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    #1

    The Infamous Tomorrow

    So here I sit. Friday night. Buzzed. Home. Bored.

    Can't drive. And, would be afraid that anywhere I showed up, I would be noticeably intoxicated. Why put myself in that situation?

    Ah! But, yet tomorrow.
    New life starting then.
    Tomorrow.

    By the grace of God.
    Tomorrow.

    Two hours and fifty minutes away.
    Tomorrow.

    So Friday turned into Saturday, which turned into Sunday
    Only to be awoken by Monday

    I waited and waited for tomorrow to come,
    But somehow it never did.

    My savior tomorrow,
    Has left me with nothing but today.

    I don't like today. Today is not a good day.
    I am chained to a bottle today.
    I can't do this today.

    I cry and I struggle, I fight and I curse
    What happened to tomorrow? Why am I left with today?

    And then from nowhere, Or maybe per chance somewhere;
    I get the answer.

    I have a hundred times more power today than tomorrow,
    A billion times more than yesterday

    Dig deep, dig deep
    And hold on to today
    Last edited by Next, please; December 14, 2015, 06:54 PM.
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    #2
    The Infamous Tomorrow

    Wow, such a powerful poem. Thank you for posting that.
    And yes, tomorrow may never come, so we only have today. Hold it, cherish it, and OWN it!
    Day 1 again 11/5/19
    Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
    Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
    Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
    11/27/19: messed up but back on track
    12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

    One day at a time.

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      #3
      The Infamous Tomorrow

      Yes, Next,please. Wonderful post. Thank you!
      AF since 12/2/12
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        #4
        The Infamous Tomorrow

        Thanks Next Please, wonderful words!

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          #5
          The Infamous Tomorrow

          Hey Next ... glad to see you're back. How are you doing?

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            #6
            The Infamous Tomorrow

            She just said!!!!! In a heart tugging moment of clarity. Ffs.

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              #7
              The Infamous Tomorrow

              "Bright" ... that was over 12 hours ago. She and I had had some contact a few months ago, so I just wanted to touch base with her.

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                #8
                The Infamous Tomorrow

                I do appologise. I'm sorry that I didn't think before I posted. Sorry again.

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                  #9
                  The Infamous Tomorrow

                  And I do hope that next is feeling better

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                    #10
                    The Infamous Tomorrow

                    I wrote part of the above March 1, 2013. I was on a bender the previous several days and it lasted a few more days. Each next day was honestly going to be a new start..

                    Looking back. there are so many new beginnings I planned that never came to be. New Year's Eves, birthdays, moves, new jobs, break-ups make ups, etc...

                    When I wrote the last part on March 4th and I knew I could no longer hang my hat on tomorrow.

                    So I faced the day. Didn't drink M-F and felt great! Friday I was literally walking on air!

                    Then yesterday, Saturday. Day 5 started with temptation from the start with friends enjoying Bloody Marys. By the end of the night I was in a bar throwing a few back. I had a hard time getting them down because the taste was so bad (yes, I see the insanity of this). Didn't really even get a buzz. I was looking around at the drunk people around me and ..I just felt over it.

                    So today back on the wagon. And even though I really don't want to drink, the beast just reared it's ugly head and is trying to convince me that I do. So, I jumped on here to read, read, READ!

                    Thanks for asking New Day! You are such an inspiration to me. I'm so proud of your accomplishment!

                    Nursie, Almost Free, Boozer and Brightfield, big thanks to you all, too. I am on here reading all the time and you have all made posts that have really helped. Thanks again. :thanks:
                    Last edited by Next, please; December 14, 2015, 07:13 PM.

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                      #11
                      The Infamous Tomorrow

                      Oops! I meant to say I didn't drink Tues- Fri.

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                        #12
                        The Infamous Tomorrow

                        Yes

                        Great poem, Next Please. It outlines exactly the struggles I am engaged in daily. Love AF mornings. Why can't I have more of them? You are doing great, I'm inspired!

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                          #13
                          The Infamous Tomorrow

                          next....you are on the right path....I can see recovery happening in you....stay close to MWO so you don't lose touch with what you REALLy want

                          (I remember drinking wine and thinking "this stuff tastes like CRAP" but drinking it anyway.....)
                          I just won't anymore

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                            #14
                            The Infamous Tomorrow

                            Your poem was beautiful and captured how I so often feel. I am on day one, along with several people who posted today. Spent the day reading posts, gaining strength. My favorite was from a lady who has 7 years sober and posts once a year on the anniversary of her first AF day.

                            We are a supportive community and I look forward to watching your progress and sharing mine
                            Free at Last
                            "What you seek is seeking you." -- Rumi

                            Highly recommend this video
                            http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

                            July 19, 2013 -- the beginning of being Free at Last

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                              #15
                              The Infamous Tomorrow

                              Your poem got my attention, next please. I spend my days frozen in today, disappointed in yesterday, and fearful about tomorrow. Day One is becoming shaky for me, but tough shit. I am not drinking.

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