I know that over time I have come to know myself. I know that in order to reach my full destiny I must first master myself. Self-discipline is the only obstacle separating me from my heart's desire.
What is my heart's desire:
To embrace life, my family and friends with open arms and to teach them about non-judgement, acceptance, kindness and conscious living by way of example.
To convince my husband through patience and respect to relocate with me from the French world I agreed to live in for the past eleven years back to my roots in English Canada where I can see my children and 3 plus grandchildren on a regular basis and interact with others who speak my language.
To lead those I come in contact with towards peaceful solutions to conflict, respect for all including ourselves and forgiveness as I grow older and wiser.
To create a haven where my family and friends feel welcome, close by and accepted at any time.
In order to achieve these life-fulfilling goals I need:
To abstain from alcohol use totally. To be sober and alert each evening of my life.
To practice daily, habitual meditation and physical exercise for the benefit of my body and soul.
To practice disciplined behaviour on a daily basis until it becomes second nature to me.
To help others on this forum as others have continuously helped me.
To invite the relocation to English Canada as a focus of my meditation and to find ways to make the move appealing to my husband as it is a foreign idea to my French (though bilingual) hubby.
I've managed through the ass-kicking, tongue lashing, love, support and encouragement of the people on this forum to cut my drinking down to almost never. Rather than continue to sabotage myself (in order to prove to myself that I am a loser
) by drinking one glass of wine here and there I will finally stop indefinitely and will journal here every few days.
I believe that I can do this. I believe I am ready. My aspirations are difficult to achieve but I will achieve them. The first step towards my goals is Self-Mastery ... controlling my impulses.
Day One Today.
What is my heart's desire:
To embrace life, my family and friends with open arms and to teach them about non-judgement, acceptance, kindness and conscious living by way of example.
To convince my husband through patience and respect to relocate with me from the French world I agreed to live in for the past eleven years back to my roots in English Canada where I can see my children and 3 plus grandchildren on a regular basis and interact with others who speak my language.
To lead those I come in contact with towards peaceful solutions to conflict, respect for all including ourselves and forgiveness as I grow older and wiser.
To create a haven where my family and friends feel welcome, close by and accepted at any time.
In order to achieve these life-fulfilling goals I need:
To abstain from alcohol use totally. To be sober and alert each evening of my life.
To practice daily, habitual meditation and physical exercise for the benefit of my body and soul.
To practice disciplined behaviour on a daily basis until it becomes second nature to me.
To help others on this forum as others have continuously helped me.
To invite the relocation to English Canada as a focus of my meditation and to find ways to make the move appealing to my husband as it is a foreign idea to my French (though bilingual) hubby.
I've managed through the ass-kicking, tongue lashing, love, support and encouragement of the people on this forum to cut my drinking down to almost never. Rather than continue to sabotage myself (in order to prove to myself that I am a loser
) by drinking one glass of wine here and there I will finally stop indefinitely and will journal here every few days. I believe that I can do this. I believe I am ready. My aspirations are difficult to achieve but I will achieve them. The first step towards my goals is Self-Mastery ... controlling my impulses.
Day One Today.
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