I think i'm an alcoholic but i'm not sure!

[Lotus]

Hey Belle

Welcome to MWO. I don't think that there is a "real" definition of alcoholic. Everyone is differen. For me it's because everyday I find an excuse to drink. Why can't I go by one day without drinking. Because it's an addiction I need to break.

Keep posting and reading. Let us know how you get on. Have you got a goal in mind whether to be AF or to abstain?

Mandy x

[Lunapro]

Hi Belle -

It really isn't important to decide whether or not to call yourself an alcoholic. All you need to know is that if you decide you want to stop drinking the way you are, and feeling the way you have been, you can. I was in a similar situation, also a mother, also very unhappy. I feel so much better now.

There's a lot of helpful information in the book, and a lot of support on the site. Good luck to you.

[Beaches]

Welcome Belle and I loved you last line of wanting to become the beautiful person that's lurking inside. I also hated waking up in the morning wondering what was said, what had been done and if I caused myself any embarrassment I wouldn't remember but would have to answer for later on. I avoided conversations for fear of being "figured out". That was mainly with my family. What a great family life huh?

I am also a mother of 3 and one of my biggest motivations to get better was for my children and for myself. I needed to feel good about me again. And I do. Keep coming here and keep talking. It works. I was never a big talker and still am not with my family and friends at home but with my friends here I talk much more. It has done me wonders.

I wish you all the very best. Also I agree it doesn't matter what the label is whether you are an alcoholic or not. In your mind you have a problem and that's enough isn't it? Stick around, you've found a wonderful group of people.

[akay]

Belle:

I am new here also. I have had the same problems you have. It is scary not knowing where I have been and what I have said. I never thought I would experience blackouts.

How do I stop?

akay

[Belle]

I went in the pool with th kids last night, it was so hot and I was craving a beer. There was no beer in the house so i found some wine, part of my problem, got to drink so really doesn't matter. The first glass went down OK, so I poured another. That was it for me and i felt really good about not needing to finish the bottle! Oh, I forgot to mention that I'd ordered the Kudzu Rescue and L-Glutamine and have been taking it for 3 days. Could it be working or I am consciously making the effort I neede to start making a long time ago! have a great day everybody and thanks for 'talking to me'. Another part of my problem is I'm a Brit in the USA, been here fore 20 years and still incredibly homesick!

[Kitty]

Hi Belle,

That's a really good start, those baby steps we take do eventually turn into strides.

Sorry you are feeling homesick, I know how you feel and I've only moved a couple of hundred miles away recently.

Keep coming here Belle, I'm sure it will help you enormously.

Look forward to seeing you around.

Kitty

[Belle]

Thanks Kitty......... have some fish & chips for me! Wow, do i miss walking to the chippy on a Friday night after the pub closed!

[Kitty]

Belle we have something from the "chippie" every Friday so I'll think of you.

Hope you find the L-glutamine helpful. I've been taking it for just over a week and it does seem to be working, I've been af now for 10 days and cigarette free for 9 and I'm managing the cravings pretty well.

I didn't get on so well with the Kudzu but everyone seems to react differently to different things. That I think, is the beauty of MYO, there is a wealth of info here and it really is a case of finding the things that work for you.

Good luck,

Kitty

[JadeRiverG]

I just registered today after waking up with yet another raging hangover and the self-loathing that goes along with that. I read some testimonials and also read several posts from unsatisfied customers who said the products were questionable, perhaps even unsafe. That's pretty unsettling. Can I just ask what nutrients/supplements are rec'mded and go buy my own from people I trust? I'm nervous about getting anything online anyway and after reading the posts from unhappy customers who have had problem after problem, I am not sure I will ordering anything from the company. Can someone help me out?

[Belle]

Hi Jade,

I don't know enough about the products to give advice as I'm new here myself. I joined for the same reason as you and am hoping to gain some good advice from other members. Good luck.... to both of us!