Pretty much a sleepless night last night waking every hour or so feeling so anxious...my mind racing, my chest aching and a feeling of fear - impending doom - that I can't identify welling up inside of me. This is not new...usually, the promise of AL takes the fear away. That's not an option anymore and I don't know how to deal with it.

so much going on...a lot of conflict that I just want to run away from...the ex canceling yet another visit with the boys, refusing to pay his part of medical and insurance, my sister angry at me (in her passive-aggressive way) because I'm moving out of her rental house, conflicts at work over a recent promotion I received...I hate conflict. I just want peace.