I have been really feeling mucked up the last few days. I am not sure where it started but now I feel even worse than I did initially. I really am not sure how I even got to this point as I was feeling so strong and hopeful last week. Now I can barely get on the boards and don’t feel much like responding to anything or anyone.
My In-laws came into town Thursday night last week. Friday my wife’s Dad and I worked on putting up a fence in my back yard. The ground here is all mud and it was very difficult digging the post holes. Well early on I some how managed to hurt what I thought was my elbow. Luckily I had my P-Doc appointment at 3:30 so I happily went off to that.
At the Dr.’s he read about the Topamax and had some concerns as he found a later study saying Topamax wasn’t that effective for drinking. We discussed alternatives and we settled on trying Naltrexone and Campral until the 21st when I go back to see him. He said I can drink on these and that it should lesson my desire within a week. That night I had a few.
Saturday comes along and we rush to get the fence done. I go to the store to get some things for the fence and drop off my meds. Head back, get the fence done and my arm is about ready to explode in pain! I head off to the local clinic and find out I torn my bicep muscles where it begins to join the bone. I also have a nasal infection so now I go back to the drug store and put more prescriptions in. That night I drank and took the Campral. My Mom called me that night around dinner time to tell me my 42 year old cousin had a heart attack. This is on top of my Mom’s sister having terminal lung cancer and her son having serious asthma and now her daughter has a hear attack!
Next day I am forbidden to help out because of my arm, so I rest about the house, but now I am surly beyond belief and just plain exhausted. The prednisone has kicked in. I try to nap but I cant say I even slept. The nap was 15 minutes of quasi-sleep then up then another 15 then up in an endless cycle. So that night I drink and this time I take the Naltrexone along with the Campral. Around midnight I get the most nauseating feeling in the world. I eat a small snack and it goes away and I go to bed. I have probably the worst night sleeping in my life. And that’s saying something because I am an insomniac that normally takes 1 to 2 hours to fall asleep. This was just like the nap, sleep sort-a 15 minutes then up and this lasts all night.
Monday my mood is in the shitter. Again, feeling surly for no reason what so ever. That night I take all the pills with the exception of Naltrexone. Sleep horribly again.
Tuesday I by this time don’t want to look at the boards and when I am I feel no urge to chat with anyone or post a message. Just feeling tired and down. In laws leave early for the rest of their vacation.
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Yesterday I am exhausted beyond belief. I couldn’t stay at work as I kept falling asleep in from of my computer. Told my boss I was heading home and took a nap until 5. Again I was doing the 15 minutes quasi-sleep. Wife recommends (this is funny) that I just get completely shit faced. So I drink ten beers and sleep ok. At least I only woke 3 times last night. I took Campral since Saturday and did not take any Naltrexone.
Today I can feel a frown on my face and don’t feel motivated to do anything. I don’t want to drink tonight, which is good to not have that desire. I am at a loss of what the Eff** is wrong with me. I don’t feel like myself. I know the prednisone is not helping but that will be gone in 2 days. This not being able to sleep is really tough because I am literally a zombie.
Sorry for the long post but I figured if I typed it all out it would make me feel better. Usually if does, but this time I feel apathetic. I just don’t feel right in the head.
:huh: :surrender: :huh:
My In-laws came into town Thursday night last week. Friday my wife’s Dad and I worked on putting up a fence in my back yard. The ground here is all mud and it was very difficult digging the post holes. Well early on I some how managed to hurt what I thought was my elbow. Luckily I had my P-Doc appointment at 3:30 so I happily went off to that.
At the Dr.’s he read about the Topamax and had some concerns as he found a later study saying Topamax wasn’t that effective for drinking. We discussed alternatives and we settled on trying Naltrexone and Campral until the 21st when I go back to see him. He said I can drink on these and that it should lesson my desire within a week. That night I had a few.
Saturday comes along and we rush to get the fence done. I go to the store to get some things for the fence and drop off my meds. Head back, get the fence done and my arm is about ready to explode in pain! I head off to the local clinic and find out I torn my bicep muscles where it begins to join the bone. I also have a nasal infection so now I go back to the drug store and put more prescriptions in. That night I drank and took the Campral. My Mom called me that night around dinner time to tell me my 42 year old cousin had a heart attack. This is on top of my Mom’s sister having terminal lung cancer and her son having serious asthma and now her daughter has a hear attack!
Next day I am forbidden to help out because of my arm, so I rest about the house, but now I am surly beyond belief and just plain exhausted. The prednisone has kicked in. I try to nap but I cant say I even slept. The nap was 15 minutes of quasi-sleep then up then another 15 then up in an endless cycle. So that night I drink and this time I take the Naltrexone along with the Campral. Around midnight I get the most nauseating feeling in the world. I eat a small snack and it goes away and I go to bed. I have probably the worst night sleeping in my life. And that’s saying something because I am an insomniac that normally takes 1 to 2 hours to fall asleep. This was just like the nap, sleep sort-a 15 minutes then up and this lasts all night.
Monday my mood is in the shitter. Again, feeling surly for no reason what so ever. That night I take all the pills with the exception of Naltrexone. Sleep horribly again.
Tuesday I by this time don’t want to look at the boards and when I am I feel no urge to chat with anyone or post a message. Just feeling tired and down. In laws leave early for the rest of their vacation.
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Yesterday I am exhausted beyond belief. I couldn’t stay at work as I kept falling asleep in from of my computer. Told my boss I was heading home and took a nap until 5. Again I was doing the 15 minutes quasi-sleep. Wife recommends (this is funny) that I just get completely shit faced. So I drink ten beers and sleep ok. At least I only woke 3 times last night. I took Campral since Saturday and did not take any Naltrexone.
Today I can feel a frown on my face and don’t feel motivated to do anything. I don’t want to drink tonight, which is good to not have that desire. I am at a loss of what the Eff** is wrong with me. I don’t feel like myself. I know the prednisone is not helping but that will be gone in 2 days. This not being able to sleep is really tough because I am literally a zombie.
Sorry for the long post but I figured if I typed it all out it would make me feel better. Usually if does, but this time I feel apathetic. I just don’t feel right in the head.
:huh: :surrender: :huh:
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