back to the gym and slowed his drinking down incredibly. I think a lot has to do with being a good role model for him. He still has no idea I am on this site so often or what you all mean to me. Many of you being great role models for me has ultimately helped me, help him too. So THANKS!!!
Thank you all for your love, support and for sharing your stories. I wish for all of you excellent health, continued strength and lifetimes of happy sobriety!
Hugs and Love,
Mary
THANKS RJ!!!!!!
I have never even posted my story, I think I was too raw last spring . . .so here goes. I had an accident that crushed my hand in a pressure laminating machine, 11 years ago. Alcohol was not even really on my radar before that. I was an occasional drinker. I did not do well on the different pain meds they gave me, either allergic to or made me sick to my stomach. By two months into it, I was up to 24-30 -200 mg, tablets of Ibuprofen daily (anti inflammatory medication.) that stuff just eats your stomach but I continued it, just take the edge off the pain. Had a couple years of ganglion (sp?) nerve block shots in my neck along with physical therapy to help build mobility and strength back in my hand. To look at me now, I compensate pretty well with it, though that thumb is a pretty lame excuse for a thumb! Anyone unaware of the story can not see what damage was done though. At the PT, she said I have almost 2 lbs of pressure from off that thumb but overcompensating up to 25 lbs off the other thumb!
Along the way, I discovered hard liquor gave me a nice buzz, and while there was still the pain, I just didn't care when I was loaded. Hence my home remedy that grew from one drink in an evening to 3 (doubles) in a night. If I really didn't want to feel anything, 4 doubles to pass out.
I cut back for a couple years as I started to realize I was waking up hung over every morning. June 2005, I stepped on the dogs tail in the middle of the night, came crashing into the brick floors and tore my PCL. Gone, done, torn no real fixing it. Back to Ibuprofen, physical therapy and the liquor store on my way home from PT. March 27, 2006, woke up with a horrible, hangover, looked at my eyes in the mirror and the skin around my eyes had a yellow cast to it. Scared the sh** out of me. I came to work and googled alcoholism. Joined that day. Went cold turkey, bought the supps and started them about a week later. Was doing OK moderating and then I ordered the book and CD's about 7 weeks into it. I know half A** backward!
The CD's were the biggie for me. I just had that switch click for me about 2 weeks into them.
Wanting sobriety helped. Looking at MODS as though I am really in ABS with the occasional evening of a drink or two is a good attitude for me.
Getting into an exercise routine at my bewitching hour helped change my habit.
Not having my favorite alcohol around the house really helps keep the demons at bay.
With this program in place I was able to stop smoking January 1st of this year! Other than these boards I have now thrown all addictions away!!
Getting up and feeling great, seeing the whites of my eyes so white and clear along with my skin being super healthy now - that helps too!
THE NUMBER ONE keep me on track item is this board. Coming here, hearing stories, receiving the constant love and support from you wonderful members, offering support, and being accountable on the drink tracker probably plays the biggest role in my success.
In the past couple months, my husband has started back to the gym and slowed his drinking down incredibly. I think a lot has to do with being a good role model for him. He still has no idea I am on this site so often or what you all mean to me. Many of you being great role models for me has ultimately helped me, help him too. So THANKS!!!
Thank you all for your love, support and for sharing your stories. I wish for all of you excellent health, continued strength and lifetimes of happy sobriety!
Hugs and Love,
Mary
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