The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

Still waiting to hear from SOS. I know she's OK, just would like to see her here. I'm working hard here now to be able to leave Tuesday for the cabin. After I hear how my Uncle's surgery goes. If all is well, I'm off, and won't come back till I'm forced to, so everyone will get a rest from my busy fingers! :H I'm sure you need a break from me for a while too. Have plans to paint, sleep, hike, rest, just get some peace back in my chaotic life. Hubs will be lost, I know, that's the hardest part of me leaving for days. He calls constantly, is lonesome, can't find things, makes up reasons I need to come back. Oh well, better than him being glad I'm gone, right? Have a beautiful, peaceful, fabulous, sober, productive, spiritual day. I am!

And T, that lifeline reaches to me always, and it goes both ways. Love you, bro.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

pm me your cell number Rubes so I won;t worry about you....if you want

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

ok ruby bags are pack and ready lol still waiting ...

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

Come on, T, and everyone else! I NEED some help, and friendship right now.

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

2 of my beautiful girls were just here. We spent some time outside, taking pics of them among my blooming azaleas. They were like super-models, 'get this one of me', 'how 'bout like this?', 'let me see - eeewww I look fat!'. The flowers are breathtaking, but the girls were more so. Then they went to ride in the gator, and named the paths they made -Imagination Plantation, The Far Field, Over The Hill, etc. Memory making times. Restored my heart.

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

yep even tho i have work i still would love to get away from here for alittle and just not have to worry about things ..but i do what i have to .to survive

[GoodAsGold]

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Yes survival T, that's definitely the key. First things first... All else will follow
Keep safe, eat, pay the bills & yes, rest when possible!
Hope we all survive safely this Sunday.
Ruby "memory making times" beautiful to be reminded of how Joy can jump up & bite our ass hot on the tail of sadness...Good for you & your girlies
MB, fingers crossed for you for interview result soon
Ma you sound like you're in 7th heaven! Really tho, those moments when we feel, almost see the interconnectedness of everything.. they are glimpses i think of the real reality of this gift of life. You store up all the good vibes you can. Thy will become part of the New You, part of the fibre of your being.
Love to all, back to my garden...
Gold x

[rubywillow]

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Yes, T, I understand. But something I've been trying to get through to Hubs for a long time is, 'work to live, don't live to work'.

[sick of being sick]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

Good afternoon, everyone! So much enthusiasm and good news here! I am feeling awesome! Roger, I want to thank you for telling me that I need to fill that empty hole where drinking was with something more positive like going to church. Hubby and I went this morning! We visited alot of churches when we first moved down here, but never found one we really liked, they all seemed so dead, but this morning was wonderful! The Spirit moved me and filled me with joy like I haven't experienced in a long time. Roger, you may think that your words are inadequate, but you always say just the right thing to people at the right time and I appreciate and love you so much! Thank you for being such a great role model for each one of us! Mary Anne, I am so excited for you! I knew it was God that brought you together with Paul on this journey of yours. Your art will shine and blossom just as you will as you grow and move forward with this project. I wish we could all see the path that God has laid out for each of us so clearly. MB, you have such a sweet, caring heart and we all love you and are encouraged by your excitement and love for others! Ruby, like Roger, you are such an encourager. Please don't ever think that your words bore us. We all love you and want to do or say whatever we can to help you. I am so happy you are going to the cabin! Can me and MB come visit? The weather is absolutely beautiful today, sunny with cool breezes. So sad the storm was so devastating and took so many lives. We never know when we are going to die and meet the Lord and I want to be ready and certainly not be drunk when I do! Life is so precious and so fragile. We need to live as if today is our last day and make it special and tell our loved ones how much we love them and how much they mean to us! Even though we have never met, each and every one of you are so special to me and I am so thankful you have all helped me get and stay sober! I hope you all have a perfect day, get out and enjoy the sunshine and thank God for your many blessings! Love, Vicki

[rubywillow]

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You are all welcome at my table. That's not just words; it is the pure truth, from my heart. As our elders said I will break bread with you if ever you pass my way. Even though it is hard work, giving is the power behind my life. And what I get back -- you can't imagine the blessing of giving until you do it. You all give to me, each day, each post. I felt SO alone 2 years ago, then I found this place, and I have friends I can talk to each day. Nothing I can give here matches what you have given to me. My g'daughter's just did another 'hit and run visit'. The oldest, who was my little shadow growing up, (16) is very troubled right now. Her parents are mostly to blame, but I wasn't there for here when I was drinking, and I understand her better than anyone, and love her absolutely. She told me, vaguely, her mother has told her to move to my son's. She wants something, so this started with her making me promises, including moving in with me, if she could have it. At that time I didn't know her mother wanted her out of the house. I will move heaven and earth to help her. If I was 20 yrs younger, I'd stomp her mother's ass into the ground.
The 2 younger girls couldn't stop kissing me, riding around the property making up names for places so we can build signs for them. AL robbed me of many things; damaged many more. I WILL NOT let it take the only caring woman in these girl's life away from them. Their mother is with the drug dealer, again. I have told my son - watch, record, document, then get them the F away from her, forever. He was generous to her in the divorce, and this early in, she's screwing it all away. He gives her child support for the month, she blows it on frivolous things in 2 days. No bills paid, no food, no clothing. Her mother is not as good a mother as a crocodile, so no help there. I've reached my limit with this. One more event, I'm cutting both of them loose, moving the girls in with me. I should never have let it go this far, get this bad, and blame only myself and AL.
Sorry to run on so. It's been a beautiful day, and I've been covered with beautiful, HONEST, kisses by my girls. They know, in their children's hearts, their mother doesn't want them anymore, so I'm their anchor, and will be till my last breath. Thank you, friends, for putting up with my posts. Being able to talk to you takes a burden off my heart.
Rubes

[mama bear]

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Ruby...it's not your fault the marriage failed....your are there now and that's what matters....
do you support your son financially????
Is the ex-DIL really with a drug dealer?? get those girls the HELL out of there.....

[rubywillow]

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No, we help out, but son has an exellant job. His ex could spend it faster than any of us could make it, and there's nothing to show for it. She had to buy name brand, and the show was SO important, plus eating out as often as possible. She wouldn't know budgetting, coupons, sales if they bit her in the ass. Try hard to express the meaning of self-reliance, quality, in the girls. They are seeing now what she truly is, and it breaks my heart, but it is reality. My only prayer is that they have learned some values from us, and understand what is truly important in life. I make them work for the extras, but the heart is always there.

[tlrgs]

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wow im so happy for you vicky .. way to go girl ... ruby you are an awesome lady and the heart of gold

[Guest]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!

"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives." - Annie Dillard

What an uplifting day it is here. So many are rebuilding lives.

MA.... I am so excited for you! New challenges in your future doing what you love to do! So happy your trip has been so inspiring for you.

MB..so hope the job interview leads to a less stressful job. When we are in the midst of such a stressful day to day life we think we know the magnitude of it, until it's over and in amazement we wonder how or why we held on so long! It 's so freeing to wake with an attitude of joy for the coming day.

Ruby.. We will miss your daily posts. You daily share loving advice and guidance. I've many times wandered in my mind to your beautiful woods finding peace and solitude in times of turmoil in my life. Your compassionate persona has held me when I've felt so alone and despondent. Your presence here means so much to so many. It's now your time for solitude and detachment. I know in a few days your inner peace will restore you and you'll come back ready for the demands of your personal life and US!

SOS..it's good to read of your happiness.

T.....always there with a wise thought for our daily lives! Thank you.

IAD and Gold....everyone here.....enjoy your comments and inspiration each day!

Today is 31 days AF for me! I even forget some days to put my red star stickers on my calender! But I always catch them up....funny how such a little childish thing lifts my mood some days.

I'm steering my business in the direction of my original goals. I'm artistic and love designing. Out of necessity had gone for volume of sales instead of the high end designer product. It's been evolving slowly in that direction without my full participation at times. A binge can really cause havoc, I am the business! My brand name is becoming know and traveling the world. Word of mouth is always the best advertisement.

Now in the midst of my messed up life I concentrate on my business and my health. Have pursued some opportunities and they are paying off! AF I can see a future for me that I couldn't imagine before. The dark depression I was in while drinking blinded me to any real future. I'm changing myself. Facts of my life I tried to drink away in the past are being faced and changes have to be made.
Insomnia is my only huge health problem now. Being patient and assume with time that will become manageable. I know my possible pending divorce is probably a factor....duh.

[mama bear]

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:wave:Bravo on 31 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saving...are you on facebook? I would love to see some of your stuff.......or do you have a webpage??