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Hi everyone
I joined this board a few weeks ago but have to admit I have been failing pretty badly and felt like a "fraud" to post. I'm 31, have two beautiful girls (2 years and a baby 5 months). I was on this board in 2006 with the same problem with alcohol (although a lot worse) until I fell pregnant with my now daughter. I abstained throughout my pregnancy but found myself waiting until I could have my first glass of wine. Once my baby was born in November 2007 (about a month later) I started up drinking again. I drink because I suffer severe anxiety and depression and to be honest drinking relieved it at the beginning, but now it only makes me worse. I am on medication for my depression and am feeling better. I now really want to stop drinking - I can see my addiction escalating like before. I drink every night a bottle of wine or more if I can get it. For the last couple of weeks I have been trying to moderate but have realised I can't. Once I get "tipsy" I just lose my sense and want more and more, waking up with total regret and guilt for my babies. I love them more than anything and want to try to stop drinking altogether for them as well as myself. I find when I don't drink I get really ratty and irritable and can't sleep very well - does this last for long???? Any words of advice would be great on how you manage to abstain when "Craving" or feeling irritable etc. Look forward to hearing from you and wish me luck on this 30 day AF. I am going to do this!!!!!!!
Hi everyone
I joined this board a few weeks ago but have to admit I have been failing pretty badly and felt like a "fraud" to post. I'm 31, have two beautiful girls (2 years and a baby 5 months). I was on this board in 2006 with the same problem with alcohol (although a lot worse) until I fell pregnant with my now daughter. I abstained throughout my pregnancy but found myself waiting until I could have my first glass of wine. Once my baby was born in November 2007 (about a month later) I started up drinking again. I drink because I suffer severe anxiety and depression and to be honest drinking relieved it at the beginning, but now it only makes me worse. I am on medication for my depression and am feeling better. I now really want to stop drinking - I can see my addiction escalating like before. I drink every night a bottle of wine or more if I can get it. For the last couple of weeks I have been trying to moderate but have realised I can't. Once I get "tipsy" I just lose my sense and want more and more, waking up with total regret and guilt for my babies. I love them more than anything and want to try to stop drinking altogether for them as well as myself. I find when I don't drink I get really ratty and irritable and can't sleep very well - does this last for long???? Any words of advice would be great on how you manage to abstain when "Craving" or feeling irritable etc. Look forward to hearing from you and wish me luck on this 30 day AF. I am going to do this!!!!!!!
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