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      Re: July Army Manoeuvres

      Quote Originally Posted by mollyka View Post
      I NEVER wanted one or two - not going to start now -- like you say - no illusions -- mmm - do wonder about the 'bad news' thingy - have had a few pretty major challenges family wise in the last years but.... ach I dunno - just scares me when I hear that really - sorry you had/are having such a poxy time -- but yeah - you obviously need to stop - no question - and don't let there be an out. - Thanks for sharing.. always tell me to mind my own business - I can intrude sometimes ;-)


      Morning Stirly

      Funny you say you were straight back to vast quantities -- a big stumbling block for me was when I decided to 'moderate' after a fairly lengthy little sober stint - and d'ya'know -- it really did work - for a time - feeling beautifully jolly and mellow after a couple of glasses of wine --- but then - after about a month - maybe 3 glasses - and then...…………… off we go -- ending in rehab..
      Hey Molls - you'll probably read this later but that's ok. I have not had the best year family-wise. Besides leaving Mr. Stirly and getting a proper calling down from older son, we have ongoing problems with our DIL's. One is a pathological liar and is making life hell for younger son. The other one simply greatly dislikes us and doesn't want us to have anything to do with her girls. Um, my wearing lipstick when we went out for coffee when younger granddaughter was 9 months old was reason enough to bite my head off. You see, the child might have had an allergic reaction to the lipstick! FFS. I didn't even touch her with my lips and within a few minutes had wiped it off anyway. The result is that I haven't seen my granddaughters for about 6 months, something that hurts me greatly. BUT - AL will not solve that or any other problem that I have. In fact it would only make things much, much worse. Yes there have been times when I wanted something to calm me down but a good vent with my sister and/or my special friend usually got me calmed down. Not AL. Not again. Not ever.

      And yeah, I was surprised as heck that it took that much for me to get smashed (which is what I wanted to do) and not just a few drinks. Anyway, nuff said - back to work!!
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      It's pretty horrific but not my story to tell. Not at all Molls, glad to get it off my chest in a way.
      Stirly that was the scariest part for me too. I really thought I would be starting from the beginning with my tolerance levels as well. Back to when I first started drinking, and that I would have a bit of leeway there. Not so. You take up where you left off and then some.
      Anyway, it's off to beddles for me with a good book, the dog and a soft blankey.
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      Re: July Army Manoeuvres

      Quote Originally Posted by stirly-girly View Post
      Hey Molls - you'll probably read this later but that's ok. I have not had the best year family-wise. Besides leaving Mr. Stirly and getting a proper calling down from older son, we have ongoing problems with our DIL's. One is a pathological liar and is making life hell for younger son. The other one simply greatly dislikes us and doesn't want us to have anything to do with her girls. Um, my wearing lipstick when we went out for coffee when younger granddaughter was 9 months old was reason enough to bite my head off. You see, the child might have had an allergic reaction to the lipstick! FFS. I didn't even touch her with my lips and within a few minutes had wiped it off anyway. The result is that I haven't seen my granddaughters for about 6 months, something that hurts me greatly. BUT - AL will not solve that or any other problem that I have. In fact it would only make things much, much worse. Yes there have been times when I wanted something to calm me down but a good vent with my sister and/or my special friend usually got me calmed down. Not AL. Not again. Not ever.

      And yeah, I was surprised as heck that it took that much for me to get smashed (which is what I wanted to do) and not just a few drinks. Anyway, nuff said - back to work!!
      Families are hard … the best of families are hard work -- I think I'm lucky in that I feel I've given all I can give and now I'm going to settle back and enjoy my relationship to the best of my ability - and of course I'm here - I'm granny and I always will be - but yeah - I can't be that doting grandmother that minds the kids all the time and life revolves around them - but I do sympathise - they will be the losers in the end - I'd have loved to have a grandparent - mine were all dead before I was born - and they are depriving the kids of that... anyway - what I always go back to was one of the tougher counsellors in rehab - he would ask the newbies 'why do you drink?' and the reasons would flood out 'because I'm unhappy' 'because I'm poor/rich/lonely/happy etc etc etc' -- he'd let them rabbit on for 10 mins and he'd just eyeball them and half shout 'NO -- it's because you're an alcoholic' -- so I like to think I'm engrained with the idea that there is NO excuse I could find that would make me drink -- probably bullshit - but I hope I'm right
      Quote Originally Posted by byebyebridgetjones View Post
      It's pretty horrific but not my story to tell. Not at all Molls, glad to get it off my chest in a way.
      Stirly that was the scariest part for me too. I really thought I would be starting from the beginning with my tolerance levels as well. Back to when I first started drinking, and that I would have a bit of leeway there. Not so. You take up where you left off and then some.
      Anyway, it's off to beddles for me with a good book, the dog and a soft blankey.
      Night lovely ones.
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      Evening,
      You know I remember my Nana kissing me on the lips so I could have a bit of lipstick on the go home with. I felt so grown-up. And of course, I had my Granny 'til I was 58............teeny tiny woman, my hero and a barrier/escape from my mother......the dreadful auld bat.....mind my Ma was great with our kids.

      @byebyebridgetjones...........I could go from zero to full relapse in days perhaps hours. I'm an alcoholic.........admittedly I tried and tried to be a normal drinker..........you know only getting hammered on weekends like 'normal' people..........a lot of arrogance, perhaps naivety going on there.

      Back to children............was in a well know baker's today (had an urge for two of their greasy sausage rolls)........it was full of brats....... I was thinking............God, do these kids never shut their whingy little mouths...........trouble is I said it out loud.........in fact very loud. The lad serving me burst out laughing and I'm now looking for a safe house.
      It could be worse, I could be filing.
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      Back to children............was in a well know baker's today (had an urge for two of their greasy sausage rolls)........it was full of brats....... I was thinking............God, do these kids never shut their whingy little mouths...........trouble is I said it out loud.........in fact very loud. The lad serving me burst out laughing and I'm now looking for a safe house.
      Ha ha, know how you feel, was in Aldi the other day and was like a crèche. Better get used to it, have little people coming to stay tomorrow, hubbys grandnieces, 3 and 5. Busy, busy so will say good night.

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      Ha ha, know how you feel, was in Aldi the other day and was like a crèche. Better get used to it, have little people coming to stay tomorrow, hubbys grandnieces, 3 and 5. Busy, busy so will say good night.
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      Back to children............was in a well know baker's today (had an urge for two of their greasy sausage rolls)........it was full of brats....... I was thinking............God, do these kids never shut their whingy little mouths...........trouble is I said it out loud.........in fact very loud. The lad serving me burst out laughing and I'm now looking for a safe house.

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      Quote Originally Posted by mollyka View Post
      'NO -- it's because you're an alcoholic' -- so I like to think I'm engrained with the idea that there is NO excuse I could find that would make me drink -- probably bullshit - but I hope I'm right
      I think you are Molls. Once you KNOW deep down that taking a drink will solve nothing - maybe give temporary relief - you resign yourself to it.
      IMHO the more you've stopped & started in an effort to get sober - the more this becomes clear.
      Alcohol is such a teeny tiny part of life as a whole - but we give it such prominency in our lives...... madness really.

      I hope I don't live to regret my pompous words .............
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      Don't have to read through all the posts, in a hurry to drive up to Nashville, but I see several references to picking up pretty much were you left off. That is so well known by my alkie friends and has happened to several.

      I have a dear friend that stayed sober 14 years and relapsed when her husband passed away, in 4 years she was in the hospital several times and almost died.

      I have relapsed so many times and it has always been the same, maybe a few days of "moderation" and off to the races.

      I am convinced that one is waaayyy too many for this girl.
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      ...in a hurry to drive up to Nashville...
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      late checkin, nuts in work (before the holidays).
      Always interested to understand relapses, especially the long terms ones. Bridge, before you got the bad news in January, any changes in your mindset creeping back in??

      Better hit the hay, night gang.
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