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[Accountable for Me]

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My doctor prescribed me Trazodone a few years ago to help me sleep.... At 20mg's I was knocked out cold within 20 minutes. I always woke up drowsy.... took hours to shake it off. I didn't like it.

Maybe at 10mgs it won't be so bad for you?

[girly wirly]

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afm ive been prescribed 100 mg. its making me very dizzy and knocking me out cold. within ten mins of taking it i cant do the simplest of tasks, but ive just spoken to the doctor and he said i can take the full dose just before bed! phew! what a relief!

[spuddleduck]

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girly, im so pleased for you. you're sounding so much more positive, even though you had a drink. no one said it was gonna be easy, but you seem to be getting your head round it all now. good on you girly

[rubywillow]

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Wonderful update, GW. Take all the help you can get, honey.

[K9Lover]

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Girly~
I am SOOO glad you are doing better! Keep up the good work, you sound really positive! Keep us posted on how things are going!
Sending positive thoughts and hugs your way
K9

[girly wirly]

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day 3

questioning my commitment as the weekend draws near. i don't like that. but i've taken my l glut, kudzu and milk thistle and i'm not going to drink today. hopefully my programme will be in place soon. my small task (or huge in my house) for the day was to tidy and clean the bedrooms. thats done.

i slept for 10 hours lastnight thanks to being sober and my new medication. my mood has lifted alot. however i think i upset my mum this morning. she has lived in spain for 3 and a half years now with my dad. i resent them leaving. this morning i told her i hated where she lived and everyone in her life over there. purely because i miss them, then when they do come home, all they talk about is their friends over there. i'm not interested. probably jealousy. i feel bad but didn't apologise because i meant it. they can leave their family behind and don't see them for months at a time, but embrace these strangers and talk about them like they are family. i know i'm behaving like a spoilt brat, but it's quite painful to think they prefer to spend time with their new chronies rather than their own children and grandchildren. sorry i'm venting again!

[one2many]

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Girly, I think your feelings are totally natural and I think I would feel very similar if i were in your shoes...

[sk8punk]

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Girly just checking out your thread. Keep up the good work. It does get easier along the way. I've got depression and anxiety too but i take Paxil. It seems to be helping alot. Still have some down days but that is just natural. Hang in there. I'll check in here daily too.
Oh and I don't think your being selfish. Its completly understandable how you feel.

[girly wirly]

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well day 4...

lastnight was a huge struggle! but i got through. the weekend is a huge tester for me. an excuse to drink. an excuse to hurt my liver, an excuse to make myself ill, to blackout, to feel guilty, to self harm my husbands wife and my kids mother, to make my depression worse! to probably cause another panic attack and more anxiety.

this i need to bear in mind. all for the sake of two drunk hours. all that pain for no good reason!

[Panno]

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Well put Girly, you are so right its not only yourself you hurt its also hurting the people that loves you most, I think you're doing great and every struggle you accomplish without the AL will make you stronger.

Will be thinking of you this weekend - you really can do it :l:l:l:l

[girly wirly]

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Panno;900385 wrote: Well put Girly, you are so right its not only yourself you hurt its also hurting the people that loves you most, I think you're doing great and every struggle you accomplish without the AL will make you stronger.

Will be thinking of you this weekend - you really can do it :l:l:l:l

you too panno, we can do this xx:l

[stirly-girly]

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girly wirly;900379 wrote: well day 4...

lastnight was a huge struggle! but i got through. the weekend is a huge tester for me. an excuse to drink. an excuse to hurt my liver, an excuse to make myself ill, to blackout, to feel guilty, to self harm my husbands wife and my kids mother, to make my depression worse! to probably cause another panic attack and more anxiety.

this i need to bear in mind. all for the sake of two drunk hours. all that pain for no good reason!

Hey Girly. There are some really good quotes that have been written here at MWO that make us stop and think for a minute before we take that first drink knowing that it will lead to another and another til we pass out and then feel like crap the next day both physically and mentally.

One is - "What would be the point?". You've gotten through these first days so what would be the point of wiping out the progress you've made so far?.

Another is this - it's easier to get through the "witching hour" than it is to get through a whole day with a hangover.

You can't change what has gone on in your life so far but you can have a say in what will happen from now on based on the decisions you make. Bridgit posted something on the Underoos thread a while back. It said "you can't go back in life. So there are only two places to go - nowhere or forward. Taking a drink will take you nowhere that you really want to go. Not having that drink will take you one more step forward on the road to getting your health back.

Check out the quotes thread and copy and paste the ones that speak to you. Print out a list and put it up somewhere that you can see it. It will help remind you why you're going to tell AL to take a hike instead of inviting him to stay for the weekend.

And stick close to MWO. That's one reason we're all here, to help ourselves and others get through the hard times.....

Stirly....

[OverIt2007]

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Hi Girly,

I am so happy you made it through yesterday without caving in with the wine. This is where you and I are different. There is NO DOUBT I would have caved in, so therefore this is why the Antabuse is a must for me. If you have that kind of willpower, then I am sure you can beat this!

Try to get to one week. I know it gets easier at the one week mark.

Im looking forward to seeing how your feeling later on, must go to work now, but be strong and stay positive!

[techie]

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YOU GO GIRLY!!!

[K9Lover]

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How are you feeling today Girly? Let us know, we care how you are!!

K9