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[frogger]

ok - now i know people will look! lol
i am so sick and tired of living in a pretend world where everything is great.
i am so fucking tired of drinking and after telling myself time after time this is it - i do it again.

i hate waking up in the morning in "the cloud" but keep doing it over and over and over and over and over

WHY?
ok
i am [named deleted] and i am in trouble
well- now i am sitting here TELLING all of the people on the internet thaT I AM FUCKED UP

HMMMM
why did i do that?
cause i don't have the balls to tell anyone that knows me

good luck to all of you

you all have something that i don't have

you guys all to seem to have so much progress and i keep f-ing up
sorry for being neg on a support page - but thanks for all the support that i did get on this site - you guys rock - i'm just not where you are yet tom

[wonderworld]

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off to type more......

[MyHeartIsDrenchedInWine]

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There are a lot of people not doing so good on this site. Hang in there frogger!

[wonderworld]

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Hey frogger -

I don't know you, but I can see that you've been a member here just a short time. Getting a grip on this thing takes time. If it were just a matter of "it's not good for me so I don't", none of us would be here, with years and years and years of drinking behind us. Many of us felt hopeless, like "the one who would never make it" while veryone else seemed to be sailing along. This is a major life change. It takes time .

Have you read the MWO book? Gotten the supplements? Do you want to try any of the anti-craving meds? Use every tool that you can. There are many here.

Keep reading and posting. We are here for you-

Love WW xx

[hart]

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(((Frogger)))

I keep F*cking up too. U r not alone. I keep plugging away. Maybe we can help each other. Not this weekend tho...........I'm sick and tho I should not drink, I'm gonna......but hon.........I was AF 34 days..........can do it again.....wanna do it together?

[lukalee]

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Man, that sex trick really did work. Not everyone is doing fabulous tom; there are many of us still struggling like you. The ones that are doing great, take their advice, because they were once in the very same boat that you are in.

[greeneyes]

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Frogger, your post was at 7, EST. After happy hour. On a Friday. Careful now. I have been on this site for a litle bit. I am struggling. but these folks help hold me up for my attempts which I post. There have been attempts to redirect my behavior when I fell down, and helping hands and warm hugs and appplause for my efforts. Just try. That's all, just try.

[KateH1]

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Not really snits about failure, greeney, just a firm push on your arse!!! And, just look at you now........you are finally off and running!

You know frogger, we have all struggled.....pick any name and go back to the beginning of our posting here. You will see for yourself. Most of us will admit, that we still struggle some days. We all reach out in different ways, but we all truly want to help!

Please hang around and think about life without the Beast. Let us know what we can do to help, or, just vent!

[dexterhead]

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Hey Frogger ! I can SO relate to your post. I was so excited when I found this site. I thought it was going to pull me out of my personal quicksand. Then the holidays came around ... then January .. I have gotten a few very small stints of AF days .. but I keep screwing up!!!! My friend, I am drinking wine right now. But I am exactly where you are, I hate my life and I am DAMNED close to getting something done about it. Everybody here has struggled. It is good to be frustrated. It really is. As long as it can eventually shove us into doing something about it. Most of us have to find a personal breaking point where we scream, THAT's ENOUGH. I am very close to that.

[tlrgs]

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hey frogger

you have no ideal how long and hard i try to get this far. and still fighting to stay af its hard.i think of it everyday. when i work getting off work . and yes after sex . well i used to have sex i mean lol. but anyway. i live with the fact that i try to kill myself . to get rid of all the pain in my life . but things work and surpisely am alive.for me it took that much to make me see and the fact of everyone that i love left me and i was there alone.so yes some of us are doing very well. and there is something that you have to find out for yourself . you are the only one that can make that change and do it for yourself and we are here for you if you want us . all we can do is sopport you in what ever you decide..good luck.so stay around learn as much as you can.and ask as many questions so that you can learn your best way out

[Flip]

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Tom, the others are right - EVERYONE here has started at the same place as you. Those of us who have put that beast to bed have worked long and hard to do so.

If you really REALLY want to beat this, you will, but you must DECIDE. Not just think about it, or do it half heartedly, but really DECIDE.

You CAN do this, everyone can. I know, because I have.

F.

[keeta]

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frogger, honey...deep breath now...I know what it is like to hate your life...BOY do I...I pretty much could have wrote what you did...I think we are angry...we need to find where our anger comes from...the lonliness...the hurt...all stem from the same thing....we need to dig deep and find it....we can do it...come back and post frogger....check in.

[skootiemom]

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Frogger,

I have been here a while now and continually "F" up... but really, in the grand scheme of things- not as much as I used to!

Keep checking in, reading and working on it...

Skoots

[lillyatter]

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Tom..I read one of your posts where you called yourselfd a "loseR" or something similar,yet in the SAME POST,kept yourself out of a situation that would have you easily falling into beer,which you were determined NOT to.That to me sounds like a VERY strong and determi ned person!I am envious of your self-control and emotional strength!!!Do not underestimate yourself!I understand the feelings you have,trust me,but I just want to point out to you that you have the power w/in you,you have already shown it!More than i have yet,and I have 2 kids and ahusband i adore ,not just roomies ...keep coming here,you are getting somewhere !
love,rebeeca :O)

[retteacher]

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Frogger: I came here in April 07 & for the first few months actually drank more than before I found MWO. I haven't been perfect, but I can honestly say I've been successful. Since April 07, I've have almost 200 AF days...not all in succession but some very long AF stints. Keep trying. Mary