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      blacked out again

      blacked out again last night....fourth time in three weeks...was doing well until i went to a wedding three weeks ago and blacked out both nights there...then again last monday and again last night...i'm pretty sure this will kill me one of these times...started taking campral last week and it doesn't seem to help much...it is so expensive that i can't afford to keep going with it....i hate alcohol...i will be 32 on sunday and my life has been nothing but a waste...i know i need to just stop al all together but know i can't...i mean i know i can stop for like a week or so but i just know i will drink again and so don't even want to try to go af since i will just blow it...god, WHY DO I HAVE TO BE GOING THROUGH THIS!!!...i just want this to go away...i guess if i drink myself to death it will

      i should probably just stop coming here because all i ever have to post about is how i messed up again

      i wish i could afford counseling...i'm too scared someone will know me at aa to go to meetings

      sorry to be such a downer

      dove

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      I agree....don't give up. Never give up!!!!!! I just wanna say too...if you see someone at AA that you know...guess what? They are there for the SAME REASON you are....and trust me, everyone that knows and loves you...already KNOWS you have a problem. We think we hide it, but we don't. I have had many ups and downs....but, I never stopped coming here and I will never give up....I had 8 months AF last year and I am 4 months AF now...that is a hell of alot better than when I came here. I was drinking until blackout DAILY.....don't give up....keep trying.

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      thank you...yes i feel like i have just given up...i just hate that i keep messing up...if i stop trying to stop then i will stop failing...i just really hate that i have to keep posting that i f'ed up AGAIN

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      No, Gia, you're right, I really don't want to give up. I'm just so tired of failing.

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      FAILURE...is when you stop trying!!!!!!!!!! So you drink....it is DONE...over, make tomorrow count..Don't drink...each day you make it AF....is one day without a blackout, so do not give up.

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      Thanks. I'm just so tired of all of this. Why can't I just stop? I AM a failure because I have no willpower to stop this stupidness that is so embeded in my life. I hate it.

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      Try anything and everything

      Dove, i am a chronic relapser. Tried AA still there. Trying this now. You really need to know it can work. I dont mind listening believe me i have been there. DUi, arrested...some of the best and most caring people i have met are in AA

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      blacked out again

      anyone want to chat

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      Dove
      I have been where you are so many times. I feel that for me to give up is a death sentence, and it will not come quickly. It will be a slow, torturous death. I may slip, relapse, whatever, but I Will Never Give Up. I have had more AF time since joining this site 7 months ago than I have had in the past 5 years. Every AF day matters.:l

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      id like to chat

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