morning all - up early and off to collect a parcel and get cat food/eye drops.Day 13 AF.Later off to London to look round the shops then to watch a band.
In a funk - fed up with house being full of OH's band stuff - 3 other people in the band - bet their house doesn't get all cluttered up with amps etc. I can't walk properly into my own spare bedroom as corridor jammed with amps,boxes, guitars etc.Never mind that spare bedroom is a studio!!I can feel myself dreading the conversation with OH, and predicting it will go badly - I am awfulising things and making them into problems when they don't necessarily need to be.I will suggest that we spend Friday de-cluttering and
work out if there is a need for other band members to take stuff.
Also reading facebook and team mate's posts about boozy nights out making me feel left out, I know that's childish but there it is. I don't want to drink, I feel better without drink in so many ways. I can socialise without and am obviously am hyper sensitive to it at the moment - in reality I'm not missing out on anything - also these team mates are 26-27 - I'm 40.
Keeping on challenging the unhelpful thinking!
In a funk - fed up with house being full of OH's band stuff - 3 other people in the band - bet their house doesn't get all cluttered up with amps etc. I can't walk properly into my own spare bedroom as corridor jammed with amps,boxes, guitars etc.Never mind that spare bedroom is a studio!!I can feel myself dreading the conversation with OH, and predicting it will go badly - I am awfulising things and making them into problems when they don't necessarily need to be.I will suggest that we spend Friday de-cluttering and
work out if there is a need for other band members to take stuff.
Also reading facebook and team mate's posts about boozy nights out making me feel left out, I know that's childish but there it is. I don't want to drink, I feel better without drink in so many ways. I can socialise without and am obviously am hyper sensitive to it at the moment - in reality I'm not missing out on anything - also these team mates are 26-27 - I'm 40.
Keeping on challenging the unhelpful thinking!