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[Deilight]

Today is my first appointment with a counsellor after my stupid actions last weekend. I made the appointment myself (know that sounds weird but everything is daunting) and very nervous about it all. It's free counselling so choice is limited so I hope the guy i'm seeing can communicate well with me.

I've been on anti-deps since monday, don't know if they working yet, still cry every morning before I get out of bed! Felt slightly manic yesterday afternoon though. I put a question on the meds thread about Cilift- the pill i'm taking. If anyone has been on it or knows anything about it, let me know on the med thread.

By the way, have been sober for 6 days again! This time is crunch time, my life depends on it!

Hold thumbs for me guys and girls! Stepping in the right direction....

[betty boop]

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Good Luck to you Deilight, I'm thinking about you .....

[rustop61]

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Good luck Delight. I too am 6 days AF and have started counselling on-line. It's not addiction counselling but there are issues from my past that I need to deal with. Getting started is the hardest, took that first step yesterday and felt better immediately.

Rustop

[Guest]

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Delight, best of luck. I hope you get a counsellor who listens and you click with. BUT if you don't; don't give up 6 days AF is great just keep adding one day at a time.
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Mar

[YoungAtHeart]

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Good luck, Deilight. I hope that the counselor is a "good fit" for you and is helpful. Everyone is nervous at first, so don't let that get in your way. You're doing the right thing!

Hugs,:l
Kathy

[Bella]

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Good luck Deilight. I hope it works for you. Please let us know how you get on as I have never had one to one counselling but have had on-line counselling. Can you let us know if it is embarressing being open with someone face to face? I know that sounds stupid but I think face to face help is really what I need. thanks and all the best to you. you are v brave. Bella xxxx

[hart]

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((((Dei)))

I'm so proud of u calling the counselor yourself!! and for being AF 6 days! That's great hon! Please keep us posted, we care ya know :l

[Deilight]

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Hi all!

Umm. Don't know how I feel about today, wasn't what I expected. It's voluntary counsellors who are trained by Lifeline, more a listener than anything. Was good to talk and have a sounding board but must admit I think I need a psychologist. This guy is sweet but I found him a little unfocused. He found me to be very confident and intelligent, all the things I show on the outside! No worries though, made another appointment (it's free and I get a good walk out of it and someone to talk to who isn't close).

I feel good though, the walk definately helped!

Hey Bella, where does one get online counselling, sometimes I think if people didn't SEE me they might SEE me if you know what I mean?I come across all together, confident and focused face to face. Don't be shy about face to face though, they human too.

[Deilight]

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p.s Bella

I've done WAY MORE embaressing things while drunk so I have little shame going to a counsellor!

[YoungAtHeart]

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Deilight, counselors don't usually push you too much at the beginning when they're getting to know you. Maybe you should tell him that you're much more vulnerable than you look--you'll get somewhere much faster, trust me.

Good luck,:l
Kathy

[Finding My Self]

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Delight - WELL DONE! You are really getting on your own path aren't you!!
Good point Kathy made just then...if he's nice and free then perhaps give him a few more sessions.

I love your point though about if they don't SEE me they might SEE me............ brilliant coz I too, (and I'm sure we're not alone!) seem to come over as just about bl***y marvellous until.......... And then get all the stick for suddenly seeming human! Then I really go off on one and the illusion is completely shattered! I've wasted years of good counselling by, not intentionally kidding them but just being too 'confident and intelligent'....as Kathy says, perhaps tell him...honour both of you.

Love and hugs anyway for a good walk, a good talk and 6 days! :goodjob:

I've had citalopram which is what Cilift is.... sorry, had to Google it to be sure. It didn't kick in for 3 weeks and then was good. I had to take it with a proper meal or I got really bad nausea. I began with half a tablet which worked for me - 5mg. Then I went up to 10mg. I have known lots of people take it and it seems to be the waking early (after a couple of weeks if I remember) that was a bit of a pain but as it had given me loads of energy I didn't mind. After a while that settled as well and all was good. I stopped it about a year ago. Came off it very gradually - cutting pills into 4 even (and mine were small!! Are yours?) to avoid a bit of brain-buzz. But that's the other end just for the record. I really hope they work well for you but, as I say, they shouldn't give you any good effects for about 3 weeks so...

Love and hugs - that coffee and sun are calling!
F x :h

[Guest]

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Deilight,
Glad you`re trying to get someone to work with you who is able to see beyond your air of confidence to your inner-self.

Thinking of you and wishing you well,

Starlight Impress x

[julie001]

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Deilight,

Congratulations on 6 days AF and especially on taking the step to see a counselor. That's such a positive step. Way to go!

Julie

[Deilight]

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Thanks for all the good advice guys, I have made another appointment, and did tell him about "my face" that I wear with strangers. He's not a psychologist you see, I think I may need someone with a qualification in psychology. Trying a few avenues, that one was the first cos it's close and free. Next week I'm onto the others. Feeling good, this morning was the first morning in a LONG time I didn't cry before I got out of bed. That must be something.

You're all great and I'm so glad I found you!

[Niblet]

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I wish you all the very best Deilight !! You are very wise and brave I might add to take the smart steps you are taking... Good For You !!!