Page 11 of 13 FirstFirst ... 910111213 LastLast
Results 101 to 110 of 130
  1. #101
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    Good morning early nesters!

    It's my birthday! ooh ya, it's my birthday! Not really my birthday but IT FEELS LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Day 30 my friends. And no looking back!

    In honor of my special day, I am celebrating and bought myself a treat. http://fighterdiet.com/fitness/store...tion-challenge. I used to be an athlete and since I'm fat from drinking, why not? Now, I'm not doing it to win but to win back my health, my determination and prove to myself that I'm not a washed up drunk. Wish me luck! (anyone else care to join me?)

    Have a great day nesters! I will.
    The easy way to quit drinking?:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ow0lr63y4Mw

  2. #102
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    Hey, just thought I would expound on my comments that I have made as far as not being able to play the scenario out in my mind as to if I drink. What happens when I try and do that is I go right to a vision that I have seen so many times on the show Intervention or shows similar to that. It is me, in a heap, somewhere (I usually imagine me behind a store), alone, scared. I imagine I have black, swollen, sad weepy eyes, bruises on my body, I'm dirty and cold. I'm afraid yet I don't realize anything because I am so out of it. The typical look of a heroine addict strung out. Fortunately, that has never been me but that is the vision that I get every time I "try and go there" Isn't that scary? That's why I say it's just disgusting and repulsive to even think of having a drink. I just can't. I don't know, maybe it's God showing me what I could be if I don't stop. That's my stopping point? Death? There is no difference between me and that person except the next drink.

    Anyway, that was a good cheery thought before bed huh?
    The easy way to quit drinking?:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ow0lr63y4Mw

  3. #103
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    Quote Originally Posted by Pavati View Post

    Overit - I know that image well, as I used to sit and drink and watch Intervention, thinking well, I must be ok because I'm nowhere NEAR that bad (glug glug). My image is me in a suffering state as I was my last day of drinking. I can still conjure that horrible feeling so quickly! NEVER will I go back there.
    Pav-it's just scary because I see this poor girl, sick and helpless and alone, reach up for me and then she raises her face to look at me, and.......it's me. No bag. I can see her eyes and soiled hair and the emptiness in her/my eyes. brrrr.....gives me goose bumps. I just keep reliving that scene in my head, over and over, daily, reaching up for me and looking at me right in the eyes. No words but at the same time begging for help. And I think, oh, that poor girl is loved SO MUCH by her parents but she is so lost and forgotten and dumped...............

    Well, I could just go on and on about this vision that is SO REAL to me.
    The easy way to quit drinking?:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ow0lr63y4Mw

  4. #104
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I go again! I was overwhelmed at work, thought I had a handle on it, mom is dying 450 miles away, celebrations for new pets and friends, summer camping, stepped away from the Word and my prayer life...........I could go on and on. Nothing new, no excuses. Husband hates me. blah, blah, blah. Here we go again!

    5/10/15

  5. #105
    Forum Subscriber. jane27's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2012.
    Posts;
    2,000.
    Post Thanks / Like
    You can do it Overit. Some times I forget how bored I became by the redundancy of it all. That was helpful actually. Second came tired of feeling sick all the time. I faked the determination piece by self brain washing, staying busy & avoiding everything I even felt a hint of not wanting to do. Faking it worked and helped me build muscle while at the same time accumulating days. Next I started copying other people and it all came together and built up speed. I conned myself at times! You just need to build of a little strength in your sober legs and massage that daily into NOWAY. Have you ever been relentless about anything? I've been relentless about lots of things including eating cookies, picking at boo boos, and just about anything else one could possibly be OCD about. The trick is finding a way to be relentless about this one thing. Whatever it takes. Rooting for you. Its going to happen you you. It really is.
    AF since January 7, 2014 *Never, never, never give up. ~ Winston Churchill*

  6. #106
    Registered User. SoberSoul's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th July, 2013.
    Posts;
    494.
    Post Thanks / Like
    Over-It, make sure you come back!! The worst thing you can do is stay away. Glad you posted. Imagine a year from now you can say I am sober for a whole year except a little hiccup early in my recovery ... and that hiccup is this one little blip!! Keep going. Over thirty days accomplished. You are on a roll. Ignore the blip and keep going. Don`t fall back into the old patterns. Do it for hubby, do it for us, do it for your son and your grandson but most importantly, DO IT FOR YOU!! I have been where you are many times and it`s more important now than ever to stay close to this site and post, post, post. Come visit us at my thread └nyone in the First Week of Their Umpteenth Quit. We will help you through this. Hugs.
    "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
    Lao-Tzu

  7. Likes jane27 liked this post
  8. #107
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    HA!!! Here I go again. Are you sick of hearing it? I am. But, what can you do but just keep trying. When I stop trying is when I'm dead. Today I'm just so grateful to be up, alive, sober and loved by God, who's mercy is renewed daily. (Thank goodness!)

  9. Likes ItsJustMe liked this post
  10. #108
    Registered User. Overit-still's Avatar

    Join Date;
    10th January, 2014.
    Location;
    USA.
    Posts;
    644.
    Post Thanks / Like
    Day 7! Feeling good and thankful. My house is party central right now with in-laws. I know I'm kind of a kill joy right now, at least I feel like it but I gotta do what I gotta do. It would be nice to go away for awhile with a bunch of books, my running shoes and my dog but instead life calls and I must engage.

  11. #109
    Registered User.

    Join Date;
    28th July, 2012.
    Posts;
    86.
    Post Thanks / Like
    I will never have this licked (my father relapsed after 9 year sober and that relapse eventually cost him his life) but I just choose not to dwell on what I'm missing but instead on what I am gaining, daily.
    [/QUOTE]

    I am enjoying reading your story. I can relate in SO many ways.

    I am back after a long absence (unfortunately just from the site and not AL) and this is my first post since the format change...so...

  12. Likes Overit-still liked this post
  13. #110
    Registered User.

    Join Date;
    28th July, 2012.
    Posts;
    86.
    Post Thanks / Like
    So...that didn't work exactly right.

    I meant to lift your quote, above [?QUOTE] and comment on it.

  14. Likes Overit-still liked this post

Similar Threads

  1. Life on life's terms...
    By briseus in forum Just Starting Out?
    Replies: 7
    Last Post: July 26th, 2014, 09:12 PM
  2. Replies: 24
    Last Post: December 11th, 2013, 08:24 PM
  3. Exciting Science News re: CERN
    By techie in forum General Discussion
    Replies: 2
    Last Post: November 12th, 2010, 11:52 AM
  4. Wow, Exciting! More Specific Directions?
    By Topsy-Turvy-Tracy in forum Medication Research and Support
    Replies: 7
    Last Post: October 3rd, 2010, 04:45 PM
  5. how exciting my first self-suture
    By Determinator in forum General Discussion
    Replies: 49
    Last Post: September 29th, 2008, 08:20 AM

Bookmarks

Bookmarks

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •