Welcome Ruby,
You will find this site a caring, accepting place to be. Everyone has been in the place you are now. There is a way out and you have taken the first step. We all look forward to getting to know you too. I have only been on this site 2 weeks and I have already changed so much. If you feel comfortable, start a new thread and tell everyone a little about yourself and situation. You will get a lot of response that way and lots of support from many. If you haven't already done so, go ahead and download RJs book and read it- it will give you a good understanding of the entire program. I look forward to your future posts. Best Wishes. kriger