I think i'm an alcoholic but i'm not sure!

[Belle]

I think i'm an alcoholic but i'm not sure! I've convinced myself most of my adult life that I'm not because I've never missed a day of work, however I've gone to work feeling pretty crappy and sometimes blowout early so I can come home and nap before the kids get home from school, (pretty easy to do when you're in outside sales!). I keep telling myself I need to quit but don't have the want or the will power. I find myself in situations where I'm reaching for the ultimate feel good buzz then wake up the next day in a cold sweat trying to remember what I said to the people around me or what stupid thing I did to embarress myself that may have seemed like fun at the time. I had a close call a couple of weeks ago, I was pulled over for using my cell phone without an earpiece and the cop ended up letting me go, if he'd taken me out of the car for a breathalizer test I would surely have failed. I didn't drink for a whole 2 days after that, thought I could kick the habit after being so lucky but alas that wasn't the case. Please talk to me, give me advice, tell me your story. I'm an unhappily married mother of 3 beautiful kids who's just looking to lose the 'crutch' and become the beautiful person that's lurking inside of me!

[Bella]

Belle..............Welcome to MWO. You will find lots of support here. Read the posts and you will realise you are not alone with your struggle. It is great that you have decided to make a change. Lots of love, Bella xxxx

[Guest]

Belle,
You`ve come to the right place. We`ve all been exactly where you are-myself until very recently. The support and encouragement I found here gave me the courage to start sorting myself out. Everyone here will help you all they can.

Best wishes,

Starlight Impress

[ducky]

Welcome Belle,

That must have been quite a scare, but sadly it takes a lot to make most of us decide to take control of our problem. Keep reading and posting. You will find lots of help here.

[sammys]

Welcome Belle, I have found after being with MWO for a while now that its a journey of self discovery. You decide what will be right for you, and then you decide as you go along what works, what does not et. I will say it is not easy and there is no magic, but anything in life work having takes time, effort et.

Glad your here,
Sammys

[Kitty]

Hi Belle and ,

I would echo what Sammy's said it is certainly a journey of self discovery. You will find tremendous support here and lots of tools to help you.

Read as much as you can and post if you have questions, there are people all around the world here, so there is always someone, somewhere, who will try and be of help.

Wising you the very best of luck!

Kitty

[IAD]

Belle,

Here, Here - Kitty hit the nail on the head. Lots of support here. IAD

[Belle]

Thanks so far to all of you for your encouragement. This is the beginning of a new journey for me and I'll now look forward to coming home at the end of the day to share my stories, read yours and finally know there is a way out.

[ducky]

Hey Belle,

Glad you joined us tonight. There is a way out.

[go2goal]

Welcome - I am new too and am finding great things here - support, resources, and experiences are helping me take a good look. Keep posting, explore the threads.....it takes some time at the computer (like everything else these days), but fit in in - maybe during your usual drinking times. For me, I had a social need, but still ended up alone with my glass of wine dialing friends on the phone..............

Now, there is this place to explore people's stories, to journal if need be, you can use this site for many things. Welcome!!!