July Mod Squad

[vlivengood]

Ouch LG- I have a large close family with TONS of BS....
I have no doubt that your intentions was to let the family know you had been to see mom and here is what you have to report... Yo blew up not out of guilt but out of pure anger in your intentions being twisted in such a wrong direction!!!! I think your sister obviously has some of her own guilt maybe for not visiting enough or maybe because she noticed the same thing and did nothing about it......

You know as well as I do a drink is NOT the answer and that in the state you are in it would not be JUST ONE DRINK......

Why don't you get online and see where you can get her some new blouses and bras and get them to her with out a word to your sister about it.....

Read your post really quick cause I gotta head out to my town board hope I got the story right or my advice will be pretty lame.

I'll check back later...... Stay strong..... Vent away!

[vlivengood]

Real quick I was ?ber tempted to have one or two of those beers to relax me for this meeting but opted for nap instead wish me luck!!!!!!!

[LibraryGirl]

Good luck, vliven! I know you will do well.

Sitting here extremely depressed. It's apparent to me now that my sisters (and maybe brothers too) have been talking to each other about me. Another example of how I am a worthless member of the family.

[vlivengood]

LG do u honestly believe you are a useless member? I find that very hard to believe...... Give it some time to cool off them confront them..... Waiting for my item on the agenda to be called..

[LibraryGirl]

vliven, I don't want to clutter your mind about my problems when you have this presentation coming up. I will answer your question though. LOL, selfishness wins out again. I do feel worthless sometimes. I know I don't do enough or visit my family enough...I don't know why. I feel such dread when I think about being with any of them. It's not really that bad, and anyone looking in would say, what a lovely family you have. We don't even argue with each other. It's just knowing what's been said (comments about my weight behind my back, my irresponsibility, etc.) that makes me resentful. I think depression keeps me from doing what I should in many areas of my life, and I seriously need some help.

[vlivengood]

It's almost 9 I just gor home I did great like an old pro kinda like riding a bike passed with a unanimous vote!!!! Texted my client he responded that I was his hero and he owes me big
Did all my little evening chores... Set up coffe , make hubby's lunch and set up for his breakfast...... Decided I just reply wanna relax and have cold beer, just the one then headed to bed.

LG hope u feel better after a good nights sleep I'll chime in more tomorrow!!!

Hope everyone else had a wonderful moderate or AF evening

[LibraryGirl]

Good morning. I apologize for going on and on about everything last night. I don't feel great this morning. I'm tired and my eyes hurt, lol. I had one beer last night, so no ill effects from AL...who knew I could turn into a blubbering idiot all on my own?

Gotta run get ready for work. It's going to be a long day.

[vlivengood]

Howdy Howdy - Happy Hump Day Modders!

Well my one cold one turned into 2 during an episode of breaking bad - Did not get to bed until after 11 GULP that's late for me considering I am at at 4:30 and in the office by 6am.

But still any day dealing with a little lack of sleep is better than any day I experienced after a night of heavy liquor.

I am determined to make a dent in the pile of absolute shit on my desk today.

LG - You were not babbling - Family is THE most important thing in all of our lives even if that family is crazed, judgmental and drives you insane. I can really relate with you on how you really have nothing bad to say about the family as a whole but in general try to keep your distance. However, I do not feel my family has much bad to say about me, they just kinda make me crazy. One thing I feel crappy about is one of my older sisters (just 2 years older) has 3 young kids, I love them they are beautiful but I just do not like kids. She however loves kids and when I had my son and we were both teenagers when he was born, she always spent time with him, had him on sleepovers even when she started dating then living with her husband before her kids came they took him on trips and everything, but that was one kid not 3 and she asked all the time I did not ask her, anyway I feel like poop cause i see her kids like once a month and when I know I have to I dread it for days, this Friday her eldest is staying the night UGH....

Ok Gotta get to work, luv to hear how everyone else is doing - HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!