Not exciting, but still My Life

[Alcoholic]

Over it :

if you don't think you have issues w the past, don't let others convince you have issues. If you do feel there were issues in the past that caused you to drink, then you should deal w them through therapy.

Not everyone who has issues drinks excessively. And not every alcoholic drinks due to their "severe issues", either.

Don't over analyse why you drink. Deal w the problem: the alcohol first. Then if there are emotional issues left over, you can definitely deal w them w a clearer mind....

Good luck,

Ally

[Kradle123]

Overit44;1429586 wrote: Kradle-not her. I, fortunately, did not start drinking until I was 35, my son was 17, so he had a pretty good life growing up. I did have a temper with him and he's the only one that has ever brought it out in me. I really gave him some issues I think. I do not show emotion to anyone very often. My husband, even though he is such a man's man, is hurt sometimes because I don't show that emotion.

Byrd-WOW, it's going to get harder on the acceptance/regrets stance? Bummer. Thanks for your wisdom. I really appreciate it and you watch, I'm going to lick this thing. I am one strong chick when I put my mind to something.

Yes, Overit. That is different. I guess I just miss her despite what happened and you stories sound similar.

I wish I could say I didn't start drinking till 35 but I was well on my way by then.

:l

[NewOne]

I think the "issue" mindset will keep you in the abyss. You will never dig yourself out because there will always be an "issue" to fall back on.

I've used every issue known to god to keep drinking. Hell, I even made a few up.

Well guess what? When I became totally honest with myself, I found the same thing as you did. I drank because I liked to get drunk. I just hated the consequences of drinking.

Issues are excuses, nothing more nothing less.

Brutal honesty with yourself will get you where you need to be.

Overit44;1429636 wrote: That's what I was saying about the Eagles song "get over it" That's the way I feel about most things.

But, even my physician didn't want to prescribe AB to me if I wasn't going to deal with the "stuff" behind the drinking. I didn't know there was any. I just thought I liked to get drunk but I guess, from what others say, there are underlying issues and I eed to digure out what those are.

[kuya]

Overit44;1429556 wrote: Maybe that's part of the issues I have to deal with huh? LOL.

I just look at others and think, I had a roof over my head, had 2 parents under one roof, had food, not a lot of money but I was taken care of, lived in a great little town, had pets, and my dad did not beat or abuse anyone, had great memories of family camping, movies, laughs and love. For that, I think compared to alot of kids, makes for a "wonderful" household. Sad huh?

What you have going for you most is the ability to put things in perspective. When I made my comment I only intended that you appreciate that life wasn't rosey.

Your parents did the best job they knew how to do and should be commended for all the good stuff.

I just feel that a big part of recovery, when you are ready and confidently sober, is to see EVERYTHING clearly. Then nothing will trip you up.

You are a strong woman, you will be fine IMO :h

[SKendall]

[Mick]

Over it....thank you for telling your story.....you sound as if you are determined to succeed and I wish you the very best..you can do it......you cant change the past and you will always have thoughts and regrets about it what happened ,what you did what they did etc....dont ruin the future by living in the past......you can do it :l

[Overit44]

Today is day 10. I should wait until tomorrow to post because that would be my all time record.

My observations so far:
I am generally a nicer person, overall. Calmer, more patient, I smile, I listen, I enjoy making others feel good. I can sleep. I haven't slept through the night, for more than one night, in years, really! A walking zombie for more than one reason. I actually can get up, go pee, and go back to bed and fall asleep. I look forward to the alarm clock being turned off. I'm not afraid at bed time anymore. I do have a wee bit more energy, but I'm sure that will come with time. I'm not losing weight like I thought but when I check back here after awhile we'll see where I'm at. I just love being refreshed, alert, sober. I don't have to put things off planning for my drunk. I can drive at the drop of a hat, not have to plan errands. It really is so freeing, not to have that chain attached to me. I have been logging my days on the Newbies roll call but I will quit doing that on a DAILY basis only because I don't want to be attached to a number (although everyday I'm proud) I just want it to be my new normal. I just don't drink, that simple. It's poison. I wouldn't drink Lysol or motor oil, would I?

Overit-see you in a few days. Hang tough!

PS-You are such and awesome person. (and cute too)

[RingingCedars]

You sound great Overit. Keep it up! Just a thought, don't under estimate the value of checking into MWO.

[Overit44]

Silent-oh, no. I'll still be here. I just dont' want to count the days off the calendar EVERYDAY on the Roll Call board. I'm not going anywhere.

[paulywogg]

hi overit,i never really cared for counting the days either,its like id get to a certain number and be sure id fail,or it feels like countdown to nothing,this doesnt go away in 30 days or 30 years