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    #61
    Re: One Year!

    I posted in the nest but want to keep track here too.

    I called the restaurant and apologized. They asked me if I was ok. Can you believe that? They said I can come talk to the manager and bartender in person if I want to which I will. I will face them and speak to them (and pay my bar tab!) I guess I got escorted out before paying.

    I remember a bit more from that night- I am pretty sure I fell in the bathroom and someone came to check on me. Then someone walked me to a more private area where the cops came and the security officer for the mall was with me. I kept crying and they all kept saying “you are not in trouble, we just want to make sure you get home safe”. That’s all I can remember.

    I’ve been reading through some of my old journals and getting to know the person I used to be before I was an alcoholic. I was such a sweet and kind person! I enjoyed reading through, and remembering that I wasn’t always like this. I’m trying to be that person again who gets through tough times by writing and normal healthy activities! I was a hoot!

    Well, it’s Friday and I’m off to work soon. My weekend will consist of a major deep clean of the house for Christmas and finishing up some last minute shopping and wrapping. And I’m going to do more journaling.

    Happy weekend everyone! Xoxo
    Day 1 again 11/5/19
    Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
    Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
    Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
    11/27/19: messed up but back on track
    12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

    One day at a time.

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      #62
      Re: One Year!

      :heartbeat:

      'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

      Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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        #63
        Re: One Year!

        Testing testing
        Day 1 again 11/5/19
        Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
        Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
        Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
        11/27/19: messed up but back on track
        12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

        One day at a time.

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          #64
          Re: One Year!

          Hey there! Time for a check in!

          So I stayed sober awhile after that last time. But then I didn’t.

          I am here to say that each trip down the rabbit hole was worse and worse. (Our minds know this, but we do not listen).

          So, I checked myself into treatment on October 8th, 2020. I did 30 days inpatient rehab and it was hard and wonderful at the same time.

          I have been sober since I walked into that rehab center. I’m glad I went but I never want to go back there again.

          I needed rehabilitation to show me and teach me how to deal with trauma. How to deal with the emotions that normal people deal with every day. How to accept that once you are a pickle, you can never be a cucumber again. I absorbed everything I could at that rehab and will never forget what it felt like.

          Nowadays, I take much better care of myself. I am healthier emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

          I am sober today. 24 hours at a time.

          Nursie
          Day 1 again 11/5/19
          Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
          Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
          Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
          11/27/19: messed up but back on track
          12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

          One day at a time.

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            #65
            Well done Nursie, and great to see you back!!
            Quitting and staying quit isn't easy, its learning a whole new way of thinking. It's accepting a new way of life, and not just accepting it, embracing it...
            Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Just get through today. Tomorrow will look after itself when it becomes today, because today is all we have to think about.
            Friendship is not about how many friends you have or who you've known the longest. It's about who walked into your life, said "I'm here for you", and proved it.

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              #66
              Re: One Year!

              Hi All
              Welcome back Nursie. I along with just about everyone here didn’t get sober on the first try. The difference with you is realizing there are other tools and methods to help you get sober. You also realize this is a serious problem. I didn’t . I wasted a lot of time at playing with trying to get sober. The support you know you will get here along with the methods you are using will help you find your key to living a sober life
              Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
              AF 5-16-08

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                #67
                Re: One Year!

                Hiya, Nursie:

                I'm sorry you got too far down that rabbit hole, and I am very glad you went to treatment and it helped. Congratulations on your resolve and 4+ months sober.

                It is great to see you here. I hope you are well.

                xo
                Pav

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                  #68
                  Re: One Year!

                  Yay! Wait a minute.....no.....Super Yay!!

                  Great work Nursie. And great to see you. thanks for the update. x

                  What does the future hold? Any plans for the year?

                  'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

                  Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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