talked/scared myself out of it

[letgolaughing]

hi
so, tonight is my 1 drink allowance. this morning, i felt so inspired that i thought, hmm, maybe i will go AF tonight. but then, i did a search of the forums about withdrawals and have now scared/talked myself out of even trying it. there were a couple of people who had seizures when they stopped and i'm so scared it will happen to me.
I'm assuming they drank much more than I do, but I don't know...

Do real withdrawals start right away on Day 1? or if I go 1 day for now, will that keep the seizures at bay?

ugh. I hate this. this unreasonable fear, which I think it probably is unreasonable considering the amount i drink, is making it so hard!

[rubywillow]

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Let, everyone is SO different in their habits and health. You have to see how YOU feel, and go from there, but always be aware of your own feelings.

[akgirl]

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I wouldn't let the fear of withdraws stop you from going AF. Research it, there is stuff that will help you through it. Or maybe think about talking to a doctor. Cinders did a home detox maybe PM her. Whatever it takes. As much as you worry now, it is nothing compared to the health problems we might have later if we don't stop. And I do say "we" cause I struggle myself.

Sending you tons of support
:l
Ak

[Popeye]

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I can understand your fear, but if you want to overcome it then you must face it.
Like Marshy said in your last thread, how did you feel when you stopped for a week last time, when you were unaware that seizure may be a very slight possibility?
Withdrawal takes many forms. I was a hard drinker for many years, yet I had very little physical hardship. It was like a very minor cold for me that kept me awake for a couple of days. Mostly I was anxious about the future, about what I was going to do instead, but this worry also proved baseless, as I was kept very busy getting my life back in order.
Be calm and just take it easy. Give yourself something enjoyable to do tonight, even if it's just a nice walk and a bath before bed.
You'll breeze it

[letgolaughing]

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i know y'all must think i'm such a doofus. Fear is a constant in my life...it sux.
i need so much reassurance.

Last year, it was about this time actually. I was kind of forced into a week of AF because I had surgery. So, during that time, i took pain killers(percocet)post-surgery and I have convince myself that THOSE pills are the reason I didn't have withdrawals.

I know, I just have to do it. But if there is any way I could get some reassurance for certain, it would help so much.

[Popeye]

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You're not a doofus.
You're frightened. We all were; and excited and a lot of other conflicting emotions.
There's very little in life that is for certain. Try and take your mind off it. It's only one night right?
Stay with us if you like. That's what we're here for

[letgolaughing]

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thanks. I'm thinking i haven't done enough tapering to go AF yet. - i cannot find any concrete data on how much to decrease my intake by per night. I'm all about the concrete, aren't i?

I have only been tapering for a week. and not tapering DOWN exactly, but decreasing each night's intake:

usually last week
Monday- 2-3 1.5
Tuesday 2-3 2
Weds 2-3 4 (oops, went out with girls)
Thurs 3 1
Friday 3-4 2
Sat 4 3
Sund 3.5 2

So, here it is Monday and my allowance today is 1, but I SO want to get a jumpstart on some AF days, ya know?

My short-term goal is to be able to be AF for Friday Oct 16 without any anxiety. So, I am not sure how fast I should taper?

ugh. I'm so over thinking this. typical.

it's 250pm my time. so, it's not crunch time yet. we'll see.

thanks for your help.

[letgolaughing]

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ok, so i just re-read my post about my drinking habit vs. tapering and it got all jumbled together so you can't tell what i meant. it looks like i had 43 drinks on a saturday!! OMG!
darn.

so, the deal is this - monday - usually 1 o 3 drinks. tapered down to 1.5 last monday. Tuesday usually 2 to3, tapered to 2. Weds usually 1to3, had 4, cause I went out!! Thurs usually have 3, had only 1 last thurs. Friday, usually 3or4, had only 2 last friday. SAturday ususally 4, had only 3. sunday usually 3, had only 2.

I usually drink about 1 drink per hour, hour and a half.

so, i know this is not alot at one time, but i do drink everyday. i'm sure my body is used to that and God knows what kind of freakish thing it will do if i stop!

but, tonight, it's 820p and I'm not having any alcohol today. hopefully, i won't have a seizure either. damnit.

[Popeye]

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Let us know how you get on...

[letgolaughing]

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i did it.

[greeneyes]

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I'm so glad for you!!!

[rubywillow]

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:groupluv:
Great, Let!!!! Hope your pride of accomplishment overshadows your fears!!

[MissMerlot]

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:goodjob:


I'm the most recent on here who suffered seizures....
I was drinking maybe 3 times as much as you and my doctor prescribed me librium to help ward them off....
Sorry if a scared you,i scared myself half to death...

Glad you got your 1st day over okay...

hugs & prayers,

annie

[SunDaisy]

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Today is too late for me to go AF, but maybe tomorrow...

[reneesmiles]

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Sorry, but I would be scared too. I would suggest you talk to your doctor ASAP if you are wanting to withdrawal on your own. A man in my therapy group had a grand mal seizure that lasted 3 minutes because he tried to stop drinking on his own. He could have died.

I don't want to scare you more, just know the facts and speak with your doctor. Withdrawing on your own can have dire consequences.

Maybe your doctor can give you Librium or Valium (a short supply) while you stop altogether. That will ensure no seizure activity.