Sorry just need to get a rant out as my other half is not responding to my requests for a cuddle. (Even more grrrrrrr)
I was supposed to be meeting up with my sister this weekend but she wanted to meet up tonight instead as she said she felt a bit down after being ill all week - so I said OK. She was down the pub. On her own. She does not have a drinking problem, although I think she probably drinks too much.
Our history is that often in the past we would have fallings out. I always got the blame because I was a drunk - which is a fair point, but I knew it wasn't just me causing it as I don't have that problem with anyone else.
So I went and met her (I have no probs with pubs) - I kind of knew it might be a bad idea as when I got there she kept on going on about how beautiful I looked (er ok I haven't seen her since March but I just brushed my hair and came straight out).
Then she proceeded to yo-yo between telling me that she loved me more than our own parents and cuddling me and then the next minute shouting at me and then denying she had shouted. I had to walk out twice. The first time I relented and went back but the second time no way. She had brought up all this weird stuff about when we were children and how I should remember how good she was to me, like some kind of martyr, and then she went on about how pretty she thought she was. Then she told me I was selfish for never wanting to spend xmas with the family (I volunteer at a homeless project over xmas!)
Frigging hell, it was totally nuts - but I got so angry at being shouted at that I had to leave. I was really patient, but it was too much in the end as she wasn't even making sense and then got angry when I said I didn't understand what she meant. She was soooo wasted. I know I never got like that - at least not outside of my own front door.
Sorry I just really needed to let that out. Thank GOD I am on antabuse - that is just the sort of thing that would tip me right over.
Anyway the rest of the weekend should be better - have lots of other lovely things planned - just hope I can sleep tonight after all that weirdness/abuse.
Thanks for letting me rant! I needed that.
K x
I was supposed to be meeting up with my sister this weekend but she wanted to meet up tonight instead as she said she felt a bit down after being ill all week - so I said OK. She was down the pub. On her own. She does not have a drinking problem, although I think she probably drinks too much.
Our history is that often in the past we would have fallings out. I always got the blame because I was a drunk - which is a fair point, but I knew it wasn't just me causing it as I don't have that problem with anyone else.
So I went and met her (I have no probs with pubs) - I kind of knew it might be a bad idea as when I got there she kept on going on about how beautiful I looked (er ok I haven't seen her since March but I just brushed my hair and came straight out).
Then she proceeded to yo-yo between telling me that she loved me more than our own parents and cuddling me and then the next minute shouting at me and then denying she had shouted. I had to walk out twice. The first time I relented and went back but the second time no way. She had brought up all this weird stuff about when we were children and how I should remember how good she was to me, like some kind of martyr, and then she went on about how pretty she thought she was. Then she told me I was selfish for never wanting to spend xmas with the family (I volunteer at a homeless project over xmas!)
Frigging hell, it was totally nuts - but I got so angry at being shouted at that I had to leave. I was really patient, but it was too much in the end as she wasn't even making sense and then got angry when I said I didn't understand what she meant. She was soooo wasted. I know I never got like that - at least not outside of my own front door.
Sorry I just really needed to let that out. Thank GOD I am on antabuse - that is just the sort of thing that would tip me right over.
Anyway the rest of the weekend should be better - have lots of other lovely things planned - just hope I can sleep tonight after all that weirdness/abuse.
Thanks for letting me rant! I needed that.
K x
wl:
Glad you were on Antabuse though and able to just sit back and watch it. 
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
). It's very hard to be there for people when they want to shout at you and disagree with everything you say, even if you don't really say anything!
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