Paulysville

[Orimus]

Nice job on putting 11 days behind you @paulywogg! Amusing factoid - in kabalistic numerology 11 is the number associated with initiation and 12 with the voice of god. lol Ramble on lass.

[treetops]

Good to see a new start and a fresh thread for you. 11 is a great number, it's the day of my birthday (not for a while). I will be keeping my eagle eye on you even when I return home. No more next times!

[paulywogg]

Thanks everybody,Netflix Jackie? Hmm that would be a train wreck of a show haha,people would never imagine me sitting on the couch drinking homeless people beer(thats what hubs calls it) I look like a wine drinker people have said,they think that I drink a few glasses and so I think I'm an alcoholic, no,I've only touched wine once and it was only cuz I desperately needed a hair of the dog and Michelle had left some Moscato in the fridge,feeling sick these past few days,not sure if its withdraw related or if I caught Louie's stomach bug,hopefully its the latter but I noticed it never fails that if I drink a lot I ALWAYS catch some kind of cold,also having tenderness in the liver area that I've had before but it passed eventually, time to wake up.

[JackieClaire]

@paulywogg, you can shift up a bit on that couch, I could be the mad Aunt from England.
A lot of people thought I was a wine snob because I worked in a wine merchant selling posh bottles of wine and champagne......... Nothing could be further from the truth.....it was the cheapest vodka from the corner shops and wine that came in 3ltr boxes.

Give yourself time, love, you're doing the right thing.

[Mr Vervill]

It's funny that you posted that song @Orimus, because as soon as someone said ramble on, that song started rolling through my head.
Ramble on @paulywogg

[NoraC]

Love, love, love this thread. And, I love, love, love, love, love you Pauly.

[paulywogg]

Love you too Nora

[paulywogg]

I was told by a member in a nice way that I complain alot,I don't mean to sound so negative but sometimes we can't see what others see,my goal is to focus on being grateful from now on,I have a cute gratitude journal that my daughter gave me,its pink with some pigs she painted on the cover and has pink paper but I haven't written in it since..let me look jeez March 8! Slacker! In it I write at least 5 things I'm grateful for (at least I'm supposed to!) Some are as big as being happy for the kids,some as small as a morning donut,a morning donut may sound small and stupid but drinking I dont care about small things like donuts or how awesome coffee is,all I can think about is stupid alcohol! This go around I'm gonna be grateful for the smallest things,I also armed myself with a few members' phone numbers and I plan on being a pest if that ugly drinking urge hits! I can't go back to that shitty,scary state of mind I was in,I won't

[techie]

Pauly, you complain as much as you need to. For some of us, it's a way of venting and can be of value. Holding back our emotions may result in drinking as a release mechanism. So, vent as much as you need to. So what if some folks here go into judgement, you do not need to take that on. xo

[paulywogg]

Oh Techie,I'll always vent if I need to,thats the great thing about having a personal thread,you can bitch without letting it rub on other people's day haha it wasn't said in a mean way,it was more of a turn your anger into something positive sort of way,damn I'm tired! Busiest day of the week was today and I can feel it,just gonna watch t.v and be a bum the rest of the day